buddie fic is never freaky enough for me!
same here, i am compiling a small fic rec (more, more, give me more) for the actual freaks tho! these fics actually depict them being crazy and extremely unhealthy (but they like it obvs) so don't come complaining to me if they are too insane for you and this is not your cup of tea:
"boys, when my baby found me" by nondz (pinkjook)
"Three months later, things are mostly back to normal.
And then there's an accident."
(the magnum opus of this list. okay, so, this is thee freakiest one i've read, completely right up my alley. the writer gets their particular brand of crazy in the perfect way. they watch each other shower every time buck is in eddie's house and they think it's normal, buck liked getting eddie's blood in his mouth when he was shot, he thinks bobby knows that he belongs to eddie and is only on loan to tommy, he bites into eddie and sucks his blood a little in front of bobby, hen and chim (and they are horrified but buck is like ????? this is normal). this all happens before they actually get together. eddie not only supports but also enables his freak behavior and eggs him on. this is genuinely thee most insane fic i've ever read and thee best buddie fic i've ever read because, yeah... that's them alright. they are crazy YAAAAAYYYYY)
"dreaming, given a name" by colonoscopys
"He thinks of that stupid little question—are there more windows than doors? Buck’s always been pleasantly amused by the question. Windows or doors?
(another nde fic. this is also a brand of insane i really like where buck is with tommy but eddie gets hurt and all he wants is eddie and is going crazy with it and just wants tommy to gtfo. everyone treats buck as the spouse in this, which i love! he keeps asking tommy to get him eddie ((eddie is almost dead)) and tommy thinks he's insane, which he is! very good writing overall! massive emotional infidelity from the get go, delicious)
"yes god don't speak" by detectivemeer
"Outside the cracked bathroom door a thudding, electric beat picks up.
“I’ll have to remember that.” Eddie says and he’s not sure what he means but he is sure that the door is part way open and Buck’s mouth is bright pink. Like an oven burn, like a new scar. Something he should not want to touch. Or maybe Buck’s mouth is like a door, opening and closing and providing access to a place he really cannot go, because inside is the scar, the burn, the memory of pain. Maybe Eddie will only know once he goes through.
“What.” Eddie says. “No I’m not.” "
(buck and eddie have sex in the bathroom during chim's bachelor party. this is hot and great! eddie is with marisol, buck doesn't remember who tf she is. he keeps telling eddie that having sex in the bathroom is just what good bros do for each other and there's nothing to it! eddie totally agrees)
"Live and (Don't) Let Die" by xylodemon
"The guy gets straight to the point, asking, "What do you need?" in a dull, bored voice.
"My best friend is going to die. I want that to… not happen."
"No small feat, bringing back the dead. And it comes at a cost."
It's Eddie. Buck says, "Yes," without a second thought."
(eddie dies and buck brings him back. eddie comes back more intense than normal, which means more crazy. delicious and fun read!! eddie is abnormal and jealous, which i always enjoy reading about. everyone notices that it's not normal and buck is like "yeah well i like it this way")
let me put my lips to something by cranberrymoons
"It’s a rush, having sex with Buck. And he thinks part of it is probably down to this, the fact that it’s something that finally feels right-sized after a lifetime of not. That’s a big part of it, but another part of it is that it’s him.
Him. Everything. The way it feels like they could consume each other like fire and it still wouldn’t be enough."
(buck wants to taste eddie's blood, he's obsessed with the idea. he wants to consume him. eddie loves it, YAAAAYYYYYY they are crazy)
i want to feel you from the inside by xylodemon
"He realizes, as Eddie's asking a Texas realtor about bathroom accessibility, that he's in love with Eddie. That he's probably been in love with Eddie.
And there's nothing he can do about it.
(xylodemon thank you for my life! buck genuinely going insane with pain with the move to texas. buck gets a tattoo with the first words eddie ever said to him, in eddie's handwriting, before eddie leaves for texas. they have sex a lot and keep pretending it's a dream so they don't have to deal with the pain of being apart)
hang me up on your bedroom wall by eddiegettingshot
“You’re going to be a great father someday,” Eddie says eventually, because he’s worse than he used to be and Buck’s reverent eyes make him feel—they just make him feel.
“You are,” he repeats, firm. “Don’t you think I’d know better than anyone?”
(my favorite eddie/buck dynamic is where eddie has complete power over buck, and this has it. he basically tells buck to break up with tommy because tommy doesn't want kids and eddie is going to give him the kids he wants YAAAAAAAYYYYY pregnancy kink, no one can actually get pregnant in it, it's just their little freak fantasy)
ring like silver, ring like gold by cranberrymoons
“Did you see the way Parker’s mom was looking at you?”
Gasps. Huffs against his neck where Eddie’s skin is flushed and hot, sticky from their mingled sweat and the flat expanse of Buck’s tongue.
“Asking if you wanted to help chaperone the Spring Fling.”
(parent-teacher conference gets them hot and bothered, because of course it does!! they get off on domesticity. they refer to chris as buck's son in this, which i eat up every time)
we all fall down by cranberrymoons
"Buck hates that he was here for this.
He hates that he was here for this, Eddie and his girlfriend and the fucked up thing with the woman who’s not Shannon, and Buck just standing there in the middle of it, the four of them trapped together in Eddie’s living room on a random Thursday night like something out of a soap opera because they all happened to converge at once."
(the fake!shannon fiasco. eddie sees buck in a spouse role and straight up implies that buck cheated on him with tommy. THEY HAVE NEVER EVEN KISSED!!)
invisible string (tying you to me) by bookinit
“Buck, I’m gonna need a lot more words here, buddy. Tie what for who?”
Buck sighs again, even louder and longer and noisier this time. “Eddie’s shoes,” he clarifies, through gritted teeth. “I—I usually tie them. For him.”
More silence, this time somehow more deafening. Buck inspects a stray line of grout until he can’t bear it anymore, then looks up for judgment.
Chim’s eyebrows are sky-high. “You’ve been tying Eddie’s shoes?” he repeats, strangled and high-pitched. “Regularly?”
(sweet freak4freak fic but freaky unnatural behavior nonetheless. shoe tying can be extremely intimate if you know how to write it!)
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