HURTOPIA

"Call me if you want to go home, and don't you dare try to go alone" You let out a small laugh, heart warming at the thought of him knowing about your little homesickness problems in the middle of an overnight with a friend. "Yes, yes. But I'll stay here, Lumine's gonna cuff me in the bed if I don't. Thanks for dropping me here." He nods as you stepped out of the vehicle, making sure that your blonde friend has welcomed you in before driving home. "Xiao, huh" Lumine started, giving you the look. "Come on, you know it's not like that. He's my best friend, a family friend" she gave you a sigh before leading the way towards her room where the others are "Whatever you say" "Soo, who's ready to start this one hell of a project" The blonde announced as she entered the room, earning the attention of your friends. "Not like we got a choice, you have the notes, right, (name)?" Aether chimed in, eyes landing on you. "Right, I have it on my phone, wait a minute" Horror spread across on your face when you realized that your phone is missing. You've turned your bag upside down already and there's only one possible answer "Xiao, I must have left it in Xiao's car" you looked up to meet the groups gaze, ashamed that you're delaying the project even more. It's a good thing that they're so understanding. "It's alright, I'll give him a call. I'm gonna buy some snacks as well" Aether stood up, leaving you alone with Yan Fei and Lumine. "Since we've got nothing to do yet, why don't we talk about about you and the green-haired nonchalant first" Lumine chuckled ay Yan Fei's words, urging her to continue "What's the status now?" "Guys, there's nothing to talk about. We're good friends, he's a good friend. Why do you keep insisting that" you rolled your eyes at their teasing, pushing the truth somewhere they can't reach. "For starters, you're always together. And have you seen the way he looks at you?" You love your friends, but somehow you hate the way they make you feel like you have a chance with Xiao. "He said it himself, he'll never fall in love, and even if he does, I don't think it will be for me"

"It seems like you have forgotten your place here, (name)?" You dare not to look up, but by the way his words pierced your ears, you know that his eyes are burning holes onto your head right now.

"I'm sorry, young master. I-- I thought you are"

"Save the excuses. Still as miserable as ev-"

"Seriously, Scara. The first thing you do after coming back is bully them?"

Soft words halted the lad's sentence, making you turn to your sides. Heavens, you did try to hide your excitement, but you instantly melt at the way he sandwiched your face between his tender palms.

"Kaui!! Welcome backk!!" You jumped to hug your bestfriend, earning a chuckle from him, "I've missed you (name)".

"This is why she's so comfortable tackling other people" Scara's words reminds you of his presence, and it made you compose yourself again. "Come on, it's not like you're not close at all when we're younger. Stop being mean" Kabukimo joked, making the atmosphere a bit lighter.

Albeit It fell onto deaf ears, as the former starts to walk away from the of you. Leaving you alone with this gift from the archons themselves.

You noticed his ears, though. Soft touch of red at tips, is he really that mad at you? You felt a painful tug at your heart. You haven't seen each other for years and yet he came back so distant.

"I've missed you so much (name)!!" you turn to Kabukimono again. Unlike his brother, his eye's aren't sharp and cold. Looking at his feel like mid-summer nights "Well of course you do! It's been like five years since I've last seen you"

The young man blabbered about everything. The university, the city, the food that he grew to like, the songs he wanna share with you. The list goes on and on "But I know what you want to hear the most.." This earns a confused look from you, what does he mean by that?

And then he gave you this knowing stare and suddenly you knew. warmth spread across your face and you began to stutter "You've been dying to ask, I can feel it" he teased, splashing your face with a bit more of blush "Shut up, I'm not thinking about him"

"Huh? I did not say anything abou a him, (name)..." You slapped his shoulders and you heard him laugh. Seriously, you want to strangle the hell out of this guy right now.

"Kidding aside, it looks like it'll take a few more months before he comes home. You're talking to him, aren't you? I'm sure he tells you why."

