changing flights so you’d stay with me

being known is being loved

“HERE’S TO TEN. H”

TELL ME I’M A SCREWED UP MESS !!!! THAT I NEVER LISTEN LISTEN !!! TELL ME YOU DON’T WANT MY KISS !!! THAT YOU NEED YOUR DISTANCE DISTANCE !!! TELL ME ANYTHING BUT DON’T JUST SAY HE’S WHAT YOU’RE MISSING BABY !!! SPARE ME WHAT YOU’RE THINK AND TELL ME A LIE !!!

in my head, i play a supercut of us, all the magic we gave off, all the love we had and lost, and in my head, the visions never stop, these ribbons wrap me up, but when i reach for you, there's just a supercut. in your car, the radio up, in your car, the radio up, we keep trying to talk about us, i'm someone you maybe might love, i'll be your quiet afternoon crush, be your violent overnight rush, make you crazy over my touch, but it's just a supercut of us, supercut of us, oh it's just a supercut of us, supercut of us. so i fall, into continents and cars, all the stages and the stars, i turn all of it, to just a supercut. 'cause in my head (in my head, i do everything right) when you call (when you call, i'll forgive and not fight) because ours (are the moments i play in the dark) we were wild and fluorescent, come home to my heart. in your car, the radio up, in your car, the radio up, we keep trying to talk about us, slow motion, i'm watching our love, i'll be your quiet afternoon crush, be your violent overnight rush, make you crazy over my touch, but it's just a supercut of us, supercut of us, oh it's just a supercut of us, supercut of us, but it's just a supercut of us, supercut of us, oh it's just a supercut of us, supercut of us. 'cause in my head (in my head, i do everything right) (when you call i'll forgive and not fight) (all the moments i play in the dark) (wild and fluorescent, come home to my heart) 'cause in my head (in my head, i do everything right) when you call (when you call, i'll forgive and not fight) because ours (are the moments i play in the dark) we were wild and fluorescent, come home to my heart! 'cause in my head (in my head, i do everything right) when you call (when you call, i'll forgive and not fight) because ours (are the moments i play in the dark) we were wild and fluorescent, come home to my heart!!!!!! in my head i do everything right...

my dad–also a writer–came to visit, and i mentioned that the best thing to come out of the layoff is that i’m writing again. he asked what i was writing about, and i said what i always do: “oh, just fanfic,” which is code for “let’s not look at this too deeply because i’m basically just making action figures kiss in text form” and “this awkward follow-up question is exactly why i don’t call myself a writer in public.”