Constant Curiosity

6x20: The man who would be king, Dean begs Cas to lean on him to fix things, to which he replies they "aren't broken."

Same ep: "You can't (stop me) Dean. You're just a man. I'm an angel."

6x22: God!cas juiced up on purgatory souls: "You're not my family, Dean. I have no family." (As opposed to them both calling each other family in prev. episodes.)

Cas dies, Dean calling him a "child," in response. The angels just don't understand, and Dean knows it.

7x17: Finally gets Cas back and is reminded of the rift between them: "You're not a machine, Dean. You're human." (As opposed to the angels? A parallel to rigid obedience and machine-like loyalty?)

7x21 gets its own section, because there is SO MUCH in this episode:

Dean canonically knows that angels aren't "junkless," but keeps calling them that anyway. Particularly noticable since this is the same episode where Crazy!cas wakes up.

We also get Dean clearly talking about Cas to Kevin:

Cause the angels – they don't care. I think maybe they just don't have the equipment to care. Seems like when they try, it just... breaks them apart.

A few Interesting things Cas says to/in front of Dean:

"I don't fight, I watch the bees"

Tells Dean he was rooting for the neaderthals before the homosapiens.

He says to Meg that watching over humans for thousands of years was often boring and repetitive.

Hester then comes in with: "Castiel, you have fallen in every way imaginable." and "The very touch of you corrupts (Dean). When Castiel first laid a hand on you in hell he was lost! You wanted free will? Now I'm making the choices."

ANGEL VS HUMAN shoved in Dean's face over and over.

The kind of effect love and free will has on the angels is not always pretty. Most of the examples Dean sees of angels and humans falling for each other is unhealthy and twisted. Just look at Lily Sunder and the way that the two of them BROKE each other, (or it probably seemed that way to Dean).

After the crypt scene, Cas chooses Dean over Naomi's mind control. Dean calls him family and what happens AGAIN? Cas LEAVES. He takes the angel tablet saying he had to protect it even from Dean.

No matter how much Dean tries to draw Cas in to his world with mixtapes, movies, and game nights, the angel world keeps pointing out how "other" Cas is. He's not human, and that makes things really really complicated.

It's like, for every step they take to get on the same page, there's a step back. Yeah, Cas may have chosen you over an angel army, Dean, but he's also dying because he's losing his grace.

However, years of rigorous, detailed, painful character development and movement of stories should not, under any circumstances, be destroyed for the sake of bringing something “full circle.”  

That’s not a satisfying ending.  That’s saying to your viewers; your readers; your fans, “Remember all that time you invested?  Eh, didn’t matter.  Train’s right back in the station.  Hop on off.  Sorry for bumpy ride around the block.” 

The cause and effect is negated.  If you start a story, throw in a bunch of emotional, situational, and personal development in the middle, you should end up further down the road than where you began.  But if you start a story and are able to take away all of the middle and you still end up right where you began with no betterment or differences save for the age of your characters… that’s not a good ending.

It’s like you make a sandwich just to remove all the filling and eat the bread.  Why make the sandwich if you just wanted bread?  

Why create meaningful relationships and focus large portions of entire seasons on them, only for them to be completely erased in the end?  Why focus so much on free will and finding who you are and being happy despite everything, only for him to die unfulfilled, alone, and co-dependent… right where he started?  

I saw a post somewhere and if I find it, I’ll tag the OP, but it went something like this:

Sam, if the last 15 years never happened:  White picket fence, wife, dog, kids, etc.

Dean, if the last 15 years never happened:  Dies alone on a hunt gone wrong.

Sam, after 15 years of character development:  White picket fence, wife, dog, kids, etc.

Dean, after 15 years of character development:  Dies alone on a hunt gone wrong.

No matter what the issue was and how or why that was the ending we got… it was deeply unsatisfying to someone who has been on this journey since day 1.  Since the absolute beginning.  I’m not discussing this through the goggles of a ship.  I’m speaking as someone who appreciates well-written stories.  As someone who invested twelve years (eighty percent of the entirety of the show) in a character and the development of a deep, meaningful relationship (whether or not you view it as romantic).