Sora-- the very reason why you're serving in the manor. The two of you met at a very young age. You weren't an orphan back then-- but still your family status can't compare to him-- and yet he does not let it hinder the friendship between the two of you.

He's not the prince charming type. In fact, among the triplets, only Kaui was amicable and gentle-headed. However, you've seen how the former convinced his father to let you stay in their place when your parents abandoned you to run from their crimes. He was no older than fifteen that time and he was the very first person to ever think of you. It was a risk for their family to take you in, to shelter the child of a wanted man, yet Sora did everything he can to make sure you will have somewhere to belong.

"And if you want to know if he got a special someone yet, well you're lucky because he does not" Kaui spoke, breaking your train of thoughts, and once again, earning a glare from you. "Oh please, even if he does, who am I to complain" you started, working out a soft chuckle "You know that it's not possible, right?" and ended the sentence sounding blue more than you want it to.

Kabukimono can't say anything, he is your friend, yes, but he's also aware that the difference in status is something their parents won't ignore. He pursed his lips, thinking of a way to cheer you up until you beat him to it "Hey, I'm really really happy that you're back safe, but I know you're tired. Why don't you rest for the night?" you tilted your head and he nodded with a smile "Alright, we've got plenty of days to catch up. I'll see you tomorrow"

Your way back to the servant rooms should be short and uneventful, but your heart almost left your body when you bump onto someone at one of the corners. You thought it was a burglar and you're ready to take a swing. It's a good thing that the man got good reflexes, catching your arms before it hit his pretty face.

"Ambushing me with a hug earlier, and then hitting me now. I wouldn't be surprise if you kill me in my sleep" blood rush in your cheeks when you saw who you're about to smack. "Ahh-- I'm sooo sorryy I thought you--" "You keep mistaking me with someone else. Seriously" Scaramouche cut you off, running his fingers through his hair. "If you're looking for Sora, he wouldn't be hom--"

"No I'm not!" Your outburst startled the man, well what can you do?? Your heart's beating fast because why the hell both Scara and Kaui thought you're looking for Sora? You're not... You're not, right

Your thoughts halted when you noticed the way he looks at you. He's leaning against a wall, towering over your built. Eyes flickering with mischief and that stupid. gorgeous smile plastered on his even more gorgeous face.

"Well, if you're not looking for him, then maybe you're just after me?" Scara started moving closer to your face, you tried taking a step back but your head's spinning. Thinking so much about how Kaui wouldn't even dare to put you in this position and Sora... You don't know, okayy?

"Heh" He looked at you straight in the eyes, then continued "I wouldn't be his replacement". He started to turn his back and walk away, leaving you baffled and confused, unaware that his heart are rampaging.

How would you, of course, know of it? When he made sure to lock every feelings he have for you burried. Locked away beneath every door of cold treatment.

He knew the first time he saw you that Sora has you, and he can't be the reason you can't get what you want. That's why he made sure that no amount of whatever he really feels will spill out when you're around.

END OF CHAPTER 1 ~

Iruma is an open book.

You were just his happy crush.

You know, the kind that makes him take the longer hallway just to get a glimpse of you.

The kind that makes his heart beat so fast when he sees you around the corner, talking with a friend.

A simple hi from you will make up his whole day

These doesn't go unnoticed by you, of course

And what is there left to do when you know that your crush likes you, too?

You confessed

It's nothing over-the-top, a casual "This is why I like you" with a laugh when you were helping him sweep Balam Sensei's classroom.

Oh boy was he stammering

"Wha-- what do u mea-- oh of course we-- we all like our friends"

You chuckled again "Ahh, but I don't mean it as a friend"

The baby looked at you for a good minute before passing out.

Iruma is tender

He ALWAYS ask for permission first before holding your hands

"Are you comfortable if your friends see me holding your hand"

You always reassures him, and sometimes you do it first!

Don't forget to remind him to breathe from time to time please.

He loves touching your hands. Playing with your fingers, tracing your palms, sliding within your knuckles.

He loves it more when you do it first, an indication that the feelings are mutual

That it's not just him that feels something for you.

