HAPPINESS

““Sometimes people don’t want to hear the truth because they don’t want their illusions destroyed””

You haven’t called in two weeks
That’s what I keep repeating to myself That you haven’t called in two weeks so when I go to a restaurant
And know what you’d want to order or when I see something in a window
that I know you’d want to wear I tell myself that you haven’t fucking called so it’s time to start forgetting what you like from places that you’re never going to be with me So when I laugh a little too loud at parties
With a different boy hanging from my fingers that doesn’t smile the same way Or delete your number in front of my friends
as if I wouldn’t get that rush to my heart if you ever called again Know that it’s all for you and in spite of you Because you haven’t fucking called 
And I don’t really want to remember the sound of your voice or the way your laugh sounds when it’s right next to my ear because I know I won’t hear it not anymore not in person
not even over the phone

She did not need much, wanted very little. A kind word, sincerity, fresh air, clean water, a garden, kisses, books to read, sheltering arms, a cozy bed, and to love and be loved in return.

I’d say go to hell, but I never want to see you again.

Never beg for love. Never beg someone to love you back or be with you when you want to. Never beg for someone’s time, commitment, affection and attention. Never beg someone to stay with you when you need him the most. Because in the first place, if he loves you that much, he won’t leave you and let go of your hand. He will never let you beg for his presence and love because he will give it to you with open arms. Don’t beg, it’s demeaning and degrading. Remember, if you have to beg, he’s not worth it. No one is worth begging for.

They told me to pour my heart into everything I do. So that’s what I did, I poured and poured and poured. Now they ask me why I’m so empty.