dizzy

you're pretty weird for a girl who tried to be normal her whole life

so I’ve been staying quiet because I’m really struggling. I decreased my mood stabilizer anti psychotic medication in mid-may when id made progress on sobriety. the less I drank, the more effective my medication became. it was sedating me more heavily than before, and I thought lowering the dose could provide me more mental and physical energy. it didn’t give me energy, and it’s brought on a lot of bad symptoms. as a result ive lapsed back into drinking. yesterday was the worst day ive had since April. I’m scared and angry at myself for thinking i could safely decrease this medication.

I did go back up to my previous higher dose a few nights ago. it’s just going to take another week (hopefully no longer) before I get back to baseline.

month starting on a monday we have no excuse guys lets get to work and lock the fuck in

yk its actually very chic and avant garde to start on tuesday the second

many claim theres nothing more subversive and revolutionary than starting on wednesday the third

me, when literally anything happens: maybe it’s a sign