Your digits would roam his scalp, would linger on his face, and then pinch his cheeks

He's so soft, you thought

"Heyy don't do that" and then he sandwich your face between his palms

An act of revenge in the most gentle way, as if he's scared to break you.

Iruma is happy

Whenever you're visiting the principal's mansion, or when you've got free time to spend with him, Asmodeus, and Clarin, or when you're stopping by the Royal One--

Iruma's smile is always ear to ear.

Well, it is his personality to be always smiling.

But his friends know that this is a bit different kind of smile

A little bit brighter, a little bit more alive

When Lied do something funny, or Clarin and AzzAzz have one of those playful fights, he would look at you to see if you're laughing as well.

He really likes seeing you happy

Iruma is Jealous

No one can tell me otherwise

But he's the silent type. The kind that doesn't tell you anything because he knows it's ridiculous.

Doesn't stop him from being a bit threatened whenever you're talking to Asmodeus, tho.

Please don't get him wrong, he trusts you, and he trusts his best friend

It's just that, when he looks at you, all he see is someone he didn't deserve

"What if y/n realizes that i'm not good enough?", "What if y/n thinks that they can do better"

Yet you always pull him out of it.

You don't get to hear what he thinks about, nor does he ever say

But the way you cup his face in private, the way you pepper his face of kisses when no one's looking---

At some point, it is enough to remind Iruma that it is him that you like, and not anyone else.

But Iruma is not a Demon

The thought of Clarin and Asmodeus hating him when they find out that he is a human already terrifies the hell out of him

But if the same goes for you?

Oh... Oh what would he do?

And so he starts to drift away

His hands no longer linger around yours, his voice no longer playful

Iruma thought that it would do you better if he removes himself out of your perspective

Admiring you from afar is better than you hating him

He could live with it, is what he thought, what he wants to believe, what he forces himself to believe

But when you came storming down the Royal One one day, demanding to see the blueberry, all his resolve crashes down.

It won't hurt to be a little bit greedy

"Why are you avoiding me? If I have done something wrong, you could've just tol--"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry y/n... I didn't mean to... I have-- I need-- I don't know"

his head falls onto his palms, talking to you between sobs

You brought him into an embrace, your fingers though his soft locks

"I have a secret... but I can't-- not yet... Will you be angry if I wait a bit longer before... Before I can tell you?"

Freezing winter breeze touched my skin the moment I stepped out of the coffee shop. 'Tonight's particularly cold', I thought as my lips began to miss the warm beverage. Shivering, I continued my way home, eyes fixed on the colors reflecting on the wet pavement below me.

"(Y/n)" a loud but soft voice calls my name, catching my attention.

I turned around to find a pair of blue eyes, freshly cut summer sky in the middle of a cold night, staring at me.

And there he stands, Chuuya Nakahara, grinning like a 10 year old who finds his favorite sweet.

"Chuuya? What are you doing here?" My words made him raise his eyebrows, answering my question with another question.

"Well, can't I visit my girlfriend?" He said before giving me his coat.

" You'll gonna catch a cold for acting like a gentleman that you aren't" I joked, earning a loud protest from the red head.

"Excuse me but I am being nice here can't you just appreciate it?" He rolled his eyes after retorting, like a little kid proving his point.

I laughed at his antics, God I really love this man.

"So really, what do you need from me?" He then pinched my cheeks before nuzzling it with his nose.

"I'm up for a mission outside the country for six months at the least, and I'm leaving tomorrow, just wanna spend this night with you" Chuuya explained, eyes darting everywhere but mine.

I gave a small nod. Understanding his job's still hard for me. He's gone for months and more and I have no choice but believe that he'll come back to me alive and in one piece.

We decided to keep silent as we journeyed the busy streets of Yokohama towards my place.

It was when we arrived that I asked him, "You're coming back, right?"

Chuuya faced me and gave me a hug. The warmest he could offer, and whispered that he will always be. He kissed my forehead, my cheeks, and then my lips.

