#nat freeman

You walk around like you ugly

You like, “why he don’t love me?”

You don’t even love you

How could I love you?

How could he love you?

You trying to drive before you take the vehicle out of park

You throw pussy but wish it were you heart

Bet you wish you could press restart

Press rewind

Go back in time

You insecure cause these girls have big behinds

Insecurities making up fake scenarios in your mind

You search but never find

The way you are is just fine

You just don’t know it yet

Society makes it easy to forget

I see you lost grip

Let yourself slip

Get up…

Nah forreal get up!!

Dust that dirt off your ass

I see your self-esteem made of glass

Messages left on read

Insecurities crawl back into your head

You like, “is that chick in his bed?”

I don’t know

Lil bro said let it go

But I know you won’t

You ask for advice

But don’t……listen

Dick got you tripping

I see you itching

You wanna know what you missing?

Not a damn thing

Just another fling

Him no King

Find you someone that treat you like queen

Put you above everything

Size you up for a ring

I hope you like bling

He no good

He rather bick it in the hood

He rather get rachet around town

You need someone to build you up

Not hold you down

Forget gold condom wrappers

Strive for the crown

He just make you frown

Don’t you wannabe happy?

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Love yourself and somebody else will

Baby daddy got you in your feels

Get something real

You need a real one in your life

Someone who’ll take you on dates

Not just a Nxgga who only wanna kick it late at night

Uh uh that ain’t right

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I can’t love you till you love you

He can’t love you till you love you

Why they always gotta leave me?

I fear the day you realize you don’t need me

Why it gotta be so difficult?

I’m just trying to take it easy

I feel Eric Wright

These cops don’t think I know my rights

I know somebody gonna take my life

I try to pray before I go to bed every night

To whomever it may concern

I crash and burn till the day I learn

No handouts everything must be earned

Unless you gotta silver spoon

The bottom too crowded ain’t enough room

A barrel full of crabs

They waiting on us to do bad

What you think these laws for?

What you think all these prisons for?

My own people at war

The Joe Budden’s don’t understand the Lil Yachty’s

The somebody’s feeling like they nobody

I try to pray every time that I wake up

I pray me and my future baby mama never break up

I don’t want no more broken homes

All these social networks but I still feel alone

That’s wrong

I pray the Joe Budden’s learn to love the Uzi Vert’s

Our people already hurt

If you gotta chance to help why would you make it worse?

Huh?????

Give me one reason

Self-hate is in season

Haters gone hate

Lovers gone love

Substituting problems with alcohol and drugs

They won’t go away

Never was in the trap

But the system got me trapped

Jordan and me was making slaps

I was up till 3am

Only taking naps

They said to relax

To late I already snapped

Like a twig

I got visions of being big

Doing big things

I got big dreams

But what's a dream without effort

What's a dream without work?

I gotta clock in first

I feel like I never clocked out

My homie 23, he just bought a house

I'm inspired

Life got me so tired

I need to hit reset

I still feel like a reject

I don't owe these chumps no respect

They wasn't giving it

You tweeting it but is you living it?

You snapping it but is you living it?

They told me this was when we would start getting it

I need that bread like toast

I'm so far but I feel so close

How you doing nothing but still doing the most?

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What you know about the struggle?