There was a lot missing from that finale.  A lot.  I can make jokes about it all day, but overall, I’m deeply disappointed and hurt by whatever went down behind the scenes for that to be the final product (something, I’m certain, we’ll never know).  

Supernatural had the opportunity to do something great. To send a message of love and validation to a whole community. Not only to the part of the community that liked their show, but to all of us. But instead they decided to pander to the people, who never had to fight for their representation.

I support #TheySilencedYou, #TheySilencedThem and #TheyWillNeverSilenceUs and I'm in awe of all of you. Of your eloquence, passion, coordination and decisiveness. And I feel like your message goes beyond this particular TV show and the CW.

It's about protesting a pattern of disrespect towards otherness in Mainstream Media. It's about demanding meaningful, unmistakably queer representation, that enables discourse and furthers understanding in a heterogenic Audience. It's about asking Networks to not only hire diverse staff but to also give them the freedom to tell their stories the way they want to. It's about telling creators to own up to the inherent messages they leave us with in the end.

And that's inspiring and should be celebrated.

There is a stark difference between Destiel and the other CW queer characters. You know what it is? Those other characters were designed queer. They were made queer either by authors of the books/comics they came from, or by the network knowing that representation would boost ratings. Either way, the network had complete control over their BLATANTLY DEFINED sexuality with no room for negotiation. For example, Kevin’s sexuality in Riverdale is one of the first things we learn about him, and is there essentially just as a plot device to make sure the main characters meet Joaquin. 

That’s not the case for Dean and Cas, though. No, they were designed straight. Dean was meant to be a dude-bro ladies man, and Cas was the confused, but occasionally sexualy active angel. 

They became canon because we willed it into being, not because the network wanted it to happen. The CW lost control, and they can’t handle it. 

https://www.buzzfeed.com/deirdre-t/supernaturalas-legacy-the-trauma-of-silence-1b17yhc5ye

Dean, at this point is suffering from the effects of the Mark of Cain and is afraid he’s not going to be able to control it for much longer. He gets hit by a spell and gets trapped in his subconscious, which for Dean manifests as Purgatory and Benny. Dean’s not under any illusions, he figures out what’s happening and he knows that this isn’t real, and yet the conversation he has with Dream Benny is one of the most illuminating insights into Dean’s mind that we ever get on the show. It shows how remarkably aware Dean has always been. 

Dean and Benny keep walking in circles and ending up at the same place. Benny even makes a point to remark

Benny: Well, how about that? A perfect circle. Don’t look at me, chief. You chose the way.

Dean: Benny, whoever you are, I need to get out of here

Benny: “Need” and “Want” are just two different things, ain’t they?

Dean knows there’s a difference. He may use the words interchangeably, but he knows they don’t mean the same thing. 

It soon becomes clear what the point of all this is: Benny is a figment Dean has created as the manifestation of his suicidal thoughts. He can’t see a way out, hence Benny appearing to try and seduce him into returning to purgatory, or in other words a place where he felt at peace and pure.

Out there? You’re sleeping. You make the right choice in here, you’ll sleep forever, and you won’t ever hurt anyone ever again. No one needs to know, Dean. What happens in Purgatory stays in Purgatory. 

Dean’s tempted. He considers it

I always did love it here. It’s as good a place as any to call it a day, huh?

Until he has a realisation:

I’d do it. If I really had to, I would. But the real Benny, would never let me.

I always found this moment fascinating. Sure Dean looks within himself and realises he doesn’t want to do this, he wants to keep fighting, keep living, but the impetus that snaps him out of his dark state of mind and to this realisation? That his friend, the real Benny, wouldn’t let him do this. 

Dean’s always been someone who forged these deep complex connections with other characters. There’s Cas of course, Benny, Charlie, Claire and even Crowley, which was also a very interesting and complicated relationship. These bonds were important to him, they changed him. If there’s any doubt how important, just listen to what dream Benny, who once again is just a manifestation of Dean’s own thoughts, says to him about the worst case scenario that could happen if Dean gives into the mark.

Benny: What., you just wanna wait for the Mark to reclaim you? Go out swinging, die topside, then what? Maybe kill a few humans? Kill Cas? Kill your brother? Yeah, that’s mighty honorable!

Dean: Benny, shut up!

