❤️Introvert❤️

It starts in thought, you already abandoned your own mind and thinking when you become consumed by him. It feels harmless, the lustful thinking, gossiping about him to the girls, but the more you do this the more your mind is being hijacked, and bit by bit your mind is no longer your own. You can blame your thoughts, but this is purely and undisciplined mind, that allows a man to infiltrate. To consume your very existence moment by moment, and this how the abandonment begins. 

And then we move on to abandoning your truth, performing with him, being someone you’re not. Holding your tongue, not speaking up, following too much feminine dating advice which encourages performance dating, ‘listen more than you speak, look the part, flirt, be sexy’ all valid points, however when this leads to you feeling like being yourself is not enough, you abandon who you truly are. And then there are values, these go out the window, or maybe you didn’t bother to address what these even are for you, so you date the atheist even though you wanted a christian guy, you have sex prematurely even though you value getting to know him first. You truly loose yourself, you loose your sense of mind, your worth, your body. You give yourself away, screaming ‘take me, I am available, even though I just met you, take all of me.’

One thing you have to remember is life will always be a mirror, and relationships will always mirror the truth, your truth, back to you. What you put self abandonment out into the energetic field will always slap you in the face. He unconsciously will abandon you, because you did this to yourself first.