Never had to trap but I saw the homies hustle

I saw all the RIPs

They took Dweez

They put my cousins behind bars

It's hard out here

Gotta have heart out here

Whether I’m on the block

On the clock

Wait……stop

Whether I’m on the block

On the clock

This here don’t stop

This here won’t stop

I’m trying to fulfill my purpose

I’m trying not to be worthless

I’m trying to contribute

Don’t stand in my way

I feel like I could die any day

People out here dying everyday

And we don’t care

A few Facebook post here and there

A few white tees here and there

A few tattoos here and there

I’m way over here

But I wish I was there

Wish I could wipe the tears that roll down your cheek

Wish I could uplift you when you feel weak

Life so bittersweet

I feel for Zay

I feel the way he feels every other day

He kinda reminds me of me

Young boy trying to find his place in this society

Pray for him

I hope he stay true to his self

I hope he’s never swayed by the opinion of anyone else

I hope someone tells him he’s perfect as is

I see why they say it takes a village to raise a kid

Man my heart goes out to the kids

Even if I close my eyes I still see it

Parents screaming

I feel for the youth

Ain’t nowhere for them to run

Pollution in the air

Glass on the ground

They just wanna keep my people down

Look around

All I see is black, Asian and brown

Crabs in a bucket

I know they love it

Black gate with a password so we can’t get in

Resources are scarce

They don’t want us to win

They want us at the bottom catching L’s

They applaud us every time we fail

They applaud every time we get sent to jail

They want this to be a living hell

They don’t wanna see us doing well

We some crabs in a bucket

I know that they love it

We started from the bottom

And we still here

These eyes seen too much

My people feel stuck

Like we in a sunken place

I’m trying to make love kool again

Cause we surrounded by so much hate

You either Chef Curry

Or cooking up on the 808s

Like you Mike Will

Can’t get a job so I might steal

Crabs in a bucket

I might kill

Some days that’s just how I feel

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If I spit that real they gone think something wrong

Might do the Fred Hampton and run up in my home

Might do the MLK and wire tap my phone

I was just trying to empower my people

My boy finally doing it legal

I hope he don’t relapse

When I look out all I see is browns, Asians and blacks

Something suspicious bout that

When I go to Roseville I see a lot less

Late 20s got me stressed

To the point where I forgot that I’m blessed

We always gone have less

That’s the way the system setup

We out here trying to avoid getting wet up

We out here trying to get this little bread up

I just want you to know how I feel before we end up on some white tees

Before a nxgga gun me down for my phone and my Nike's….

I just want you to know I feel

These emotions can no longer be concealed

I'm too trill

May these words on this page heal

I wanted to give you these roses before you got killed….

I want you to know how much you mean to me before I go

I'm proud of the woman you've become Indigo

If I never see you again

I promise to cherish that week back in 2010

Family reunion...I hope we reunite

I was feeling down and wanted to call you last night

But I got cold feet….

Kyree keep you some heat in these cold streets

I'm sorry that we don't speak

Acting like communication don't work both ways

I just been real antisocial and unmotivated these days

I'd hate for you to see that side of me

Can't let you see me weak

Can't let you see me weep

I'm your big bro

Don't let me ever forget

I still hate that you crip

Cuh you the smartest person I know on Earth

You just don't see your worth

When you hurt I hurt

I'm trying to make so much money that mama never ever again has to work

You never have to sell purp

Never have to feel like dirt

I just wanted to give you these flowers before I end up on a t shirt…..

Where do I begin with you Blair Bear

Young soldier with a heart full of care

You deserve the world

The most beautiful girl I've ever met

See what I see is deeper than sex

You wanted to give up but haven't done it yet

You keep keeping on despite the odds

I'm not religious but you blessed some type of god

When I get tired I think of you

And all the things you gotta do

All the things yo people put you through

I hope you see it through

After hearing your story I have no excuse

To put my 24 hours to use

I get inspiration just looking at you

I'm happy to call you my friend

Even if we never kick it like we kicked it again…..

I just wanted to give y'all these roses before I die

We never get to smell the roses while we're alive

One rose for you you you and you

I'll never forget you no matter what I do

They wanna see me go loco

Be a perfect target for the popo

When you get money they can't wait to see you go broke

We don't accept different

So there's homies on the low low

I know I'm still young but progress happening in slow mo

I just want a lady, a baby and a crib

They killing nxggas everyday that's why we ask can we live

Victim of some things that I never even did

When it comes to nxggas it's all one lid

Keep ya head up if you gotta serve a bid

I done burned so many

I'll probably never ever cross a bridge

Unless I'm going to the bay

These white girls got me cringing on snapchat everyday

I need me a chocolate bae

With some meat on her bones

I need a home with a gate so I can be all alone

Too many got the number to my phone

I might do like my mama and switch my number every year

Keep all that negativity out my ears

Talking bout shxt that I don't wanna hear

I just wanna lay low while I'm here

I heard the Gorillaz is back

My folks on weed like it's crack

On liquor like it's crack

Sometimes I feel like they invented all this specifically for blacks

Don't be your own downfall