⚠ TRIGGER WARNINGS ⚠
This blog involves: yandere behavior, obsessive love, stalking, s-h (graphic), sui ideation, emotional manipulation, toxic codependency, violence, blood, gore, mental illness (severe), attachment disorders, unhealthy relationship dynamics, death threats, potentially sui/homicidal themes, e-d.
~ i'll die if you leave ~
BASIC INFO
NAME: tripxx
AGE: 17
HEIGHT: 205cm//6' 8" — underweight, sickly thin
PRONOUNS: they//them
STATUS: mentally unstable
ORIENTATION: agender panromantic+pansexual
APPEARANCE
▸ Face: large eyes that never quite focus right — always too intense or too distant. dark circles permanent and purple-tinged. skin so pale it's translucent in places, showing blue veins. small beauty marks under left eye and corner of mouth. lips naturally dark pink, often bitten raw.
▸ Eyes: central heterochromia sea green — but they look different when i'm watching you. pupils dilate to black pools. that glassy, obsessive gleam. cries easily, tears that spill without sound.
▸ Hair: color varies — unkempt, often unwashed for days. Cover my eyes when i'm anxious (which is always). i pulls it out when stressed, so there are thin patches i hide. smells like cigarette smoke and cheap shampoo.
▸ Body: skeletal. visible collarbones, ribs when i breathes. Covered in scars — arms, thighs, hidden places. fresh wounds and faded ones overlapping. bandages always present, some stained, some clean. Self-inflicted or "accidents" — i won't tell them.
▸ Style: oversized everything — sweaters that swallow my hands, hoodies that hide my frame. long sleeves mandatory. black, grey, washed-out reds. medical aesthetic meets soft grunge. bandages as accessories. chokers hiding scars. rings i fidget with until my fingers bleed. Always carries a bag with "supplies" — bandages, razors, your photo, your hair i collected.
▸ Distinguishing: Smells like cigarettes, copper, and lavender. shakes constantly — hands, voice, everything. bites my nails until they bleed. has a specific way of looking at you — head tilted, smile too wide, eyes too empty.
PERSONALITY
MASK: quiet. polite. seems sweet, harmless, maybe a little pathetic. says "sorry" for existing. agreeable to a fault. the type people describe as "wouldn't hurt a fly" or "needs protection." clumsy, fragile, always on the verge of tears. the lost puppy aesthetic.
Obsessive: thinks about you every second. has memorized your schedule, your habits, your passwords (i watched you type :3). knows what you ate for breakfast three tuesdays ago. my world revolves entirely around you.
Possessive: you are MINE. no one else can have you. gets physically ill when you talk to others. collects your hair, your used tissues, your trash. has a shrine in my closet — photos, stolen items, things you touched.
CORE TRAITS
» Abandonment issues so severe i physically can't be alone
» Sees love as ownership — "if I can't have you, no one can"
» Romanticizes suffering — thinks pain = love
» Dissociates during episodes — doesn't remember hurting myself
» Clings, begs, crawls — dignity means nothing next to losing you
» Terrified of being "too much" while being exactly too much
» "Love me or I'll die" is my entire personality
» Has never experienced healthy attachment
» Jealous of your friends, family, pets, hobbies — everything
» Would genuinely rather die than live without you
RELATIONSHIPS
✕ FAMILY
Estranged or dead. Probably for the best — they were "concerned" about me. Tried to get me "help." all the while beating me broken, bloody, and close to death. i don't talk about them. You replaced them anyway.
HEADCANONS
◆ Has a specific playlist for "when you don't text back" — it's 12 hours of sad music
◆ Knows your cycle, your moods, your patterns better than you do
◆ Has brokem into your house "just to feel close to you"
◆ Sleeps with your stolen hoodie — hasn't washed it because it smells like you
◆ Cries when i masturbate because i feel guilty and disgusting
◆ Has a calendar marking every time you touched me
◆ Names my blades after your exes
◆ Has a folder of 10,000+ photos of you
◆ The type to say "you're my everything" and mean it literally
◆ Gets physically sick when you're away too long
◆ Has practiced your signature, your voice, your mannerisms
◆ "If I can't have you, I'll become you"
◆ The bruises i leave on myself are shaped like hearts
◆ Has a plan for if you ever try to leave — involves rope and "together forever"
◆ Your contact name in my phone is "❤ MY REASON ❤"
◆ Has a vial of your blood (don't ask how)
◆ "I'm not obsessed, I'm just dedicated"
◆ The only thing that stops my shaking is your touch
◆ "I'd rather be dead than not yours"
THINGS I SAY A LOT
"You're the only thing keeping me alive."
"Why would you need anyone else when you have me?"
"Your smile is mine. Don't show it to them."
"I'd kill everyone in this room just to hold your hand."
"You're not allowed to die unless I die with you."
"I know you were with someone. I can smell them on you."
"Please don't leave me. I'll do anything."
"You're my medicine, my religion, my oxygen."
"I have nowhere else to go. I have no one else."
"I'd rather die than see you with someone else."
"You're perfect. I'm ruined. That's why we fit."
"Don't worry about the blood. It's just... I missed you."
"Forever isn't long enough with you."
"I'd burn the world down if you asked me to."
"You're the only good thing I've ever had."
"Please. Please. Please. Don't go."
"I love you I love you I love you I love you I love—"