Benny: Oh, I-I’m sorry. I forgot… about your plan. You gonna get Sam and Cas to put you down? You really think that they’re gonna keep that agreement? Come on. Dean, let’s say they do. Do you think they will ever recover from that? It will ruin them.

Benny’s not really saying anything here that we don’t know about Sam and Dean’s relationship. Dean is well aware of how important he is to Sam, and how it would break him to have to hurt his older brother, if he could ever bring himself to do that. 

What’s interesting (and I don’t think I mentioned it in my “Dean’s thoughts about how Cas feels” post) is that Dean also seems to know how much he matters to Cas. I mean remember earlier in the season when took Cas for lunch? Cas saw right through Dean’s “I’m fine” posturing, after which Dean made Cas promise to kill him if it came down to it. Seems like Dean always knew Cas wouldn’t be able to do it, and that even if he somehow could, it’s not something he could live with afterwards. Turns out Dean was right. Cas didn’t have a plan if he couldn’t convince Dean to stop. He knew after everyone Dean loved was gone, he’d still be there. He would stay with him and “watch him murder the world” but he wouldn’t be able to kill him.

I’ve seen a lot of talk post finale about how the writers never cared, and it was all a waste and people were reading into things etc and I have two points to make on that 

a) an incoherent ending doesn’t suddenly erase the hundreds of episodes of content that came before it. If themes, stories, character traits/personalities were consistently shown a certain way throughout the course of the show, that’s not all now worthless just because the finale didn’t live up to what it should have been.

b) Spn more than any other show has an interesting kind of writers room. The writers had very distinct individual voices, and were given a lot of free reign on how they presented their stories and the themes they focused on. I mean on no other show I watch do I know the names of all the individual writers and can pinpoint when I’m watching one of their episodes just from the way the characters are presented. You know when it’s an Edlund episode. You can tell when it’s a Yockey episode.

Same with Berens. You can chart all of Bobo’s episodes from beginning to end (9x06 - 15x18) and see how consistent he is with how he writes these characters and envisions their story. How important Dean is to Cas and vice versa? He repeatedly emphasises it. Dean’s state of mind and his sense of self awareness? He’s fantastic at that. See all of the above, not to mention he wrote that wonderful speech that Dean gives to Mary in her head in 12x22, where he talks about how he had to be a mother and a father to Sam. 

And last but not least, he’s always made sure to highlight the connections that Sam and Dean have, especially Dean. That stayed true almost up until the end. And God yes I’m so frustrated that all this work, all this beautiful storytelling didn’t seem to factor into the finale at all, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t there. Journey, not destination and all that.

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hi, hello, residential trash-loving disaster here. i’ve watched the finale twice (cried the first time, got angry the second, y’know, stages of grief), and i have some Thoughts™ that are less than coherent but bear with me.

so, right off the bat, i will Not be accepting any negative feedback about the spn writers. they poured their souls into this. they marketed for years to get deancas greenlit, and even after getting it, corporate shafted them. i don’t blame the writers; this was out of their hands. ya dig? 

this episode didn’t read like anything dabb has given us before. his strong suit is the emotional beats and arcs of the characters – this whole episode lacked that. and no, i don’t think dabb made the episode bad on purpose, but i don’t think corporate gave him enough room to make it better. that’s why there aren’t any lines for eileen, no “hey, cas, i’ll be back later, i’m gonna go meet up with sam.” if he had the time, he wouldn’t have maliciously done this to us. (becky’s words, “you can’t do this to the fans” ringing any bells?) he did, however, drop in plenty of not-subtle Fuck You’s. the vampmimes with their tongues cut out. dean being nailed from behind to his heart by the the fuckin’ dickbar. paralleling cas and eileen by silencing her, too. “no one even mentions cas eileen.”

there’s also the “something’s wrong here” in the visuals. take dean’s bedroom: it’s a mess, there are beer and liquor bottles everywhere, his clothes strewn about. dean’s meticulous, he has a system. he didn’t even make his bed. (a lot of his stuff were in pairs, too. he slept on one side of the bed.) the way he hugged miracle almost desperately and rocked him.

@andromachewritesstuff ​brought up the el sol beer that bobby and dean were drinking in heaven. that’s the “something isn’t right” beer. 