"I'm sorry if I always have to leave," He looked at me with apologetic eyes before continuing "believe me, I never want to." He finished with another kiss on my head, arms never leaving my waist.

I hummed and cups his face with both of my hands, feeling his warmth amidst the frigid weather "Don't be sorry, as long as I know I can see you again, I can wait for a lifetime"

Xiao (Double take by Dhruv)

“Are you alright?” The gentleness in his voice snapped you out of your meltdown, the sound calming your anxious heartbeat. How he had this kind of effect on you? You’re not sure.

The yaksha lead you up on high ground, not high enough to trigger your fear but just enough for you to be able to see the lanterns that was decorating the night sky. The soft, golden glow reminding you of Xiao’s eyes— a flash back of earlier events find its way onto your head.

The sea of people in the port, how agitating it was, your anxiety burning your heart, your thoughts come running down to one action. Call Xiao.

You know it’s selfish to call for him as you are aware of his duties, that he may be resting or such, but your lips whispered his name even before you can comprehend the reasons why you shouldn’t.

“y/n. Are you alright?” It took him not a minute to reach where you are. Tapping your shoulder and looking into your eyes. You shook your head and now, here you are. Under the stunning lanterns that offers tranquility.

“Xiao?” You called out his name again, and he let out a tender “hmm?”

You turned towards the lad, admiring every features you could see. Archons, he’s beautiful under all these warm lights, and he’s looking at you. He looks at no one like this but you.

And yet despite the butterflies raging on your stomach, everything is peaceful. Moments with him were always mellow and placid, the stillness you need whenever the world is in chaos. Do you have the same impact on him? You don’t know.

After seconds, that felt like eternity, you finally found the words to ask him, “How did you find me?”

He looked at you in confusion. Like you just asked him the most ridiculous question you could ever think of. “How did you find me that fast? There’s so many people in the port…”

“Oh… I don’t know…”

I don’t see no body but you.

Kaedehara Kazuha (Blue by Kai)

“Kazuhaa!” was all it takes for the samurai’s heart to jump out of his chest. He’s going to see you; HE’S GOING TO SEE YOUR FACE.

“y/n. It’s good to see you today” The calmness in his voice were contrary to his heartbeat. But he cannot let himself be discovered— he can’t afford to lose this friendship with you, even it means you’ll remain just as friends.

You tackled the man and he let out a chuckle. Patting your head as a sign of affection. “Father allowed me to join the crew for this trip! I’ll get to be with you this time!”

The idea sound endearing in Kazuha’s ears. To spend months with the person he’s pining for, to have a chance to show off his skills— no, no no no. He’s not that kind of person.

“I bet you nagged him to no end for him to agree” you laughed at his words and it set his stomach spiraling once again. “Maybe, but I really want to go. So please just let it be”

You pinched his cheeks before running off to Beidou, giving the captain the news and asking for, of course, her permission for you to join the voyage.

“Loving the view?” Kazuha’s melodic words reached your ears, and you turn to him with a smile. The glistening water from the ocean reflecting on your visage, and sunset behind you cannot compare with how ethereal you look at this moment. At least in his eyes.

A surge of sadness clenches his heart, a thought clouding his mind. He will only taint this beauty, so he’d rather admire you afar.

You in his arms, your love in his care— it will be nothing more than an imagination, a dream for him.

“Kazuha, would it be selfish if I want you to be mine?”

Huh? HUH?

“What are you talking about?” The panic in his voice is vivid, so is the trembling of his hands. Is he hearing things right? Or he’s being delusional?

An awkward silence envelope the little space you two have, aside from the waves and the heavy breathing.

“Well— well of course you can decline! It’s… it is not like I’m forcing you, okay?” Your stuttering made the lad giggle. His warm chuckles painting your face red.

“y/n, are you blushing?”

“IT’S THE SUNSET”

Kazuha let out another burst of laughter before making his way towards you, his gentle digits reaching out to yours. You saw a tint of pink as he planted a kiss on your forehead.

