People who felt nothing in this life cannot sing

I don’t understand. I don’t understand the woman on the phone who sounds annoyed. I know she must be afraid, maybe? But she sounds too annoyed. That a boy is outside screaming, wailing, for help. And she calls 911 annoyed. I am probably biased. I am having several emotions. But hearing him scream in the background.  Just haunting screams. He had him cornered for so long. He didn’t just run up on him and shoot. He had him cornered. He must have been saying something. People had time to call before the gunshots.

How do you look that boy in the face and hear him screaming and shoot him? How do you do that? How are you so fucking heartless?

I know white people have no empathy and are evil monsters, but I still can’t comprehend this. How? How? How do you do this? How did SO MANY PEOPLE hear his screams and just shrug?

Because I will bet money that the MAJORITY of folks in that neighborhood wish the Martin family would just shut the fuck up. I can guarantee it. I guarantee they heard that boy scream and STILL find excuses. Rationalizations.

I know because a white person was hurting me once. And I screamed and cried and she laughed. She laughed at me and cocked her head to the side like she was confused.

However, I take serious offense to this remark;

“I know white people have no empathy and are evil monsters, but I still can’t comprehend this.”

Okay, seriously, what the fuck?

You can’t raise an issue (that, yes, is legitimate) about people using stereotypes to justify violence and perpetuate an identity that does not apply to most people of that label, and then turn around and do it to somebody else.

I’m sorry that you’ve been hurt by white people being racist.  I’m sorry that other people who I don’t know have tried to illegitimatize your struggle.  And I’m very sorry that this innocent young man had his life cut short by such a completely horrible person.

But you know what?  I’m a white person, and I’m not racist.  I don’t like people who are racist.  I am just as horrified by this young man’s death, and atrocities like this that happen daily in this country, as you are.  And I can say the same for pretty much all the white people I hang out with.

So where the hell do you get off on telling me that I’m an evil monster with no empathy?  That my friends don’t care about tragedies like this?  That we’re all racist bastards?

it’s that second shot that’s important.

the woman calls 911 after she hears the first shots, and by the sounds coming from the street, those initial shots either wounded or terrified him (or both). based on his screams, we can assume he was incapacitated, at the very least in a defensive position. that’s what we are hearing in the first 30 seconds or so of the 911 recording.

george zimmerman was not in danger at this point.

even if (and this is a major suspension of disbelief for me) george zimmerman feared for his safety or the safety of others to the point where he felt it necessary to incapacitate the supposed threat, he had clearly done so after the first shot.

but he waited, listening to this poor kid scream and plead, and then decided, without any real authority or justification (because last i checked, neighborhood watches were just supposed to watch), to use deadly force.

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well as you pointed out, I didn’t write it. So not sure why you’re in my ask box.

But that being said, a black person angry about white aggression calling ya’ll monsters is the same as killing a black boy?

Right, because hurting white people’s feelings is more important than killing a black kid.

I don’t understand people like you. I really don’t. I ain’t even know who you are but don’t come up in MY ask box with this faux white care. I don’t play that mess here.

A black kid DIED and you’re in here complaining that somebody called ya’ll asses monsters?

You have got to be kidding ME right now! This is a joke, right?

Do you know how many black people your race has killed? Do you think Trayvon is the first or will be the last that ya’ll murder? Cut off their lives? How many? How many of us did ya’ll kill when you threw us off slave ships to the sharks? How many of us did you kill in slavery when we tried to run away? How many of us have you lynched? How many of us have you murdered cold on the street while wearing badges and uniforms? How many of us have you murdered and gotten away with? How many of us have been murdered while the state called it legal? Troy Davis was not the only one.

Ya’ll are trifling.

You mad because a black woman called ya’ll monsters?

*Jesus take the wheel*

You need to get out of my ask box and off my blog. This life ain’t for you.

Angry black people aren’t for you. I have a 16 year old brother. Trayvon could have been him. I have a 18 year old boyfriend, Trayvon could have been him.

Get off my blog.

Talmbout ya’ll ain’t monsters.

But even if this anon had some sort of point that wasn't stupid and easily refuted... what the fuck are they doing trying to police how people grieve the death of a young boy? The death which is only one tiny symptom of a sickness that is killing way too many marginalized people (and especially Black people)? The murder which is being defended by people in power? Even if people's anger over this was irrational-- which it is not, it is really really not-- grief is supposed to be irrational. Are privileged people the only ones who are allowed to grieve?

And the anger that this anonymous coward is policing is not irrational. How many people heard Trayvon Martin screaming for his life? I am positive that this woman did not call 911 the first moment she heard him scream, and she refused to go outside to see what was going on. I can understand the desire to preserve the safety of you and your own, but this woman could have saved Trayvon Martin's life. She is dispassionate when she hears the gunshot. And it wasn't just her, it was the whole neighborhood, this gated community that is supposed to be safe, that is supposed to be a safe place for people to life, that is supposed to be a safe place for people to walk to the freaking convenience store and pick up a bag of Skittles.

SANFORD, Fla. — Police have released audio 911 tapes in the shooting death of Trayvon Martin, the unarmed teenager killed by a neighborhood watch captain while walking home from a store.

In eight chilling recordings, made the night of February 26, listeners can hear the frightened voices of neighbors calling to report to screams for help, gunshots, and then that someone was dead.

In perhaps the most disturbing of the recordings, a frightened voice cries out for help and pleading “No! No!” and then wailing.

And for the first time, we hear the voice of George Zimmerman, the neighborhood watch captain who admitted to police that he shot Martin, who was walking home from a convenience store to his father’s home in the gated community. Zimmerman has not been arrested or charged in the shooting.

“This guy looks like he’s up to no good, or he’s on drugs or something,” Zimmerman tells the 911 operator. “He’s just staring, looking at all the houses. Now he’s coming toward me. He’s got his hand in his waistband. Something’s wrong with him.”

Zimmerman described Martin as wearing a hoodie and sweatpants or jeans. He continues: “He’s coming to check me out. He’s got something in his hands. I don’t know what his deal is. Can we get an officer over here?”

“These assholes always get away,” he says to the operator. Zimmerman is then heard giving directions to the dispatcher. “Shit, he’s running,” Zimmerman says.

“Are you following him?” the dispatchers asked.

“Yes,” Zimmerman responds.

“We don’t need you to do that,” the dispatcher says.

Didn’t See That Coming of the Day: Jason Russell, co-founder of the controversial nonprofit Invisible Children and the star of its ultra-viral fundraising campaign video KONY2012, was arrested last night in the San Diego neighborhood of Pacific Beach for masturbating in public while under the influence.

The San Diego Police Department says Russell, 33, was taken into custody after he was caught masturbating in public and vandalizing cars. Lt. Andra Brown also noted that he was under the influence, but did not identify the substance.

His overall behavior was said to have been “Very strange.” 

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