But I almost knew what you’d written already, so I don’t know why I was surprised.
WHICH DID NOT MAKE ME HAPPY, HARROW. IT DID NOT FILL MY HEART WITH SOFT AND SENTIMENTAL YEARNING. YOU SET ME UP. YOU SET ALL OF IT UP. I GAVE YOU ONE DAMN JOB. AND INSTEAD YOU ROLLED A ROCK OVER ME AND TURNED YOUR BACK. I SPENT ALL THAT TIME DROWNING AND SURFACING IN YOU, OVER AND OVER AND OVER, AND ALL BECAUSE IN THE END YOU COULD NOT BEAR TO DO THE ONE THING I ASKED YOU TO DO.
I WANTED YOU TO USE ME, YOU MALIGN, DOUBLE-CROSSING, CORPSE-OBSESSED BAG OF BONES, YOU BROKEN, USED-UP SHITHEAD! I WANTED YOU TO LIVE AND NOT DIE, YOU IMAGINARY-GIRLFRIEND-HAVING ASSHOLE! FUCK ONE FLESH, ONE END, HARROW. I ALREADY GAVE MY FLESH TO YOU, AND I ALREADY GAVE YOU MY END. I GAVE YOU MY SWORD. I GAVE YOU MYSELF. I DID IT WHILE KNOWING I’D DO IT ALL AGAIN, WITHOUT HESITATION, BECAUSE ALL I EVER WANTED YOU TO DO WAS EAT ME.
Which is, coincidentally, what your mother said to me last night.