PER ASPERA AD ASTRA

19|11|2023

Today's study corner for an online class and studying day. Weird enough, I have no idea what to do but my brain is focused on the idea that "I have a lot to do". Not sure what's happening inside of my subconsciousness but bullet journaling might be a great idea to sort it all out. I'm also thinking of going back to yoga (at home) and baking some Japanese and Korean desserts. I used to eat so much Japanese and Korean food but it's impossible to find where I live now. So baking and diy-ing it is!

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

mark of athena, rick riordan // Elizabeth Gilbert //Orestes, Euripides // dancing with our hands tied, taylor swift // the song of achilles, madeline miller