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Currently, my music is very lyrics based. I hope my lyrics create a story or are able to word specific feelings or scenarios in ways one would struggle with or can relate to.

Lyrics and vocals are mostly supported by piano, ukulele and, more recently, harmonizing vocals. You'll find mostly indie, acoustic music around these parts, very raw, bedroom vibes.

I am Expendable Expendable

I’ve got no Where to go To show the world

I’m just my ears, my hands, my eyes I’m no where near a human life

I am expendable Expendable

There’s a freedom in that thought I can do more than simply rot I will do more than others can More than others will

But I’m stuck being as far from human any human’s been And stuck being a tool whose purpose isn’t life but is it’s end

I am Expendable Expendable

There’s no more Going home Or moral quarrels so

I’m just a number not a name I’m just the fuel to get the flame

Lyrics:

I am your ___ brother And you’re my other half Us a pair of pitied twins Burdened by our fated path

Let hellfire consume me If fate decides it to I will gladly play the part So that you may shine my moon

On the day the two of us  were brought into the world The tree gave its blessing to us twins To guard it’s _____

But for reasons that we were too young to understand We were opposites and I was told to stop holding your hand

If the whole world plots to Extinguish your light If they find a need to make you break and cry Don’t you worry dear I am right by your side So just smile for me It will all be alright

I am your ___ brother And you’re my other half Us a pair of pitied twins Burdened by our fated path

Let hellfire consume me If fate decides it to I will gladly play the part So that you may shine my moon

While helping others in the village by the tree I found purpose in the people, lighting up their street Their smiles and their laughter are like gifts from up above Feelings bloomed in my chest, things like light and life and love

But we know all good things must to an end For the time I came back your life’s at the edge I will keep you safe if the world wants you dead But how could I choose you or the life that we had pledged?

I am your ___ brother And you’re my other half Us a pair of cursed twins Bound by fates merciless path

“My sun, Would you join, see A book you’d like to read” And you smiled up at me So innocent and sweet

It appears that soon this Village will meet its fate, Torn to pieces by its people, crumbled under their hate.

The masses claim that justice will be brought on you today, But I won’t see it through; they will not get their way.

“Listen now, my moon, You are not who they say You can change your ways A new part you can play 

We will be okay  I know that we can change Know I love you  I know you, my moon you will stay”

I am only a sun that goes out when it gets dark What are we when pulled apart Opposing twins doomed from the start

Turn me to stone if so then I cannot fault your soul For I’m just as much to blame, oh our blood is one and the same

Long ago there was a tree was guarded by two twins At that time the two of us had near the age of six A “____” spread an evil from within But the stories lies for he was my precious ___ twin.

If the whole world plots to, extinguish your light (As the sun falls under, the moon shining bright)

If they find a need to make you break and cry (I can see life slowly strip from your eyes)

Don’t you worry dear, I am right by your side (As the bitter apple consumes all your light) 

So just smile for me, It will all be alright (There’s a feeling of loss as you whisper your last line)

I am your ___ brother And you’re my other half Us a pair of pitied twins Burdened by our fated path

Let hellfire consume me If fate decides it to I will gladly play the part So that you may shine my moon

Unfortunately I've got no one, this one day Unfortunately I've got no one to kiss

But fortunately I've got many who love me And fortunately I've got so much to miss

I've so many people Who don't fit a certain role A role I'm always told Is needed to feel complete or whole

But watching as the world turns I can't help but feel A sense of strange belonging With a love that's not less real

So I'm asking you now if you could be someone And keep in mind platonically

To not fit that role 'cause that's just not as fun But would you be my Valentine please?

I'd treat you the same, it's all just the same old A date where we bake and look at the stars

Except maybe not 'cause would be real cold So instead could we stay in each other's arms

You're one of so many Who I love with my whole chest

And brain cause love's not a feeling But you know that so I digress

There's not so many people Who I trust with all of me So consider yourself special Cause you see a side so free

So I'm asking you now if you could be someone And keep in mind ironically

To talk with for hours and draw with when we're done So would you be my Valentine please?

All jokes aside I love you

It's really hard for me to say

And not to get real I miss

Thank you for being here today

So I'm asking you now if you could be someone And tone tag half-jokingly

To thank you for everything you've ever done So would you be my Valentine Could you be my Valentine

Please be my valentine And if not that's just fine

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If you ignore the personal parts, this song fits disturbingly well. Expressing hate towards a group of people for no reason other than the fact that they are different, even if the differences could not be chosen or changed.

This particular song shows the singer feeling empathy towards the people they see in the news, and understanding how though it’s not them in the headlines, it could be. It could’ve been them, or anyone they knew and loved.

