Nat Freeman

It takes 2 like Rob Base

If I had a MySpace

You’d be #1 on my top 8

If you were mines, I’d have you on speed dial

You’d be the 1st person I wanna see smile

If you were mines that would make me smile

Smile like Avril Lavigne

If you were a drug I would be a fiend

If I were a King you’d be my Queen

Even I had nothing you’d have everything

You deserve it

You so imperfect that you’re perfect

Even when you get on my last nerve

Even when we fight for the last word

I’d rather fight with you than somebody else

You let me be myself

If it ain’t you then ima just be by myself

Soft skin

Bright smile

Soft lips

Hands around your waist

I got the perfect grip

I know you love to travel

Let’s take a trip

Where you wanna go?

Just let me know….

We can go today

Let’s get away

Phones off

I don’t want no distractions

I know they talking

But I’m about that action

It takes 2 like Rob Base

You’d be #1 on my top 8

I got you on speed dial

If you say yes

You walk around like you ugly

You like, “why he don’t love me?”

You don’t even love you

How could I love you?

How could he love you?

You trying to drive before you take the vehicle out of park

You throw pussy but wish it were you heart

Bet you wish you could press restart

Press rewind

Go back in time

You insecure cause these girls have big behinds

Insecurities making up fake scenarios in your mind

You search but never find

The way you are is just fine

You just don’t know it yet

Society makes it easy to forget

I see you lost grip

Let yourself slip

Get up…

Nah forreal get up!!

Dust that dirt off your ass

I see your self-esteem made of glass

Messages left on read

Insecurities crawl back into your head

You like, “is that chick in his bed?”

I don’t know

Lil bro said let it go

But I know you won’t

You ask for advice

But don’t……listen

Dick got you tripping

I see you itching

You wanna know what you missing?

Not a damn thing

Just another fling

Him no King

Find you someone that treat you like queen

Put you above everything

Size you up for a ring

I hope you like bling

He no good

He rather bick it in the hood

He rather get rachet around town

You need someone to build you up

Not hold you down

Forget gold condom wrappers

Strive for the crown

He just make you frown

Don’t you wannabe happy?

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Love yourself and somebody else will

Baby daddy got you in your feels

Get something real

You need a real one in your life

Someone who’ll take you on dates

Not just a Nxgga who only wanna kick it late at night

Uh uh that ain’t right

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I can’t love you till you love you

He can’t love you till you love you

You can’t go wrong when you invest in yourself

I’m talking health and wealth

You gone always let down somebody else

You can’t always satisfy others

I’m looking out for my sisters and brother

I’m putting myself before any of my peers

I will make an impact while I’m still here

Dealing with yall is tiring

Had to reboot myself I needed some rewiring

Goodbye anxiety

Goodbye depression

Instead of counting my flaws

I’m counting my blessings

I got 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8

I’m just striving to be great

By 2020 I want to own my own place

I won’t let you get in the way

Not today or any day matter of fact

Did enough holding myself back

Did enough for others but couldn’t half that back

I got receipts

I can’t starve no more

I’m trying to eat

I’m back in the kitchen

No more slacking or slipping

I promise myself this time will be different

I pay no mind to the petty

I stay ready so I don’t have to get ready

Stability is key

I’m trying to stay steady

I now see why Ruth said she was heady

I’m working on investing my fetty

These bars & clubs won’t get a cent from me

All those cover fees and shots

I can only imagine what I could’ve bought

What if I invested half of that?

Frivolous purchases I can’t get back

Had to train to myself to stop spending like that

I strive for financial freedom

Ain’t nothing worse than every check going to bills

AIn’t nothing worse than payday loans

Just to keep gas in your car and electricity in your home

I shouldn’t be this honest but this is my story

I’m still here so life must have something greater for me

Or am I here to make the winners feel better?

Am I?

Got me thinking

Gave up smoking and gave up drinking

Cold turkey without blinking

It never did help

In this sober state I have found myself

I’ve accepted we lost G Baby

The thought used to drive me crazy

But I’m good

I just wanna inspire the youngins in the hood

I told homie stop pump faking

Shoot your shot

I refused to be stopped

Refuse to let someone take my spot

Knock me off

My experiences made me this tough

I used to be soft

Don’t follow me bruh I’m still lost

I might lead you into traffic

I’m working on erasing my bad habits

Things could be better but it’s G

Do you know how disappointment feels?

