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These fading days…

I miss her.

Circumstance is keeping our corporeal selves apart, unable to make that connection, physically, a soft kiss, a touch of her hair, to hold a precious hand. Circumstance yes; but not permanence.  The paradigm is changing, the ground has shifted and I see light, I see a future.

But still, right now…I miss her.

In body, we yet drift alone in the orbits of our own lives and we ache.  These lives, the ones we have now, are in flux, because they no longer exactly resemble what they once were, what we thought they needed to be, merely a month ago.  Each of us, in our own way, had resigned ourselves to isolation, almost inviting it, convincing ourselves that this was our lot, this was our path and it was okay…that it simply was.  But now? No. There is something coming, something we didn’t see, didn’t predict and didn’t imagine we would ever have.

I miss her.

These days, they pass one at a time, softly now, slowly fading into the one that passed before.  And as each day becomes a memory, as each numbered page floats gently to the ground, the next one appears with a dawning light of revelation: These fading days are the final road we will ever walk alone.

And, oh, my heart, I love her.

This love grows with every word that she speaks, with every note ‘sent’ in silence and in every single second that I see her, on a simple matte screen, living, there, with me… yet a world away.  While circumstance keeps our ‘selves’ apart, our hearts have already merged.

I miss her, I love her, and she is here.

I feel the beat of her heart when I wake and the rhythm of her breathing when I sleep. She moves me forward, I move her forward, and these fading days are simply there, numbers to be counted until we are allowed to become one, solitary bodies finally allowed to join these merged souls, finally allowing us to be whole again.

I miss you, I love you, and you are here.

There is no measure for this, there is no word.  Two roads remain, one for each, lined by the scattered vestiges of these fading days. In body alone, in spirit aligned, we blissfully kick aside the pages and move along our paths, set in motion by the sum of our pasts, lovingly counted in the passing of time.

I’ve held off long enough and tomorrow starts pumpkin season in my mind. I know people have mixed emotions on this particular style of beer. So… I picked some of the more popular, widely distributed and most talked about pumpkin beers out there and doing the research for you, so you don’t have to. Look for a write up soon. I’ve got a long night.

Okay, so in PVP one day with Ab, reapersmark, thelittlestowlet, and patemmasworld, there was this super salty mesmer who was just getting perpetually rekt by every member of our team in the forest of nipplehell, and they started aggressively say chatting (and map chatting when they respawned) about how we were terrible players because we relied on conditions as a crutch.

So, being the snarky asshole I am, I responded with some variation of “:OOO What?? Playing to the strengths of our classes?? I NEVER REALIZED. HOW AWFUL. WE ARE SO BAD AT PVP YOU’RE RIGHT” So it devolved into them just repeatedly calling us “condi scum” and telling us they could teach us how to really play our classes finally culminating in our winning by over 200 points and in the final “gg”s, “I don’t GG condi scum”.

Are you looking for a gw2 build that suits your play style? Not finding anything on Metabattle that you like? Do numbers scare you? Is your inventory hopelessly cluttered with excess gold coins?

Well, do I have an offer for you!

Since day 1 of my guild wars experience I’ve had a fascination with build customization. The way that Anet works to ensure balance without a true trinity is really awesome, and collaborating with your teammates to benefit not only them, but yourself and each other, is what really makes guild wars 2 unique. 

I’ve created dozens of personalized builds since I began playing, first for myself and then slowly for others. From dps builds to condi builds to tank builds to even healing builds, I’ve always been good at creating the right build for the player and the way they best enjoy the game.

I’d be delighted to make a build for you as well! Here’s how this works.

You receive: 

A fully customized set of information regarding

Traits

Armor

Weapons

Utility Skills

Sigils and Runes

Up to 2 tweaks or changes after review

You tell me:

class

race

preferred weapons

preferred play style

goals for the character

gear budget (if any)

The first 5 slots are 50 gold each! See available slots HERE

Here’s to the next chapter.

Filmed by CHVRCHES and Rachael Wright. Edited by Rachael Wright.

Every Open Eye is officially out now!

Our first look at the #EveryOpenEye vinyl, released this Friday!