memento mori

from Sorting by Joanna Klink

Had I been able to read the signs, had you been able to speak more clearly, had I noticed, not assumed, had you come to me in understanding linking need to need, had I heard you, had you spoken, I heard, as you said the words, the harder course, you insisted, nor have you always lived it, persist, and cannot any longer pass lightly over anything. You came to me in understanding and brought with you the need of a whole life, having for months looked elsewhere, the streets of the town after midnight, a nullity in each living room’s blue t.v., letters to others, drought in the mind drought in the neighborhood grass. Certain you would always be there. Certain you would follow. ]

Joan Didion, writing about the shock that followed after the death of her husband, John.

Tony Dunne, Joan's nephew, recounting a conversation he had with Joan after John's passing in Joan Didion: The Center Will Not Hold (2017).

𝔭𝔦𝔫𝔰 𝔞𝔟𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔟𝔬𝔬𝔨𝔰

Zoya Nazyalensky in Rule of Wolves (Leigh Bardugo)

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it can be really hard to follow through with this advice sometimes. other times it's shockingly easy to start doing the things i want to do. there'll always be ups and downs and lefts and rights when living with OCD, and medication, therapy, and stress management are really helpful. still, even if it's hard, i have to move forward. i have to construct a healthy self instead of destroying an unhealthy self.

The Carrying, Ada Limón

painting this on the ceiling above my bed so it's the first thing i see upon waking in the morning and the last thing i see before falling asleep at night

— “What have you been up to lately?” | Lyndsay Rush

Oh, not much / Just making a fool of myself / Making a name for myself / Making the most of myself / Making it up as I go / Making a leap of faith / Making my bed every morning / Making myself clear / Making a fuss / Ya know, the usual / I've actually really gotten into making a mountain out of a molehill / Making a face / Making an entrance / Making it rain / Making it happen / Making up for lost time / Making tacos for dinner / Making sure he knows just how much I adore him / Let's see…on the weekends I've been making a break for it / Making a game of it / Making a night of it / Making a big deal / Making my best guess / Making my own luck / Making a short story long / Making your day / Making mine / I've really been trying to prioritize making a scene / Making it interesting / Making it count / Making a comeback / Making a difference / Making a mess of things / Making the best of things / Making tiny, beautiful things I'll be proud to leave behind / Yeah that's pretty much it over here—how about you? -Lyndsay Rush ]

The relation between nature and human being: Agnieszka Lepka

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