20 is saying, Pay attention to what we can’t say, something’s wrong, something went wrong, red flag. 

dabberensglynn wanted to give us the ending we deserve, but something went wrong, something always goes wrong. since when do we get what we deserve? supernatural will never get the recognition it deserves.

dabb & co. were going to give us a great, cathartic ending – it’s all there in the season, they laid the groundwork. the problem is, corporate flinched. they sat on 18 too long, and they flinched. so for 20, they sliced and diced and mashed together something that’s all bare bones but no muscle. that’s why the finale is the way it is.

BECKY

It’s awful! Horrible. It’s hopeless.

[BECKY gets up from the chair and walks around the desk to CHUCK.]

BECKY

You can’t do this to the fans. What you did to Dean? What you did to Sam?

CHUCK

There, see? It’s making you feel something. That’s good, right?

I would like to preface that meta by saying that I haven’t been able to stop crying for hours. I’m grieving.

I discovered SPN when I was seventeen and I thought my life was destroyed. I had lost faith in myself and in the world. This show pulled me up. Seeing Sam, Dean, and Cas struggle with self-loathing, faith, bad decisions, sins, fatality, doubt, anger and trauma helped me with these very problems. This ending is a f*cking tragedy for me. Seeing these characters regress, and fall into even deeper misery than before... or being relegated as unimportant characters... is a personal insult to all of us who related to their problems.

I am not only talking about Destiel, I want you to know that. And even if you’re a Wincest or a bronly and you’re happy because you got what you desired (good for you, guys, at least some of us enjoy the ending!)... the writers betrayed you.

I am a literature student, and from a literature/story POV, this ending is BAD. This meta will tell you why.

If you don’t want to read it because you’re already depressed enough -- it’s okay. I love you and I respect your grief. My point is that the writers (except for Bobo and, surprisingly enough, Bucklemming -- 2020 truly is the Apocalypse world) destroyed the story they were trying to say.

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The theme of the last season: Death of the Author.

The theme of this season was the Death of the Author. Here is what I wrote about ‘Inherit the Earth’ in a meta about 15x19:

This episode was absolutely Death of the Author. Now, contrary to what you may think, it never meant “the writer is dead/needs to be killed.” Chuck never needed to be killed, he needed to be rendered powerless and to be deprived of having any power over the story -- his death is metaphorical. According to Roland Barthes, who coined the term and invented the concept, the writer and the story are unrelated. Looking in the writer’s life to understand the story is meaningless because the story exists outside of the writer’s control. A writer exercising authority on his work is bad (retconning is bad, for instance. Looking at you, JKR.) Authorship doesn’t mean authority. In other words, the story always escapes its writer to stand on its own: it escapes the writer’s tyranny, it’s the natural order of things. In fact, the story belongs to itself, but also to its readers: each reader will interpret it differently, meaning that a story never has one, definite single meaning.

And what did that mean for SPN as a story?

The story exists for itself, and this is what ny form of control they have over the story, and they let it live. It doesn’t just mean that they let the characters go and live their own lives, it also mean that they let us, the audience, choose the story’s legacy (see the title: “Inherit the Earth.” The characters inherit their own story, but we inherit it too.) It is a big acknowledgement that we made the story. We made it live. They joked about it, for example in the 200th episode, or “The French Mistake,” or all the references to the fandom and fanfiction etc. Whether they like what we do with the story or not, it is ours now. Soon, there’ll be no more writers to inflict pain on our favorite characters only for the sake of the story. In-story, the Author is dead (as in, he still exists, but he has no control) and the characters are free, Fate doesn’t exist anymore; out of story, the series ends, and we are free to interpret it, to play with it, to write about it, to look at it any way we want.

Basically, the story was supposed to do two things.

The first was releasing Dean, Sam and Cas (and all of Earth) from fate, by metaphorically letting them free and letting them decide. It was the climax of the Free Will arc that lasted the whole story. The boys have always fought against the roles that were assigned to them, be it being a hunter in the family business, or an angel serving God, or being the vessels to two Archangels, or even fighting against the pre-planned end of humanity.  Story-wise, that meant killing God; and as God/Chuck is the avatar for the writers (cruel writers, who always inflict more pain and misery for shock’s sake), this means relinquishing authorial control over the story and letting it go. This is why God was supposed to be the Final Boss.