I done gave myself enough time to heal

Goodbye anxiety

Goodbye depression

Losing you was a blessing

I wrote two books and dropped a mixtape

I hope you and the kids are doing great

No love for you but I have no feelings of hate

I hope you made the right decision

I finally got my sanity back

But when it happened I was tripping

You could’ve said something

But you said nothing

Good thing I know how to getta clue

Or I’d still be tripping over you

In denial that we were through

Denying that what my eyes saw was true

I was blue like the berry

Tried to keep the hurt buried

But I can’t help how I feel

You ever experienced something this real?

I gave myself enough time to heal

I don’t wanna say your name

Would hate to give you the fame

I wish you were ashamed

I’m over here real lifing

But I see to you it was all a game

You was scratching an itch

And I fell for that bullshxt

I thought we were friends but that was a lie

If I could’ve I would’ve cried

Knowing I’m way better than that other guy

But aye yall deserve each other

Why it so hard for me to find a lover?

One week you laying up in my covers

Next day I don’t exist

It always ends like this

This game has too many risk

I see why so many play it safe

I don’t wanna ever see your face

I hope we never speak again

It sucks to lose a friend

But that was your choice

Take some time

Take some time to spread love

Take some time

Take some time to spread love

Where I’m from they celebrate being fiends and alcoholics

But hate on the ones that went to college

If you follow your dreams you won’t get acknowledged

Don’t nobody wanna hear my songs

Don’t nobody wanna read my poems

When I was depressed yall left me all alone

Made me feel like I didn’t belong

I couldn’t get ahold of no one’s phone

It went straight to voicemail

They laugh when you going through it

But be on hush when you’re doing well

They wanna see me fail

I’d get more love if I were dead or in jail

They’d call me square if I went to Harvard or Yale

I can’t worry about nobody

I’m having too much fun being myself

Natty Free finally free

Yall should be happy for me

Instead folks bringing bad vibes

It’s been years since I felt this alive

I got a lot to work on but ima be alright

I say a little prayer every morning and every night

I just wanna give thanks

Barely got any money in the bank

But I’m hood rich

Like Mannie & Baby

I’m sure yall think that I’m crazy

Mr. Nappy fro with the visor

With age I only get wiser

I see others making the same mistakes

Spread love into the universe we have enough hate

We gotta enough deadbeats

Aspire to be great

I just wanna inspire the minds around me

I wanna see Samantha making art

I wanna see Vince making shirts

Shout out to Tyler

He been putting in work

Before I help others

I gotta work on myself 1st

I just wanna smile

I don’t wanna hurt

I’m trying to send Kyree a rack

Everything tax free you ain’t ever gotta pay me back

The same hands that built the city have the ability to tear it down

The choice is yours

What you want peace or war?

I don’t wanna stress no more

Take some time

Take some time

To love somebody

To heal somebody

To hug somebody

To lend an ear

I be over shxt

I be over shxt

I be over shxt

Last week I was on her

Now I’m over it

I be over shxt

Nxggas steady talking bout fxcking

But ain’t doing nothing

Get yo life together

Gone and do something

Nxggas be on the same shxt in their 40’s

Showing bad examples to the shorties

Get you a job

Take a class

I be over shxt fast

Deleted IG & Snapchat

Barely use Tumblr

White man told you to call Uzi a mumbler

Okay you repeat everything idiot box say

Bruh literally hated Moonlight cause the main character was gay

When we gone stop thinking that way?

I know it’ll be way past my time

I be over shxt

I be needing to clear my mind

Hov blessed us for 9.99

I be over shxt

I’m focused on my grind

Financial freedom

I need that

I just need to work on me

I promise I’ll be back

You know the road is hard since we black

These be facts

I been doing well for a while now

I promise not to relapse

I be over shxt

I be over shxt

No alcohol for 7 months

Not even a sip

No Mary Jane

No more copping zips

I just wanna make my bread flip

I be over shxt

I be over shxt

Everyday it’s something new

I worry about you

Look what you already been through

I’m sure the pain is nothing new

But it seems to be getting the best of you

Bringing out the worst in you

I wish there was something I could do

All I can do is listen

And hope that tomorrow is different

And hope that you find stability

Everyday it’s something new

I wish you knew I’m no stronger than you

I get lonely

I get hopeless

I think about death

Count down the days that I have left

Maximize your time while you have breath

I wish you could see what I see

How much you influenced me

I ain’t going nowhere

I’m here on your side

Where I’m from we ride till we die

And last time I checked we both alive

You can’t get rid of me

I’m your friend till the end

You want me to say it again?!

