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we r P-DID system of 8 alters and prolly lots of fragments

RAIN

Persecutor and the Host and trauma holder(aftermath/self-guilt holder)

genderfluid

age: around like 14-15, sometimes regresses to like 5

is the one that operates our main blog, draws the most, most emotionally unstable

Lvl 2 autism, dpd, borderline, depression

NEGATIVE ZERO(NZ)

trauma holder(fear-in-the-moment/graphic details of events holder)

Kinda the systems co-host, kinda like the therapist of the system and the most emotionally stable

He/they

Age: like 16

adhd, has anorexia nervosa which ended up spreading to almost all the system

GREMLIN

kinda a caretaker. Was gonna be a trauma holder but she had a breakdown cuz of it

Was he/they but changed to she/her

Partially based off Cyanide from TPC

sassy bih

age: 16-17

borderline disorder, adhd

FOUR

it’s Four. From bfdi. he/they

persecutor, trauma holder(self-guilt holder)

autism, depression

X

It’s X from bfdi. Yeah

he/they

persecutor, trauma holder(aftermath/self guilt holder)

dpd, depression, autism

FIREFLY

she/her

technically her age in the lore is 6 years old but for her species she’s basically like 20 in human years

she keeps to herself a lot so we don’t know much about her

caretaker

BO-BELL

He/him

in his lore he’s not even a year old but he’s more like a 3-4 year old

He’s supposed to be like one of those school bells u see in like high school movies and crap

PUSO

Idk it’s puso from house of puso

idk what to say it’s just. Him.

We r I think a traumagenic system

even though four and x and puso were added intentionally they were added for comfort and in order to hold trauma

DNI: anyone who’s gonna harass us for anything we like or believe in, etc. other than that go free my children

The main reason we r hiding, from Rain, listed below. Tw for grooming and sh so if u don’t wanna read allat, we r hiding basically cuz our dad has decided to take control of all our social media so we can’t safely vent on our main tumblr. If u find our main tumblr then good for you just don’t tell anyone publicly.

Nothing feels good. I barely even feel like drawing anymore. I hate every second that goes by because I could be doing something productive but I can’t. My dad is constantly breathing down our neck, controlling everything we do, trying to isolate us. I feel like nobody cares about me and the few friends I do care about have their own struggles they deal with and/or feel the same as us but just don’t wanna talk to us.

All I do all day is sit around on my devices doing nothing. I don’t know how to make myself happy. I tried taking my medicine again but it did nothing. I feel like nobody loves me. I have everything I want. I have a “loving” family. 2 Irl friends. But I just can’t be happy. I have what would be considered luxury for many, many people. I do basically nothing all day because I’m beginning to hate doing anything irl. I’m losing the point in why this system should even live. I hate how I get attached so easily. I’m so worried about people I see who seem to be in distress, even if I don’t actually know them. I want friends so bad, but I’m way too shy irl, and even when I do make friends irl or online, I say or do something I don’t realize is hurtful or mean or distressing and things don’t go my way and our friendship is destroyed and I loose another friend.

Why can’t I just have someone? Someone who won’t just leave me randomly or ghost me? Someone who won’t feel bad or depressed if I don’t respond right away? Someone who will talk about crazy stuff with me, like weird fantasies or hating life or even porn and gore, without judging me? Why can’t I find another bfdi-loving system(besides my other friend) to yap to and screw around with? Why can’t I have someone who won’t drift apart from me and be friends even if we were together and broke up? Why can’t I have someone who’s also lonely, isolated, loves bfdi, is messed up in the head, maybe even is a system, desperate for love, just like me, who will love me? I’m too scared to message first, but I swear once I know u, I won’t be always scared to message first anymore.

Bc our host followed u but for some reason we can’t search ur blog or see ur account on that account so we followed u here

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