It’s sad this song that was written half a decade ago, is still relevant. I don’t know if a songwriter’s ever said this, but I hope there will be a day where no one ever relates to this song.

Lyrics:

Could’ve been me x6

I know a girl I know plenty

Some are new born Some are twenty

Some are older Some have lived through war

I know some boys They surround me

A younger brother A good dad to three

A strong brave figure But never strong enough to take

A bullet at the store next door

It’s a miracle to be alive with these Almond eyes of mine And you're suddenly victimized for

All Of the things you do All the things that make you you You can't change and didn't choose

Could've been me x6

Run and hide, don't justify we've Been here before, those countless times we've Had to fight to be alive, Not even I know so I know you sure as hell don't

We will strike then we will die, thrown Down into the ground all our lifetime Separated, no parade to celebrate we’re here Cause we can’t afford to waste time

Not allowed to breathe, still not allowed to be Go back why don't leave Take you deadly disease Is that my Mom on screen? No, but I know In time it could be

Could've been me Could've been me Or my family My niece, she's only three

Why can't we be Why can't we be?

I knew a girl I knew plenty

Some were new born Some were twenty

Some were older All were left to

Rot and die.

I knew some boys Pressured bravery

A younger brother A good dad to three

A strong brave figure But could you ever

Live a life Where it could be

My name is on a silver plaque I’ll always be left in the back

I’ll never be the number one And though I’ll try I know It’s not enough

Even second place is a hopeful state Surrounded by the greatest How can I say that I am unique I am unmatched

I have the skills and talent that I truly lack I have a chance I have place It all comes creeping in that this is a mistake It’s not even worth a dream and I am still awake

I’d lie if I said I wasn't jealous I keep on singing when I am breathless I try to reach ranges, nothing ever fucking changes I’ll never be enough to make it on the big stage

I know that I am good I’m just not good enough What about this useless stuff Is memorable and worth how much I’m giving I’m living in two worlds Living endless lives Nothing seems to matter and Nothing’s worth the time

Everything I do will never amount To something bigger, greater no In creeps in the doubt Saying:

I am unique I am unmatched

Let’s be honest That’s a lie you’ll never be that I have no chance I don’t have place

I don’t have anything worthy enough to play Worthless you are nothing what makes you think any other way?

Forget everything you’ve ever learned All you’ve ever earned All you’ve reassured

All the things you thought that you achieved Don’t be deceived You really believed?

It means nothing You aren’t becoming Something greater You aren’t cunning

Just keep running Nothing’s coming Annoying humming All that’s rushing out

Flooding Keep on judging You’re just bluffing Now confronting

Truth that’s bubbling Stupid strumming Mindless numbing Feel it shutting down

Try your best You won’t succeed

A silver plaque Is all you’ll ever receive

I’m not unique I can be matched

Nothing special Just another hopeless hack

There was no chance Never a place

Trapped in the darkness Always living in the night And it burns if I Try to step into the light

The only time I can Spread my wings and Take flight is Alone

When others are Dreaming Are sleeping

Wandering Lost Afraid

I wouldn't dare step into your life If you don't let me in But everyone's scared of me, don't talk to me Alone like I've always been

Like I've always been

I've never seen the sun All I want to see is the light I just want to meet someone Someone who knows that I bite

It doesn't matter if I've Lived a thousand years If I have No one who dare come near

Someone who won't fear This vampires' tears

This vampires' tears

Caught in a casket Don't ask if I Ever get bored or lonely Cause I do, I do

Stuck daydreaming at night Cause if I Try in the morning I might not survive, survive

I wouldn't dare step into your life If you don't let me in But everyone's scared of me, don't talk to me Alone like I've always been

Like I've always been

I've never seen the sun All I want to see is the light I just want to meet someone Someone who knows that I bite

It doesn't matter if I've Lived a thousand years If I have No one who dare come near

Someone who won't fear This vampires' tears

You kill animals for meat Why can't I then kill for blood Those creatures had a story dreams Didn't you see them try to run

What makes me different from

You know how long it's been since I could look Someone in the eye Without them wishing I were dead Sometimes it makes me wish that

I'm already Dead already

Vampire Vampire Vampire Vampire Vampire Vampire

Dead already I'm a Vampire

I've never seen the sun All I want to see is the light I just want to meet someone Someone who knows that I bite

Even though I have Lived a thousand years I have No one who dare come near

Someone who doesn't fear This vampires' tears

It's up to me it's my destined legacy I admit at first it was a fantasy I was bored and small and weak Wanting something more to me Is this the price for a little self esteem