“Kazu, you’re blushing”

“It’s the sunset.”

Know you're all that I want this life.

Wanderer (Best Part by Daniel Caesar)

*I’mma call him Scaramouche here, okay.

You awoke from a suffocating grip, body against body his breath hot and heavy. Scaramouche is having a nightmare.

“Scara. Scaramouche. Love, wake up”. You nudge the man as gentle as you can to wake him up, save him from whatever hell he’s dreaming of.

“y/n?” Your name was his first words, and it would have made you happy if you hadn’t seen the way his eyes look at you. A fragment of sapphire yearning for salvation.

“I’m here, I won’t leave you.”

You took him into your arms, kissing his temple. Your digits combing his locks as you calm the fear in his heart. You are grateful that he’s this vulnerable to you, but your angry at everything that made him this way.

“I don’t need your reassurance”

You smiled at his words; his arms tight around you contradicting it.

“I know, but I am not reassuring you. I am telling you.”

There’s a comforting silence that surrounds the room as Scara’s breathing steadies. Tomorrow, when the sun rises together with him, the lad will surely deny of this event. And you will let him off the hook by simply nodding to his arguments.

Or so you thought.

The sun was already high up, the streets were busy, and you can even hear Nahida looking for your lover. But to your surprise, and amusement, he remains latched onto your body.

You will NOT let this opportunity to admire him go to waste. Fingertips tracing is noseline, his eyes, his lips. The daylight that finds its way to his face only added to his divine looks.

“You’re beautiful”

You received a grunt as a response, and you chuckled. “I love every bit of you.” You whispered, and he opened his eyes.

Once again, you’re met with a piece of midnight. Boring holes into your own. You wouldn’t complain, though. You love his eyes.

“Come on, sleepy head. There’s plenty of things to enjoy within the day” You break the silence once again while rubbing your nose on his.

“This is what I wanna do for the day”

“But you’re gonna be bored. I’m not even supposed to be a part of your expedition today y’know?”

“That’s why this is what I wanna do for the whole day”

“Ahh, the wind is telling me that we ar—”

“Kazuha if you don’t shut up, I swear I’m going to throw you out in the sea.”

The gentle lad sighed at his crewmate’s outburst—he can’t blame him though; he had been pestering him about just how far more it would take before the Crux reach Liyue for the past three hours now. He can’t help it you know; he misses you so much and for him, it’s nothing but agonizing.

Dragging his feet up the crow’s nest where he plans to spend the rest of the day before he can see you again, his heart sinking even further at the thought that it wouldn’t be any time soon. He drifts into a light slumber, begging for his dreams to about his beloved.

“Kazuhaa!” Beidou’s shout wake him from sleep, eyes fluttering open and somehow, sleepiness’ still vivid in the way he lazily closed them again. That is, until the captain announced their arrival at the land of Geo. A flash of silver plunged as he jumped from the Crow’s nest, his ever-calm face now adorned with giddiness. “Captain! I’m gonna go see (name)!” and he’s gone even before Beidou could wish him a safe trip. The wandering samurai can’t wait to be home.

The streets of Liyue’s still as busy as ever. Usually, he would stay away from rowdy environment. The excitement and chaos clashing in his calm demeanor, but right now, the idea of melting in your hands just seems stronger than any uncomfortable conditions. The image of him planting his face into your presence brought a serene smile into his porcelain face—really, only can bring out this side of him.

His eyes darted forward; he wants to buy something from Wanmin to bring with him for you. And that’s when he sees you, as dazzling and beautiful as ever—and…him. You’re talking with a man so happily, present as you exchange words that is inaudible to his ears. A frown decorates Kazuha’s face as an unfamiliar emotion tugged at his gentle heart. His feet move towards your direction, hoping to gain your attention. Surely you will be more excited and happier to see him than to talk with this guy, right? But his advances are drowned in the noise of the crowd, and probably because you and your companion are facing the restaurant, thus he remained unnoticed.

