Enthusiastic

I just came to the conclusion that I am more willing to follow a self- love list from a pic off of Pinterest then I am to listen to myself. I don’t even like exercise or eating vegetables or putting makeup on. Why would I want to follow a post from someone who doesn’t even know me instead of actually asking myself... “Hey, maybe we should try a new art style, or learn to draw hands” “Maybe we should try new teas and see if we can find a new favorite?” “Maybe we should actually stop biting our nails off when we are anxious and try to rather draw or journal all of our feelings” 

Maybe I should stop being so afraid of getting to know myself. Maybe I should be a little more willing to spend time alone, with my own thoughts and opinions and stop trying to follow a trend or do things I don’t like...

I think I’ll actually prefer my own company more than I prefer someone else’s. This coming from a professional overthinker and a pro of paranoia. 

24 March 2021

GOODNESS!!! He is such a little bully. And he knows I’m trying to work!!

Before anyone says anything, he is only 7 months old so he is still learning boundaries and how hard to bite me before it hurts. So yes, I do bite him back, but it’s a small nibble to get his attention and show him that he is biting too hard.

Anyway

Hiiii!!!!!

It’s been too long since I’ve posted. I rediscovered my love for OneNote and digital notes. I really love how cute I can make them look. We are doing a poem now called Hanging Fire by Audre Lorde. I loveee it!

Today is sweater weather. It’s freezing and I have my lil heater on to keep me and my doggos warm. I also went through a * aesthetic glow- up * with my PC stuff. My desktop is pretty clouds, and my notes are cute. 

Ohh!! And

I am listening to the Freakonomics Podcast, really does help while you are doing homework to entertain you but not distract you. Highly recommend.

Ok, have a good day.

Day 4 of my productivity streak 

Monday, 15 March

Current time: 10:17 am

Today I set a goal to get as far as possible with my school backlog, because I only registered in March. 

My classes are Pure Math, English Home Language, Afrikaans First Additional Language, Computer tech, Engineering design and Graphics, Business studies and Life Orientation (compulsory). 

I’ve only been able to do Afrikaans, but I wasn’t able to catch up all the way. 

Using the pomodoro technique, and guys. It really works. 

In my 5 minute breaks I stretch and drink some water and walk around the garden to get some fresh air. Also staying hydrated. I did some yoga this morning and then I will again before bed.

I’m starting a detox today. My sugar intake has become really unhealthy. So I’m gonna buy a chai detox tea. I’ll post a picture of the tea I managed to get. Any other cheap recommendations?

Currently listening to: sunsetdreams’ lofi indie rock playlist on YouTube

Current mood: I want to, I can, I will. 

Sunday, 14 March 2021

A few of the photos I took yesterday. I really love them.

Where I live, there isn’t a single Muji shop. We also don’t have Amazon, so there is no way of buying cute muji supplies. 

But, to my fellow art- geeks in South Africa, there is a shop that recently opened up called Value Co. I found these AMAZING Muji look a likes. The are only R40, the aesthetic muted tone sticky notes are R25. They have dot- grid and normal lined pages. They are A5 size. 

I freaked out when I saw them, and I got the 2 types that they had available. Totally worth buying. Started a little schedule ( don’t wanna say bujo, because that’s super artsy and I can’t stick to a day to day routine. I forget and give up)

Sunday, 14 March 2021

Spent our whole Sunday in the fresh air and sunlight. 

We made a herb garden to celebrate our first 6 months together. I painted the pots, that’s all.... He planted the plants and seedlings and did all the hard work. Then when he was done I wrote the plant names. Rosemary is his favorite, so he made it the center piece. We (he) started at 12 am and finished at 6 pm. Got a little sunburn, and he is the same color as Larry the Lobster from Spongebob. 

He also made an amazing beef slow- cooked meal. We waited all day to eat it. So worth the wait. It was a 10/ 10 dish. Then the loadshedding started at 8 and stopped at 10.30 ( loadshedding is when our power gets cut out because there is a shortage at ESKOM, the electricity provider here in South Africa. ) 

DAY 3 of my productivity streak

Current time:  05:56

Hiiii

I got up at half past 5 this morning. So proud of myself, and I even feel good, not really groggy or tired or anything. 

My main goal today is to get through my homework backlog and catch up and be on track. I know I can. Yesterday I think I pushed a little too hard. I studied for 5 hours without any breaks. Wanna try the pomodoro app today. I honestly think it’ll help. 

Side note: My boyfriend bought me wallpaper engine. I currently have a live No face on the train. So cute. 

Current time: 06:01

Current mood: Proud and optimistic

Productivity streak day 2

Current time: 07:06

Woke up at 10 to 5, but still managed to start my homework and study work an hour later. Procrastination,,, like a annoying sock rolling down while wearing shoes. One of my main goals today is to listen to at least 1 of The Beatles albums, because Hey Jude suddenly became my number 1. 

“Hey Jude, refrain. Don’t carry the world upon your shoulders” 

These guys are the OG of the “it’s ok to feel the feels” quote.

Wish me luck. And good luck to you guys too <3

Current time: 07:11

hiii