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before dismissing that statement, consider this: everything you know about the world is known through experience.

the room you’re in is an experience.

the thoughts in your mind are experiences.

your memories, imagination, emotions, and perceptions are all experiences.

you never step outside of experience to verify reality from some separate position. everything is encountered through awareness.

this is why some people compare life to a waking dream. not because the world is unreal, but because everything you know about it appears as experience in the same way a dream appears as experience.

the difference is that one is called “dreaming” and the other is called “waking.” which both are known in awareness.

one realization that completely changed the way i viewed “being stuck” is this:

you never actually experience stuckness.

what you experience are thoughts about being stuck.

think about it... the weather changes, your mood changes, your body changes, your interests change, your beliefs change, your cells literally regenerate.

even the person you were five minutes ago only exists as a memory appearing now.

so where exactly is the thing that is stuck?

most of the time, what people call being stuck is comparing the present moment to an imagined version of how they think things should be.

“i should have shifted by now. “i should have manifested it already.”

and then the mind repeats that story so often that it starts to feel like a fact.

but if you stop and look at your direct experience, life is moving constantly. it’s like standing in a river and claiming the water isn’t flowing because you haven’t reached the destination you imagined.

even the feeling of frustration is movement.

even the feeling of waiting is movement.

even the feeling of being stuck is something that appears, changes, and disappears.

the irony is that the moment you truly investigate stuckness, you can’t actually find it.

you only find life unfolding.

you only find experience changing.

you only find awareness noticing it all.

exactly!! the mind always falls for the trap of the illusionary appearance of lack

one way i’ve started to understand awareness is through the idea from EEAO. in the movie, there’s this sense that all possibilities, all versions, all experiences are happening in some kind of unified field at once — different lives, different outcomes, different realities.

and while that’s a fictional story, it actually points to something interesting in experience.

because in your direct awareness, you can already “access” everything in a similar way:

you can think of a memory → it appears.

you can imagine a completely different version of your life → it appears.

you can picture your desired reality → it appears.

you can return to the present moment → it appears.

all of these are experienced within the same awareness, without any physical movement from one place to another.

there is no moment where awareness travels to reach them.

they simply show up and are known.

this is why the idea of being “everywhere all at once” can make sense in a different way than physical location. not that your body is literally everywhere, but that everything you can ever experience is already being known in the same awareness right now. and just like in the movie where everything exists simultaneously, your entire range of experience past, present, imagined, desired is always appearing in the same place awareness itself.

things can happen, moods shift, circumstances pop up, and for a second the mind reacts like it’s all serious and fixed. but when you actually look closely, nothing really stays the same.

a “problem” appears, then changes form.

a feeling hits, then passes.

something that felt intense yesterday can feel completely different tomorrow.

it’s all just experience moving.

and in the middle of it, there’s this quiet awareness that’s just noticing it all without getting pulled into the drama of it.

and what’s even more interesting is this idea that your “reality” isn’t fully rigid either.

you can customize your appearance, change your world, adjust the settings, add new creations, switch up the story, even install “mods” that completely shift how the game feels, and even use cheats that let you bypass limitations and play however you want!

life feels similar in the sense that attention, belief, and imagination completely change how experience shows up. when you focus differently, when you see differently, when you feel differently… the whole “world” feels different too.

so even when life seems intense or fixed, it’s still unfolding moment by moment in awareness like something being experienced, adjusted, and reinterpreted as you go.

and somehow, you’re not just inside the experience

what you are aware of is the proof that you’re not separate from it!

think about it for a moment...

a thought appears, and you are aware of it. an emotion appears, and you are aware of it. a desire appears, and you are aware of it. the world appears, and you are aware of it.

how could you be separate from something that is already being experienced?

people often imagine awareness as if it’s locked away somewhere inside a person, looking out at a distant world. but experience doesn’t actually happen that way. everything you know, whether it’s a memory, a dream, a sensation, a desire, or the physical world itself, is known in the same awareness. the moment something is experienced, it is no longer “over there.” it is already here as experience.

first there is experience. then the mind says, “that is outside of me” or “that is separate from me.”

but the direct experience itself never says that.

what you are aware of is already appearing within awareness, and that is why separation can never be anything more than an idea. the very fact that something is known is proof that it is not separate from the awareness that knows it.

somewhere between dreams

the physical only seems powerful when you treat it as something separate from awareness

no one has free will in your awareness

you shift the moment awareness shifts

nothing you feel is who you are

what you are aware of is the proof that you're not separate from jt

life is exactly like the sims

you are everything everywhere all at once

why you feel "stuck"

you're inside a waking dream

meditations i use

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when people say “focus on the pure now,” they usually mean noticing what is here before you start labeling, judging, or thinking about it.

not the “now” as a concept, but the direct experience of being aware right now.

it’s not really about forcing yourself to stay in the present moment. it’s more about recognizing that thoughts about the past and future are also appearing now.

as someone who has mdd, i know how intense it can get when thoughts feel loud or everything feels distant and foggy, but none of it is you, it’s what’s being experienced within awareness, not something you are broken for having; you don’t have to fight every thought or force yourself to be okay to prove strength, sometimes it’s enough to simply notice “this is what is happening right now” and let it move at its own pace, and when people ask “but what if i still feel like this?” the answer isn’t to reject it or panic, but to allow that too to be here without adding a second layer of suffering on top of it, because even feeling stuck is still just another passing experience; nothing is wrong with you for feeling deeply or struggling to cope, nothing is missing in you even when everything feels unclear. you’re not broken, what you’re feeling won’t last forever, and underneath it all there’s still a steady awareness in you that notices everything as it comes and goes 🩶

actually i’ve experienced revising my grades for college admissions too 💗

for me, it started with noticing thoughts like “i had bad grades, i’ll never get into this uni” and instead of accepting them, i would just recognize that it’s only a thought, not a fact about what’s possible