He cleared his throat, hoping once again trying to snatch your gaze. No avail.

His lips quivered. Come oon, your boyfriend’s here you know!

“Hello, Sir…” He trailed off, eyes drooped and an annoyed expression resting on his face. He wasn’t always like this, but he hadn’t seen you for days and now it looks like you’re not in love with him anymore (I live for dramatic Anemo boys supremacy. Regardless if it’s the ever so collected Kaedehara kazuha).

It even sends him in more turmoil as the man you’re talking to doesn’t listen when he called him out. The guy left him no choice. He huffed exaggeratedly as he caged your form between his strong arms, earning a cute squeak from you.

He looked over your shoulders and glared at the man, “Excuse me. They’re my partner, return them to me now please.” Before burying his red face in the crook of your neck. You understand right away what’s happening, your hands finding its way to your lover’s silver locks. A soft, gentle laugh escapes your lips.

“Kazuha, he’s my brother”

Xiao's gripped at the railings of the Inn's veranda tightens each passing minute. Eight? No, no... That's not right. Probably ten. Yes, you're ten minutes late from the time of your usual arrival now—of all times. Don't you know that he needs to attend to his duty already?

Thirty minutes. One hour. His heart tugged as the clock ticks and there's no sign of you coming by anytime soon. Did your forget about today? The adeptus heaved a sigh; no, of course you don't. You never missed this day. Maybe you're just busy. Yes, that's just it. He reassured himself, honeyed-eyes scanning the vicinity once more, hoping to catch a glimpse of you to no avail, before leaving to patrol the whole Liyue. Chest a little heavy and clouded with uneasiness. Somehow his body's just reluctant of moving.

Xiao is not one to partake on desires to consume human food. Not one to halt his demon-hunt for an afternoon break, but maybe you'll be— No. He's not waiting for you. he's just hungry. Yeah.

But the way his lips twitched, stomach falls, and eyes dimmed once he arrived at the inn without your presence tells another story. Heart heavy (though he will deny it) at the fact that you're still no where to be found. The thought of your interest in him fading crossed his mind. Maybe you're done of him? After all, he never showed any appreciation of all your shenanigans related to this day in the previous years you've accompanied him. His chest tightens, and the desire to see you just flares. He can't put a name on the emotions creeping up to him though.

Xiao pushed it deeper. Unwilling to accept whatever monster clawing up on his heart, maybe you just forgot. Yes, you never did before, but there's always first right? And this is your first time forgetting about his birthday. He took a sharp breathe. So what if you do? It's not like today's important...

But he's important to you, right? right?

Lost in his thoughts, Xiao did not notice you slipping through the door behind him, treats present at hand. Your walked towards his unmoving form, and Xiao jumped at the touch of your soft palms on the small of his back.

"(Y/N)" He uttered your name in shock. His golden eyes looking at you wide, as if surprised at your visit—aren't you doing this every year? what's with that reaction?

"Are you alri—" your words were cut as he planted his head at the crook of your neck, his arms snaking in your waist (A/N: if you're reading most of my work, you'll notice that I love doing this. Please don't judge me. This position is just sooo cute) "Xiao, what happened?" Curiosity and worry flooded your tone because this is a very unusual action for your lover.

He shook his head, and your empty hand reached out to run your fingers through his hair. "I thought you forgot"

"What? No, I did not! I was busy making this," you stated, pointing at the cake resting on your other hand "I will not forget what today is, Love." His heart beats faster at your endearment. All his worry of being discarded gone the moment your lips placed a kiss on the diamond on his forehead.

SELFISH

"Didn't I told you to call me as soon as you see yourself in danger?"

XIAO's voice is rasped. Worried, and yet full of authority as he reprimanded you. His golden orbs, a piece of sun that decided to embodied heaven, scrutinizing your figure— searching for any injury but hoping that there's none.

"Lumine told me that you're on a commission, don't wanna disturb you, Xiao."

