i have suffered less than christ but have complained way more abt it

Today was a small clean cloth placed over a very old injury

they should invent a body that feels normal to be inside of

there used to be things to watch on youtube

having unwashed hair will have you believing shit like i can’t be saved

[very clearly indulging the urge] im fighting the urge

there is so much content about changing your life or becoming and it’s like whatever man you’re missing what’s right in front of you. Imperfection is forever.

does anyone know what we are supposed to want

it has been so easy for me to isolate and become the center of my own universe in ways that are harmful. constantly thinking about myself — my body, my appearance, my failings, my shortcomings, my broken heart, etc. has made me forget that there is a whole world out there beyond all of this. there are important things happening that I am missing because I am stuck in constant state of self examination like two mirrors facing one another. I want to feel like a small part of the universe again + I want to experience things that make me feel alive again. I think i’m ready.

i was abandoned as a baby & raised by a wild pack of cigarettes

in a way i am my own dead wife