swallow your sadness

The complicated relationship between social media and grief

I’m trying to be a more positive and loving person even when I’m feeling terrible, and I really think it’s working!

This marriage equality thing is so dumb like I have so many feelings about being used as a human smoke screen to hide this government's incredible incompetence and to distract from actual real issues like the Uluru Statement from the Heart or like the government's systematic destruction of the environment. And like it's great how everyone gets to think their opinions are valid and discuss them openly even when only one opinion is valid and that is obviously that all people should be accorded basic legal equality and like it's so frustrating we as a queer community have to waste so much emotional and political energy on this instead of like disproportionate levels of queer homelessness and mental illness. I just would like to not feel like I have to publicly out myself every time people discuss this which is like every workplace conversation. And like I can't even imagine how much worse I would feel if I weren't an articulate and self confident adult. I'm happy people are sharing things in support of queer ppl but also like there's something uncomfortable about everyone making posts saying dw I think you're a valid human being who should have basic rights and I'm like thank you but also I can't believe that needs saying and like don't be too self congratulatory? Anyway like fuck the political classes and fuck Malcolm Turnbull and I hope the entire liberal party burn to death at one of their like sexist dinner party things.

Tonight at a fun and weird houseparty this obnoxious straight white dude was mouthing off about me being "a bit gay" (even after I humoured him by talking about sundews and other carnivorous plants) and I got right up in his face and asked him if he had a problem with that and I could see the blood run out of his face as he freaked the fuck out and wondered if I was going to like, scalp him or something and it was honestly the biggest adrenaline rush of my life I almost wish he didn't spend the next half hour trying pathetically to apologise.