The yaksha sighed at your argument, clearly not amused at the shallow reason you've Come up with.

"Commission or none, you will call my name. Do you understand that, (y/n)?"

You nodded, aware that the topic is not up for discussion.

In your mind, it's nothing for Xiao but protecting Liyue and its people. And the thought it self did more damage than the Hilichurl you've encountered earlier.

But what can you do? You're just one of so many that needed the man that is currently bringing you to the safety of your home. You're so self-centered to think that he will drop anything just to come and save you, and yet—

"Xiao?"

You heard a soft hum in response, a cue for you to continue,

"If I call out your name in the most unpredicted time, when your hands are full and the situation cannot be abandoned, will you st—"

"I will be there."

—He just let you be selfish.

REMINDERS

"I told you, I'll bring them home. I promise" Lumine's voice is clearly tainted with annoyance, although her words bring out a soft chuckle out of your lips.

It's just a night out. Catching out with each other's story while strolling the ever busy streets of Liyue, But Xiao can't leave you alone with the knowledge that your endeavor with Lumine will be at the break of night.

"Knowing you, there will be a high possibility that you will be called to an emergency, if such happen, call out my name." he muttered, particularly to your friend,but his eyes falls on you at the last four words.

"Yes, yes. I will. Besides, Lumine promised that she'll stay the night at home so you don't have to worry that much" You gave him a small, reassuring smile, but please don't expect that it did the job.

"Alright. Then make sure you call m—"

"Xiao I swear if you don't leave us alone I'll take (y/n) to Mondstadt tonight" You do not, Xiao neither, but Lumine does know that the Yaksha— he can deny it all as much as he wants—can't stand a day without seeing you for a day, so;

The traveler's outburst is enough to keep the man away from your tail for a little while.

Although it doesn't suffice for him not to wait for your arrival at the roof of your home once his duty is settled for the night.

NIGHTMARES

"Xiao"

Not even seconds passed when the owner of the name you have uttered appeared in front of you, weapon gripped tightly around his fingers, ready to take down anything that caused you harm

But much to his surprise, and relief, there's no sign of any danger around the area. Just you laying on your bed (NO. THIS IS SFW.) with tears adorning your porcelain face.

"What happened?" He questioned, feet scurrying to your comfort, his gentle digits kissing away the remnants of grief from your cheeks.

"I—I... You... I dreamt of you... dying" your words almost inaudible from hiccups, and the man before you loath the sight before him.

He hates the fact that he'd rather burn the land of geo himself, than see you in such state, but somehow, the thought of you mourning his demise is comforting, addicting even.

"I'm here, I'm fine...look" He took your hand in his, cupping his face with the warmth of your palms.

He leaned on your touch, and you caressed his face, thumbs moving across the places it could reach. Taking in everything, anything, that will prove that he's here. That he will always be here.

"Stay"

It's selfish of you to take the precious time of him that could've been used to cleanse Liyue.

"Sleep, i'll be here"

It's selfish of him to oblige and put you before the land he swore to protect.

The moon peeks a little, illuminating a space in the room but barely reaches the feet of your bed— as if afraid to expose what two pair of eyes are scared to admit.

DREAMS

You woke up with a sight to behold.

Your friend, whom you called at midnight, now deep in his sleep beneath the windowsill, moonlight dancing just above his emerald head.

How come a being, whose hands are tainted by rivers of blood, can look so divine?

You take in everything, carving the image in the back of your head. Xiao looks so beautiful. His legs were crossed as well as his arms, his head leaning on the wall behind him.

You moved closer, adoring the red eyeliner that decorates his eyelids, adoring his lips that's tightly close, adoring how he heaved his chest at every peaceful breathe he takes.

He's breathing. He's alive. Your nightmare is but a disgusting imagery of your worst fear, nothing more.

Your fingers find its way upwards, hoping to brush a strand of hair that falls between his eyes, although the action was forgotten when a hand grab your arms;

"Don't just crept up on me like that. What if I hurt you?" the Adeptus scolded you, his hands now checking if he had caused you any bruise.