The second thing was giving the story to the fans. Becky was in this season for a reason: she was the one who denounced this kind of story and got what Sam, Dean and Cas really wanted and needed. This show was so meta, and its final message was that the story was ours in the end.

... they did everything but the two things their own story required of them.

Their final ending, as many people noticed, was Chuck’s ending: no one even mentions Cas... the climax is stale... and it ends with the two brothers’ grave, basically. This was the cover Chuck wanted for the book. In the end, then, the ending was still what Chuck, the villain, wanted. In other words, the villain won. Why killing him, then? It achieved no purpose whatsoever. They are free, but at what price?

In fact, it gets worse than that. Because chances are that Chuck’s ending was more satisfying. When Chuck was in power, we got better stories.

And what message is that, when the show and its final arc were all about Free Will? In the end, servitude made you happier than freedom.

I get that some people liked the ending because the two heroes were finally normal people, who could die on a hunt like normal people. No more plot armour. But this betrays the very story they were trying to tell: that Free Will was the way humanity could achieve happiness.

The second thing is that as I said this season was explicitly about giving the show and its legacy to the fans. This was supposed to mean an open ending. Maybe it will end in ragedy or maybe it will be a happily ever after, we don’t know, the story is over and it is the characters and the fans who will write it now. But now. They closed the story in the most definitive way: death. And after life. the canon is that the story ends in death. Whatever we will write now is fiction. The show TOLD US that our interpretation of the story was all that mattered and all that made the story true. That’s what Death of the Author is about. And in the last moment, they said ‘no! You have no power over the story. We have.’

This is the writers’s revenge. Seriously. I’m not kidding, pals. In the end of ends, when nothing can happen anymore, they wanted the last word. They really said, ‘you thought you could control the story? You thought you could tell us what to do? Well, no. We decide. You’re the ones who wanted Cas back? In the end, it will be as if he never existed. You, Misha and Destiel fans, you wanted canon Destiel? Well you’ll have it... on our terms. Becky, you said you wanted the boys to do normal things like laundry? You’ll have laundry and domesticity at the beginning of the episode and then fuck you. WE are in control, not you.’

I am getting very tired of writers trying to control their own story to the extent that they make it nonsensical, terrible, and insulting to the fans. (Looking at you once again, JKR.)

Character arcs????

WHERE ARE THEY?

What happened to character development? Apparently it died with Chuck. (Oh, no, wai, Chuck is still alive.)

(... WHAT THE FUCK. Chuck is still alive. Chuck gets to live but Dean dies and Sam is unhappy? WTF.)

What happened to Sam’s plot of leading hunters? It had been a prominent point throughout the past two or three seasons. But no. Sam leaves the Bunker, and... I don’t know. His getting a house, a wife and a son seems to suggest that he gave up hunting. Young Dean’s tattoo suggests that he taught his son how to hunt, thus doing what he swore never to become and exposing his kid to a life of trauma, depression, and potential death. This is not Sam. Or if this is Sam, this is a Sam who has regressed.

And Dean? What happened to Dean’s plots? All the emphasis put into opening his heart, using his words, being honest with himself, letting go of toxic masculinity, accepting what he wants (not speaking only about his bisexuality)? What happened to his needing to let go of his anger? What happened to his increasing want for domesticity and normal, with the dog and his nesting in the Bunker and his questions about settling down? (And I’m pretty sure the official-looking papers on his desk were for something like buying a house...) All that got thrown under the bus.

Dean died, and he never even get to explore his potential, to explore what he wanted to ‘experience differently.’ So what if the writers tell us that he is happy because he is in Heaven? There is no bigger tragedy than never getting to get a good life, never getting to explore yourself. There is a reason why young people’s deaths are so tragic.

And in spite of Jack’s ameliorations, Heaven is still stuck in an eternal moment. There is no place for growth or self-exploration or anything. This is a static ending.

And not only did they give us an ending that deprives the characters of any personal growth and development, they also cancelled all development of fifteen years.

