I wrote this for me, from me...

Reflect on how the masculine is being mirrored back to you. How do men show up in your dreams? Do they ignore you? Do they hurt you? Choose you? This is your guidance. Your dreams will reveal, and also your real life relationships. Men become the mirror. They hold up the mirror for you to see exactly where you are weak.

The soft feminine keeps us in flow and present, but the inner masculine is the action, the driving force that moves the needle. This is the energy you need to connect with CONSISTENTLY if you're serious about change in these next 6 months.

The masculine moves the needle. The feminine directs the force. Together they transform your life. 

Write a list of who you ARE in these next 6 months with a healthy strong masculine. Describe this energy. 

Fruits of fear or love? The choice will always be yours, and your patience, faith and standing on business will be the result. Sell your soul because you’re too impatient to wait for the opportunity that feels right? Lean into sheraseven content because you want a man to be your savior instead of God? Sign the lease on the apartment you knew deep down was a bad choice but went ahead anyway. Your gut is guiding you to a life of love, but are you listening? 

Because let’s be honest, when has your intuition ever let you down? Ever lead you into danger? By listening to your internal compass, by creating space to actually hear from God, to get clarity on your next moves - this is how you produce fruits of love. And the taste will be the sweetest. A life you only dream about, rooted in peace, in joy, and overflowing abundance. Your fruits will be filled with love, when you live honestly, aligned with your truth. 

You’re waiting on God, but God’s waiting on you. 

You want a man handed to you, a man who's walking in his purpose, a successful man, a man who respects you, your time, your energy, a provider. But hold up the mirror sweetie. You have to start being that person for yourself. God is waiting for you to start walking in the gifts planted within you, to start following your intuition, to launch the idea you’re scared to birth.  

Why is this important for wanting a man delivered to you? 

Because alignment puts you on the same page as that man, it puts you in the same room, the same country, at the perfect time. When you start walking in your purpose, you’re exactly where you are called you to be. And this puts you in position to meet your partner. 

When you’re floating around like a lost puppy, you’re not in position.

You’re not even listening to spiritual guidance directing your steps daily. Blessings come from obedience. Obedience to the voice inside you, the voice guiding you, the voice that doesn’t quite make full sense. If you can’t follow God in your single season, how are you going to be trusted to show up in a Godly marriage? Because let’s be clear. This isn’t about marrying anyone, and this isn’t about just marrying a rich guy. It’s about marrying a man that is your peace, a man who is your biggest cheerleader, a man that loves you through thick and thin, a man you can trust, a man that is lead by God and not his ego. A man that is honest and faithful. 

The time you don't want to wait for, time you're being impatient about not realising the man you choose to be with is the single most important decision for your entire life. It affects your nervous system, how you feel with him either keeps you in the gutter or takes you to new highs. It impacts your health significantly. Not only that, but further down the line, the man you choose will lead your household, your children, is this a loving man? Is this a man I can rely on?

Time reveals his intentions. It reveals his heart. You need time to see the truth. Time to see if his words hold any weight. Time to see his mood swings and bad habits. Time to see how he handles conflict. Time to see what he’s like in his weak moments. Time will reveal everything you need to know. But I've seen TOOO MANY times, you want him to be the ONE. You don’t want to wait, you don’t want to know the truth. And that is how you end up with a counterfeit. Impatience. 

The answer you want to know, is this your husband? It’s hidden in the time you don’t want to wait for. 

Is he in his word? Is he who he says he is? Is he patient? Is he kind when things aren’t going his way?

Things can only be revealed through time. 

Your role in the dating period is observation and learning. Not catching feelings, desperately hoping he's the one. No, you're smarter, you're wiser, you know better. Dating and is for observing his actions to see if he counterfeit. Noticing the signs, so next time you don’t waste as much time on the next one. 