I’m your friend your till the end

Till the wheels fall off

Till they turn off the lights

I know it don’t seem it like it now

But everything gone be alright

I know it seems worthless

I know things ain’t perfect

I see that you hurting

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I wish I could help

Please don’t give up on yourself

Why they always gotta leave me?

I fear the day you realize you don’t need me

Why it gotta be so difficult?

I’m just trying to take it easy

I feel Eric Wright

These cops don’t think I know my rights

I know somebody gonna take my life

I try to pray before I go to bed every night

To whomever it may concern

I crash and burn till the day I learn

No handouts everything must be earned

Unless you gotta silver spoon

The bottom too crowded ain’t enough room

A barrel full of crabs

They waiting on us to do bad

What you think these laws for?

What you think all these prisons for?

My own people at war

The Joe Budden’s don’t understand the Lil Yachty’s

The somebody’s feeling like they nobody

I try to pray every time that I wake up

I pray me and my future baby mama never break up

I don’t want no more broken homes

All these social networks but I still feel alone

That’s wrong

I pray the Joe Budden’s learn to love the Uzi Vert’s

Our people already hurt

If you gotta chance to help why would you make it worse?

Huh?????

Give me one reason

Self-hate is in season

Haters gone hate

Lovers gone love

Substituting problems with alcohol and drugs

They won’t go away

Don’t be afraid of love

I’m right behind you

I’m right beside you

Let love find you

Don’t be afraid……

In my quest I’ve bumped my head

Tossed and turned in my bed

Lost my confidence

Gained trust issues

But I’ve learned a lot

Maybe I should stop

Cupid busting and I still ain’t been shot…..

Don’t be afraid of love

I’m right behind you

I’m right beside you

Let love find you

Don’t be afraid…..

In my quest I have failed

Got me thinking there’s no hope for myself

Got me thinking I’ll forever be by myself

I’ll never have a baby

My quest has drove me crazy

I will never get married……….

Don’t be afraid of love

I’m right behind you

I’m right beside you

Let love find you

Don’t be afraid……..

Don’t be afraid

You win some You lose the rest

All this love for you in my chest

Yeah I heard you gotta glock

But it’s only more blacks getting shot

Yeah I heard you gotta glock

But you ain’t busting at no cops

Yeah I heard you got some rocks

But you posted on the block

I guess the self-hate never stops

Yeah I heard you gotta gun

But I ain’t seen not one

You should go raise your son

Instagram pics don’t mean shxt

All these possessions

But you still ain’t got shxt

You ain’t hard where it counts

You just like to run your mouth

All this gun talk got the body count going up

You ain’t killing nobody

You only killing us

You better off turning that thang on yourself

Acting like that lil thang gone help

Like you can’t get put up on a shelf

Like you ain’t next to end up on a white-t

What I look like killing nxggas just like me?

Dying over colors

Somebody call Ice-T

My uncle from the manors

My big bro from the gardens

I feel like I’m set tripping

I guess I was just raised different

I guess God wanted me to see both sides

Maybe God sent me here to make peace

But ain’t no peace when these dudes gotta piece

Ain’t no peace when teenage girls walking the streets

Ain’t no peace when teenage boys slanging in the streets

What I’m supposed to do about that?

Why would they ever listen to me?

I ain’t nobody special

I’m from the same block

Knives in my back

How could you do me like that?

I'm looking ahead no turning back

I gotts love for no one who does me like that

I guess it is what it is

Why you have to do me like this?

I guess you don't believe in communication

Don't expect me to be out here waiting

Gone do yo thang I ain't even hating

All these knives in my back

I thought we were coo why you do me like that?

I guess you were just waiting on him to get his stuff together

I guess we never had a chance of being together

I was fooled thinking that you wanted better

How could I fall for that?

