Orange cap boletus

I go by many names, but for the sake of privacy I'll go by Rupert or boletus here Pronouns: He/him > It/it's > They/them

DNI list:

Transphobes Homophobes Radical right White supremacists Racists Fascists Nazi Putin supporters ICE supporters Minors Pro-contact paraphiles Thin ice (you can like, but not comment/repost/dm me): Darkshippers (will update later)

Basic info about me: I'm a digital artist and a 3d artist. I probably won't post any of my artworks or models here tho, since I'm afraid I could be tracked by them. I'm a big point-n-click puzzle games fan, and I have a dream of participating in some kind of ARG quest one day. As you might've noticed, I'm also a fan of steampunk. I love TTRPG, DnD specifically, and I'm usually a DM on the games.

NSFW into further. If you're not comfortable with this, don't keep reading!

Omg I hate people who can't find the most basic information

I'm helping my acquaintance make his character list for DnD and this piece of a dumbass with a whole dedicated site with tons of tutorials laying on youtube is still asking me the most stupid ass questions that he could find answers to if he just fucking opened his eyes and READ WHAT'S WRITTEN and unclogged his ears AND LISTEN TO THE FUCKING TUTORUAL I SENT HIM

Genuinely would've been better if he asked some LLM clanker about everything instead of torturing me with this

I'm really scared of myself recently.. I've started having way more fantasies involving my infamous paraphilia lately and I'm afraid that I can cause harm to someone. I literally struggle to think about anything but those fantasies

Mankind is collapsing, Earth is overheating, evil people are in charge of everything

I don't want all the progress we as species achieved to disappear in front of my eyes, I don't want to see everything getting worse and worse, I don't want to witness the end of human kind in my lifetime

Uncommon advice for transgender folk

Sometimes I mourn the girl I could've became I really wish I could be a cis girl sometimes, completely comfortable with my physical vessel I wish I could wear makeup and lashes and still see myself at the mirror

I wish I had multiple straight relationships throughout my teen years just like every regular girl. I wish I got dumped by some toxic asshole once or twice

I wish my transgenderness was just a phase and then I would return to being feminine and remember it only as a "cringe period" of my life

I wish I loved my name and wouldn't pause every time I sign some documents thinking what I should put on them

I really wanna be like all the puppy people and cat people here on tumblr with creative cages and ears and tail and everything. I sadly can't be like them, because I associate myself with rats the most, so for the sake of authenticity my cage would require:

At least 3 floors

Multiple hammocks

Place to hide all the food

A shit ton of filings to make a burrow

Human-sized hamster wheel

Oh how I wish I could be an apprentice of a hermited inventor

I wish he'd be so touch starved, but afraid to ask me for physical contact. He'd try to get some form of it by putting his hand on my shoulder while I study, and sometimes by secretly cuddling me when he thinks that I'm asleep

I wish he'd act so proper and prudish around me, but spy on me through cracks in the door when I change my clothes, and I'd leave the door slightly ajar for him to peek