Would you plump your lips, dye your hair, quit your job? Move to a new city? Sign up for luxury pilates studio? Spend weekends at Spa’s, exploring the country you live in? Would you book those flights to Rome & Greece? Would you start writing the book that’s haunting you? Would you post the content you’ve be wanting too on social media? Would you start speaking up in those moments you stop yourself? Would you live a totally different life if you gave yourself permission….

Often you think it’s resources, restrictions, circumstances,  time restraints, budgets, but the truth is it’s actually you. Let’s be honest here, you’ve not given yourself permission to live the life you desire. You’ve not given yourself permission to allocate your resources and time to the things that you actually love and care about. This is totally a YOU problem. 

You’ve accepted a life, subscribed to an existence that doesn’t match the life you desire, and with that comes resentment, bitterness, judgemental thoughts and feelings, ESPECIALLY towards those that are living how you could only dream of. You seek the news to soothe and match your low vibration energy, gossip to reinforce your lack of self focus, and excuses to enable justification for why you are where you are. 

The issue is not stuck. It’s permission. 

So how do you change this? It’s actually very simple….Start unsubscribing from the life that doesn’t match what you want for your life… Morning scrolls witnessing Rebecca from schools highlight reel. Unsubscribe. Those draining phone calls with your sister? Unsubscribe. The cheap gym that you secretly despise? Unsubscribe. Over-giving at your under paid job? Unsubscribe. 

And with this new space and energy, bit by bit you can give yourself permission to invest in the life that’s occupied your mind and vision board for way too long. BECOME the version of you that lives the life you could only dream of, show up as her, without restrictions, your mom is not stopping you, people judging you are not the reason you shouldn’t live fully. This is your ONE life. Go grab it by the balls and GIVE YOURSELF PERMISSION. You deserve it, you are worthy, you are eligible for the upgrade, for the timeline shift, for the transformation. Just… give yourself permission.

I give myself permission to…… (say it out loud, say it with conviction, say it like you fucking mean it). 

Your future depend on how much you can give yourself permission. Acorn or oak tree. Take your pic. 

The silent resentment you hold is blocking you from the very life you desire, that Pinterest board life you put together for New Year? Not possible when you're carrying resentment, hate and judgement. It's not loud, it's often when you're alone, it creeps in and reminds you of the hurt you experienced, the 'how could she', and 'i can't believe he did that to me'. It's victim mentality, and often it's rightly valid. BUT, it's also keeping your energetic field in the gutter. You want to rise, you want more abundance, more love, more joy, but your hurt is keeping you in the lower frequencies. FORGIVENESS IS THE ANSWER.

Start with a forgiveness list, write down everyone you need to forgive. And start doing this my contacting each person otherwise, forgive them mentally (including yourself, often we are angry out ourselves, start here). A therapist or coach can also help work through your forgiveness list.

If you need more support on forgiveness, DM's are open xoxo

Respect your body. Respect it so much that you refuse to allow toxic substances to pass your lips, neither alcohol, nor smoke, harmful foods and sugary drinks. Your body is your temple and should be treated as such. It needs to be trained, and kept moving. You were not made for sitting. 

Invest in your inner wellbeing as much as your outer image. The gut check you’ve been putting off, the bloodwork’s, the mineral deficiencies. The dental issues. These are all worthy of your time and money. It’s important you don't become the shiny car that’s rotting inside. 

Beware of men. Not in a sense of they are to be feared, but just don’t be naive. Don’t put yourself in vulnerable situations with men you don’t trust. Men are award winning actors, and it’s important to know that when you first meet a guy you are meeting his representative, and it can take weeks if not months to reveal his true essence. 

It pisses me off that autism is given as a reason for people to hate me.

Hey sweetie, the question I would ask is are you your own priority? Do you put you first, your needs, your dreams, your desires. Do you make time for you, for what’s in your heart?

I know it can be hard, in my experience friends have put new relationships above me and it burnt for a while, until I started focusing on myself. Others are completely at their own free will. You want to be around people that choose you, so it starts with you.

Create a new story, don’t let this be your belief.

Life will always be a mirror. Start choosing yourself and watch how others will start choosing you.