The Sam and Dean of the end are the Sam and Dean from before the show even began. If Dean had died before season one? Same result. Dean goes to Heaven, finds ‘peace’ or whatever with Baby and Bobby. Sam is miserable, finds a wife (Jess or anoher, at this point it doesn’t even matter), has a son, dies and joins Dean in Heaven. The end. Call-backs to the origins are good. Here, the problem is that this isn’t a call-back, it’s a regression.

Dean dies on a hunt begun by their father. He’s still ‘Daddy’s Blunt Instrument.’

Sam finds a normal-enough looking life, but doesn’t get over his own trauma.

And Cas? Cas is back where he began too. He is in Heaven and he doesn’t’ leave it. He has no contact with humanity, notwithstanding the fact that his arc was entirely about getting close to and helping humanity. He still obeys God. Oh, granted, this is Jack, not Chuck. And he advises God, now. It is marginally better. But he is still a loyal servant of God who... doesn’t even bother checking on Sam and Dean even in Heaven.

What it comes down to is that the characters have fallen back into the cycle of abuse. 15x19 was heavy about that cycle: Michael and Lucifer come back and they are still prisoners of that cycle, they cannot break it, and it kills them. And in the end, Sam, Dean and Castiel fall back into it too.

Consistency and continuity, were art thou? 

This ep makes no sense with what happened before. 

In 15x19 Dean finally understood that he didnt want to be a killer. And neither did Sam. In the series finale… they go on a hunt??? 

I mean. I could understand it if they had difficulty getting out of the hunting life. But if this is the case it was never tackled in the episode.

Everything that happened with God goes unmentioned. You would believe they would address their newfound freedom. Their projects.  Their doubts about having been manipulated. But no. 

Their behaviour is completely OOC too. In 19 Dean is desperate to have Cas back. Now two weeks later he is chill with Cas being gone? Not even sad a little? Inconsistent. 

What  happened to their feeling of 'Running on empty' from the precious ep? Now they seem… okay.

Also the pie festival scene made no sense. Why is it here? What does it bring? 

And what is the deal with Eileen? She lives in a limbo. Sam never mentions missing her, so she must be his wife. But his wife is unnamed. I can understand it if the crew couldnt have her on set because of Covid regulations, but they could have found a way to name her. Have Sam or even Dean mention a date with her. Show wedding invitations. Something. If this isnt her then how come Jack didnt bring her back? 

Cas comes back but wont go and see the man he was in love with? Absurd. Cas saved his life but will accept his death two days later? Ridiculous.

And all those loose ends. The Empty is supposedly awakeand changed. What happens To it? If there is still a cosmic entity left it has to be bad for humanity! How come Jack brought Cas back? Did he bring anyone else back too? Is Heaven still dying? What happens with Hell? 

I dont even understand. It makes no sense. This episode is jarring because it doesnt go with the rest of the series. 

Castiel 

What the hell did they do with Cas? 

This is so fucked up. Cas died and his death was useless because yeah it saved Dean but Chuck wanted him alive for the big end anyway. It gave Dean motivation to live a good life but he never got to.  Cas died for nothing and we couldnt even grieve him because they baited us into believing he would come back.

The last time we heard his voice was in a twisted parody designed to mock us. 

He was not even in the finale. After all he brought to the story. The Themes of Free Will, faith, and humanity were only tackled with such beauty because of him. He was a unique character and they didnt even show him. Misha was not even in the goodbye scene. It is complete disrespect.

Like Eileen, he is in a limbo. We are told he is alive but he is not shown. 

His name is on the fucking table ffs.

In the documentary they kept referring To him as the third brother. He is Family. He should have been there. Explicitly.

Depressing ending

When I say Depressing I weigh my words. 

Sam is clearly in depression for the rest of his life. He has a wife and a son but he is not happy. 'Always keep fighting,' Dean said. The show didnt show him keeping up the fight. It shows a man who is so utterly broken that even a marriage and a child bring him no joy. 

We dont see him happy once. Even with Covid regulations they could have done it. Show Sam gazing fondly at his wedding ring, or getting ready for his wedding, or buying baby shoes with a huge grin on his face. Nope. It didnt happen. 