Wield the sword, carry the name Burn the mark, it's different yet the same

I die and die Til I win the fight Be the only victor if it takes all night

Fix our wrong No one else but you is strong enough

To take care of this mess You must stand and lead the rest

I'm the hero everyone is counting on So I'll die and die and die til I belong In the role they see in me For the person that they need Oh I'll fight and fight and fight till the day is done

I keep coming back trying different strategies The same old attack is this insanity? Finding new and different ways To in the end rot and decay To only come back new with the same old memories

Wield the sword, carry the name Burn the mark, it's different yet the same

I die and die Til I win the fight Be the only victor if it takes all night

Fix our wrong No one else but you is strong enough

To take care of this mess You must stand and lead the rest

Did I ask for this? Well maybe so But more than I life I just want To go home

I'm tired, scared Why aren't I brave? I'm the hero right? So I pave the way

To save the day To bring back light To stop the one That is cloaked in night

This is what I want This is what I dreamed What a gift to have This destiny

To wield the sword, and carry the name Burn the mark, it's different yet the same

I die and die How long is this fight? Can I be the victor, has it been all night?

Fix their wrong No one else but me is strong enough

To take care of this mess I must stand and lead the rest

Goodbye to how it used to be It's time to start again Nothing is the same the fear Begins to grow within

Everything you've ever learned Is challenged, all that's been All you thought you knew, for not You're lost, alone, the end.

Goodbye to everyone you've loved They're moving far away Time decides your future And your feelings have no say

This simple room is your whole world Now the universe is your play Your safest space you're forced to leave The packing lasts for days

You aren't hurt and yet you're scared Nothing but a life to prepare Make it out all on your own All the rest they've gone and grown

Say goodbye it's not the last What can you learn from the past Nothing ever stays the same The only constant thing is change

Chords:

I love you Can you believe it's true?

Everyone else did 'cause they didn't know what you'd do Foolishly I thought you wouldn't be sore when you lose Mature enough to know the fact that I'm allowed to refuse

That even if I lied and agreed it'd be hell for you

This thing inside of me, consumed and stole my body And nobody I thought close to me Realized how strange, how differently

I was I am

I love you and I know that that's not meant to be This feeling is a terrifyingly beautiful thing I don't belong inside of my own body It all feels wrong somebody please believe me

What have you done? What did you do? Do you think you've won? Now that I am forced to say I love you

Alone You've made me alone

Realizing there is no place I can call my home No one in my life could see my body's not my own I thought they would be there for me, but I guess this proves they won't

Saying it's about damn time didn't you feel alone?

Afraid They said they were afraid

That I would suffer, saddened by the time I reached the grave Did they ever think to look me in my eyes and say How strangely out of character, just let me put away

My judgment, tell me everything, by god you look afraid

I've said it endlessly, I can't feel love romantically And nobody I thought close to me I now know don't accept the things

I was I am

I love you and I know that that's not meant to be This feeling is a terrifyingly beautiful thing I don't belong inside of my own body It all feels wrong somebody please believe me

What have you done? What did you do? Do you think you've won? Now that I am forced to say I love you

You're in love When you can't It's a curse it's not a chance

You're obsessing Over nothing Oh your thoughts are not your own

You don't know Your own self Is this love or is this hell?

Everyone You've ever loved They have turned their back on

You No one clocks the fault or odds Or any clear damn clues you drop

Though it's love You've never known Quite a hate like this before

I love you and I know that that's not meant to be This feeling is a terrifyingly beautiful thing I don't belong inside of my own body It all feels wrong somebody please believe me

What have you done? What did you do? Do you think you've won? Now that I am forced to say I love you

Chords:

You deserve more than what I can give you

This is all I can provide and it's nothing new

Oh I would love to give you all that you are

And though there's nothing wrong with me it still hurts to make these scars

Oh you'll confess to me And then I'll freeze

''Cause what would I say? It'll all hurt anyway

Oh Isolate from the start

Oh Hated with no heart

There's nothing else to say To make it go away

Don't know how to change Either me or your brain ah

Oh I Try to give all I can

Oh And yet

It's been nice But now I must go

Thank you truly You're one lovely host

I'll be off but Maybe not quite home

But still you see It's my time to go

Let's not pout I'm sure we'll meet again

I can't promise plans but don't you fret

It will be like I never left

So if it helps Let's say it's not the end

If my time is up and my Mother wants me home Won't you let me go before it Gets too dark and cold

It's a beautiful night No rain or snow And though no one's expecting me Still I must go

Go alone On my own Great adventure

Oh Don't you know

I'll go Travel far

Three days away But don't be afraid