Obsessive Compulsive Fleur

I'm going to try self compassion today. Guilt doesn't keep the world spinning.

For the first time, in almost half my life, I am not taking psychiatric medication. This decision was approved by a psychiatrist and supported by a psychologist as I am more functional now than I ever before. At the beginning of the year I weened off Lithium with no problems and a month ago I took my last dose of Effexor. Weening off the Effexor was mentally and physically fucked, it was hard to control of my emotions. It has taken a toll on my new found independence. Since coming off completely my OCD has been accompanied by depression. However, today is the second day in a row that I haven’t felt like going back on antidepressants. My doctor has given me a script and recommends that I fill it however I am going to give it at least 2 more weeks. Now that we are out of Covid lockdown I am hoping to feel more like myself. Fingers crossed! If I do go back on medication I will try not to judge myself harshly. I managed to get a great review of my performance at work despite these challenges so I should be proud of my efforts.