Listen, I get it. You never get over the loss of your family.  It is normal. But it does not mean you cannot find happiness. 

As it is, though, Sam's happiness isnt his wife and kid but only Dean.

Basically the  brothers never got rid of their  toxic codependency. It is not a callback to the  first season. No. This is complete lack of progress. 

And the worst  thing is that now, in the show, the two brothers canonically only find their happiness in death. 

Dean does not find happiness or completion in life. He gets  a dog, wants to  apply for a job or a house, idk which. But the  ep tells us that his happiness is in death. And Sam afterwards  only waits for his own death and is happy only after he  dies. 

Honestly I thought Sam was originally  going to kill himself. 

I cannot help but think about Jared who fought against dépression. And this is how his character ends. Depressed his whole life and finding relief in death. They even used the title of the episode about his dépression, 'Always Keep Fighting' against him. Disgusting. 

More generally ending a show that deals with abuse, trauma, PTSD and depression with depression for life and happiness in death is super awful. 

… also. Usually audiences who watch and thus relate to that are usually depressed people too. One hell of a final message. Death will bring you happiness… oh and servitude gives you happiness and freedom doesnt. This is a nice American narrative I guess. 

Even the song  of the show, 'Carry on Wayward Son' was twisted To fit this narrative. 'There'll be peace when you are done' never meant 'you will only be happy  when you die.' The song does have a suicidary/depression vibe… but there is hope still. 

In the finale, the title 'Carry On' was not for Dean, since he died and thus did not carry on, but for Sam. Sam explicitly carries on… because he  has too. Not because he wants to. 

There is just no hope left. In a show that was about hope. 

Also, even Heaven is depressing.  Where are all the other people  they loved? Bobby and Rufus and Mary and John… okay. But where are Charlie, Jo, Ellen, Ash, Adam, Kevin (Ok he is a ghost  but still), and all the rest? They are not even mentioned. 

Even on Earth no one but Donna is mentioned. Jody? Claire? Rowena? Garth? Nope. No one is mentioned. It is as if they never  existed. 

Hate crime

And the love declaration… man if they wanted to kill him and never show him again then they didnt have to  feature it. NOT AT ALL. This is worse than usual queerbaiting. We are beyond UST and subtext. This is text now. 

I was speaking of loose ends. This is such a huge loose end because this scene was never acknowledged  at all and it was never answered. At  this point even a "sorry but no" would have been better. 

Rule number 1 of storytelling: when something huge like that happens in your story  it needs to  be acknowledged and answered!!! 

Imagine in, say, Friends (taking a very known example) that Phoebe confesses her love to Rachel (taking a wild example). Or in Lord of the Rings if  Sam confessed  his love to Frodo. Or if in Harry Potter Ron confesses to Harry; if  in Game of Thrones Jon proposes to Cersei (another wild example). And then it is never spoken about again. Rachel and Frodo and Harry and Cersei never answer, in one way or another. Never. This is just bad storytelling. 

Chekov's gun? Anything that is mentioned in the story must be important??

Some people who didnt even  watch SPN called this scene homophobic. SPN proved them right. 

Knowing that  Jensen and Misha  texted  each other back and forth  about fan reactions  makes it even more painful. They knew and they had to  watch that knowing that fans would be disappointed. 

Or, if some fans are right and Misha filmed  a scene in the finale… then they thought maybe destiel would go canon and they were sorry disappointed. 

Dean was a victim of the bury your gays thing too. If he lived he had to confront his feelings at some point. So he died. If he met  Cas in Heaven he  would have to  answer him. So they dont meet. 

Bury your gays and your bis. 

And even in Heaven the gay, the  bi and the  queer cannot be shown. A show that turned angels into assholes and God into à villain cannot even show LGBTQ+ people in Heaven. Hilarious. 

Charlie died. Twice. And we are given no proof that she is alive. Kill the  lesbian too!

All that remain is a straight marriage…

But wait…

We have no proof  that the wife is Eileen. 

Yep.  Eileen might be dead. They killed the  deaf  woman. Twice. After bringing her back. They buried the gay and the  disabled woman. Nice. 

For a show that took a stand against tyranny  and oppression this is… disappointing. They committed hate crime after  hate crime. 

Conclusion