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hey hey hellow!

Others, I cry myself to sleep because just the thought that I will love you forever kills me."

But he’s pure, I swear.

He could break my heart in one second if he could.

But he’s pure, I swear.

He’s prideful and never backs down from a fight.

But he’s pure, I swear.

He doesnt and will never love me.

I know that it would break me, I know that my soul would want to run to you.

But still,

I want to see you.

I want to see those new jeans my friends say you bought. The glasses you used to lend me, that you no longer use.

They tell me you’re okay. They tell me you’ve moved on.

I wanna see it with my eyes.”

basically a l o t has happened since I last posted and writing about it might’ve been the solution but I was (still am) so confused about everything that went down

I thought I could do it. I thought I could live without you.

And I did, for a while.

But it wasn’t living, it was surviving.

Every day the ache of missing you echoed through my whole body.

So maybe I am a fool, maybe I do deserve better and I am committing the worst decision of my life.

But I don’t care, as long as I’m with you.”

he said “I don’t like girls with short hair”

Even if it breaks my heart a little more."

But how can I explain to them that it was?

That I would have done anything for you.

That despite how much you hurt me, I still saw the best of you.

That I cried myself to sleep all last week, because I know that I'll never see you again.

That even now, I stay up until 4 am telling random people about my feelings for you, hoping they will help."

For those brief moments of happiness.

Even if they only lasted for a very short time, I still loved every second of them."

Your last chance to say something, before we parted forever.

You didn't...of course you didn't.

Silly me, to think this time it would be different."

He likes her."