Meanwhile you sticking all these knives in my back

It didn't have to be like that

All you had to do was say something

But you been cut off so don't say nothing

I wish you didn't go down this road

Why you have to activate beast mode?

You wrong for that

I'm surprised I'm still alive you stuck all these knives in my back

Whether I’m on the block

On the clock

Wait……stop

Whether I’m on the block

On the clock

This here don’t stop

This here won’t stop

I’m trying to fulfill my purpose

I’m trying not to be worthless

I’m trying to contribute

Don’t stand in my way

I feel like I could die any day

People out here dying everyday

And we don’t care

A few Facebook post here and there

A few white tees here and there

A few tattoos here and there

I’m way over here

But I wish I was there

Wish I could wipe the tears that roll down your cheek

Wish I could uplift you when you feel weak

Life so bittersweet

I feel for Zay

I feel the way he feels every other day

He kinda reminds me of me

Young boy trying to find his place in this society

Pray for him

I hope he stay true to his self

I hope he’s never swayed by the opinion of anyone else

I hope someone tells him he’s perfect as is

I see why they say it takes a village to raise a kid

Man my heart goes out to the kids

2AM and I can't sleep

It's been like this all week

You left me weak

I been like this all week

We was just kicking it last week

Still ain't heard from you

But everything happens for a reason

These women alternate like the seasons

Wish I could do the same

Wish I didn't feel no pain

But I feel it deep

2AM can't sleep

We were just kicking it last week

All these feels done left me weak

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It takes a village to keep me sane

It takes a village to keep me from going insane

It takes a village to keep me from blowing my brains

Maybe the lack of mama's warmth finally caught up

In this dark pit and I'm stuck

It takes a village to lift me up

I promise you tho I'll be fine

I won't do it this time

Just give me a little time

Never was in the trap

But the system got me trapped

Jordan and me was making slaps

I was up till 3am

Only taking naps

They said to relax

To late I already snapped

Like a twig

I got visions of being big

Doing big things

I got big dreams

But what's a dream without effort

What's a dream without work?

I gotta clock in first

I feel like I never clocked out

My homie 23, he just bought a house

I'm inspired

Life got me so tired

I need to hit reset

I still feel like a reject

I don't owe these chumps no respect

They wasn't giving it

You tweeting it but is you living it?

You snapping it but is you living it?

They told me this was when we would start getting it

I need that bread like toast

I'm so far but I feel so close

How you doing nothing but still doing the most?

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What you know about the struggle?

Never had to trap but I saw the homies hustle

I saw all the RIPs

They took Dweez

They put my cousins behind bars

It's hard out here

Gotta have heart out here

I just want you to know how I feel before we end up on some white tees

Before a nxgga gun me down for my phone and my Nike's….

I just want you to know I feel

These emotions can no longer be concealed

I'm too trill

May these words on this page heal

I wanted to give you these roses before you got killed….

I want you to know how much you mean to me before I go

I'm proud of the woman you've become Indigo

If I never see you again

I promise to cherish that week back in 2010

Family reunion...I hope we reunite

I was feeling down and wanted to call you last night

But I got cold feet….

Kyree keep you some heat in these cold streets

I'm sorry that we don't speak

Acting like communication don't work both ways

I just been real antisocial and unmotivated these days

I'd hate for you to see that side of me

Can't let you see me weak

Can't let you see me weep

I'm your big bro

Don't let me ever forget

I still hate that you crip

Cuh you the smartest person I know on Earth

You just don't see your worth

When you hurt I hurt

I'm trying to make so much money that mama never ever again has to work

You never have to sell purp

Never have to feel like dirt

I just wanted to give you these flowers before I end up on a t shirt…..

Where do I begin with you Blair Bear

Young soldier with a heart full of care

You deserve the world

The most beautiful girl I've ever met

See what I see is deeper than sex

You wanted to give up but haven't done it yet

You keep keeping on despite the odds

I'm not religious but you blessed some type of god

When I get tired I think of you

And all the things you gotta do

All the things yo people put you through

I hope you see it through

After hearing your story I have no excuse

To put my 24 hours to use

I get inspiration just looking at you

I'm happy to call you my friend

Even if we never kick it like we kicked it again…..

I just wanted to give y'all these roses before I die

We never get to smell the roses while we're alive

One rose for you you you and you

I'll never forget you no matter what I do