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happy if you have scholarly inclinations there is usually something wrong with your sexuality july

one time I went over to a friend's house and their housemate was making paper in the living room, and we saw this big tub full of water they were using to dissolve old scrap paper into a slurry, and everyone was immediately like "oh, you need scrap paper?" and started turning out their jacket pockets and producing expired coupons and bus tickets and crumpled receipts and old shopping lists and whatever else they'd been carrying round with them for no good reason, and passing it all to the paper-making housemate to make sure it was suitable before it got torn up and dropped into the tub, while people took turns stirring the slurry with a big wooden stick. it was strangely ritualistic, like presenting an offering to some kind of temple elder for inspection before placing it in a watery shrine to be devoured and reformed. pulp for the pulp god.

seeing straight men be disgusted by booktok smut recommenders has actually radicalized me to the side of booktok smut recommenders. girls your taste may be atrocious but i will never disparage you for exposing mainstream discourse to the concept of soaking through your underwear. spent my whole life listening to men talk about penises it’s about time they get jumpscared by women talking about pussy in crude detail on social media. go forth and goon my warriors

That last quote couldn't have said it better. I left my rambling in the tags because I didn't want to add a big block of text here.

I think being afraid of becoming 25 can be combated by like literally hanging out w people of all age groups and realizing that they too have personalities and hopes and dreams and goals and life is not over for you at like 30

I am so inspired by my doctor employer’s wife who’s 52 but took up running as recently as 5 years ago and is now the fittest she’s ever been …… like looking at her I always thought she grew up this way but she decided to make this lifestyle change arbitrarily in her 40s and it literally worked great for her like there is no limit on deciding when to change something

Also realizing that the domestic route is outdated too and women are doing literally WHATEVER they want rn is so freeing…. Idgaf ab celebrities but it’s still nice seeing the new artists popping up being 25 and up bc for your early 20s to be your peak is SO sad like it’s peaking in hs but repackaged we need to get a grip

Also incredibly inspired by all the whimsical & fit patients I see. Saw a 82 year old LADY today who could easily pass for 50 and was telling me all about the new trainer she’s working w now, and it’s helping her go to the gym more. And she literally gossiped to me about how cute he was . Also cannot forget about the patient I saw today too who’s a PA and told me not to worry about age bc he literally went to school at 40 and changed his whole life. Hes 72 and so funny and spry like I used to dread reaching those ages but looking at those ppl and how healthy and happy they are I know its so possible

Shoutout to ppl 25 to 35 who are seeing all the people around them give up bc they feel “too old” to try anything new btw …… like you inspire me SO much bc of you I have sm to look forward to

bitch you better not be sitting and staring at your old wounds forever wtf

im sorry its a great distraction... i'll stop i promise