cutest trashcan on the block

honestly this is the only ok place I can post this. I’ve been really bent out of shape lately and I’ve been shutting everyone out and I am having such a hard time. And I don’t know what it is. I feel so lonely, like everyone has someone 10x better that they wanna be with and shit and I feel so out of place everywhere. I feel out of place with my friends, at my school, at home sometimes, in love, I just don’t know what to do to change this. I literally don’t talk to any of my friends and it’s all my fault because I am having such a hard time being able to fit in a way. It’s like no one wants me in their lives and I am basically seeing myself out. I wanna die highkey and I spent all last night and this morning fucking crying my eyes out til like 3 pm. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve just never been this bad before. I just feel like I have to write it down somewhere and that somewhere is here.