i have ceased trying

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but my friends have always gendered me correctly and stick to it even when it confuses other people and my friend's little sibling calls me older brother in Kannada yes, India made legal gender change impossible but my dog learned my new name quicker than the humans and she runs to give me a kiss when she's told to without being confused about who's being referred to

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but I can feel the Adam's apple growing in my throat and my muscles getting stronger, and my smile more real and I'm growing a beard, and I talk more freely

Like holy fuck that was such a Moment. Yes the world is going to shit but she's right. It's a wonder. I'm becoming more happy, more myself, and I'm able to.

The ONLY time Hayden genuinely takes issue with Ilya and pushes the subject is in My Dinner With Hayden (to ILYA, while ILYA is there provoking him, not to Shane, because he is feeling protective of Shane, not angry with him- the subject of his anger is very clearly ILYA), and Shane yells at both of them about it and he immediately sees the error of his ways and apologizes. IMMEDIATELY.

It is canon that he is enough of a well-meaning idiot to question the relationship in a pretty dickish way! I will give you that! But it is also canon that he only does it once and when Shane gets mad he understands he was being a dick, apologizes, and doesn't do it again.

-eventually realizing that some of his jokes make Hayden truly upset and not doing those (I dont like Ilya calling Hayden a bad husband or father, especially since in the books he doesn’t actually think that)

-coordinates Hayden coming to Ottawa for Shane

-sends “send this to someone who…” memes on social media but it’s all annoying ones with weird videos

-texts him constant Shane updates

-sending “send this to your best friend” social media posts on all social media his mom forces him on

-sends him fan edits on social media, mostly platonic but he has definitely sent non platonic shipper edits to Hayden and Hayden doesn’t say anything

-let’s Hayden hug him (in the epilogue of heated rivalry I love that it’s established that Hayden puts his arms out for hugs and Shane decides to close the gap)

-constantly around him, which is the equivalent to a cat staying in your space

-gets him sponsorships, or more specifically gets his mom to do it. He also probably makes Hayden use the same agent

-if Hayden asks a “what did you do” will say the entire thing of what he did from start to finish in bullet points

when i saw the final scene for the first time my first thought was "those are crowley and aziraphale's colours in that sky"