"I can't help it. You look so beautiful while asleep"

Xiao's glad that the moonlight is not enough for you to notice the kiss of pink on his cheeks, and that you're still out of the vicinity to hear his heartbeat.

"You think I sleep? Since when did you became so disrespectful to the ways of the adepti, mortal?"

He tried to masked his rampaging emotions with fake annoyance, but the moment he hears laughter came out of your perfect lips, Xiao achingly hoped, yearned that he's not an adeptus.

INNOCENCE

"What?"

"I said, once there's enough snow, we can ingest it."

The man before you squints his eyes, confused and a little bit irritated at how much you're trying not to laugh.

"Is there anything you find amusing at my words, (y/n)" He tried his best to look intimidating, and on normal occasions, it would be a piece of cake considering how edgy he looks already. But sometimes—like this one, he's just too cute to be feared.

A bunch of snow began to accumulate at the top of his, some drops at his nose and he crinkles it in the most adorable way to remove the snow.

And in addition to that, he just said that he eats snow.

The protector of Liyue, a yaksha, a respectful adeptus— waits for the snow to be thick enough so he can eat it.

"None..hahaha none, it's just that..." you snorts, obviously having too much fun "i imagine you munching on snow hahaha"

"But we can really eat it. Look at this." he proceeds to crouch over and take a decent amount of white fluff in his hands, you watching his every move with amusement.

He put some on his mouth, and a ghost of fun played on his face.

"Wha— Wow you really did! How does it taste?" the las enthusiastically motion for you to open up your lips so he can put the remaining snow in his hands.

You swear there's a bit of smug expression resting on his face when he saw how giddy you get at the taste of the snow.

KARMIC DEBT

It's not new to him. The clenching of his chest, darkening thoughts, walking in the thin line of insanity and life. It is part of his life, it is part of him.

On this days, Xiao know better than to socialize with any living being. No one is safe once he tainted them with his karma—his curse, his punishment.

And it's alright. He's used to it. Caging the bloodlust insides, gambling with the headaches that brings out painful pasts. He conquers it all, push it deep enough just so he could continue his duty until it devours him again, and again, and again.

He will deal with it alone.

But there are times when it's so vigorous, times when he especially needs to stay away from anyone—and every time that it happens, like now, all he can think of is you.

So he seeks your presence. Ignoring the fact that he may cause you harm.

How selfish, really. But when darkness eats away at him, there's only you who can ease his burden.

And you take him with open arms. Like the winds caging his body, your soft embrace lull him to rest.

"Those memories... So dark" he murmured, curling up against your touch, his head on you chest and your arms around him. Protecting him against the enemies he can't fight alone.

"I know... I know Xiao. But I'm here, alright? I'll never leave you"

The movement of your fingers on his back take away the pain that plague his body, soothing both his physical form and his mind.

"So promise me, promise me that you'll always be here with me as well."

How selfish, really. But when he nods his head softly before falling asleep at your hums, his head at the crook of your neck and you cradle his lean figure, you don't really care.

GREEN

"It's one of Liyue's grandest festival!"

"I know that. I just simply see no point in watching humans litter the seas" he crossed his arms and looks at you uninterestedly.

"Well, the lights are pretty." "And? Please, (y/n). Stop being annoying"

You're taken aback by his words. Hurt at how he responded at your invitation. And archons, Xiao wants to take everything he said the moment he saw looks at your eyes.

"Fine, I just thought we could have fun with the others..." "But I understand"

Your voice sound dejected as you walked out of the inn, like a kicked puppy that yearns for attention. But he can't help it. He's been so close with you these past months, and he can't let you get any closer. He needs to protect you, even to himself.

Besides, there's no chance that you will ever reciprocate his feelings, right?

Yet regardless of how dedicated he is to stay away from you, he still finds himself scanning the crowd for a glimpse of you.

And he did. Of course he does, he always do. To spot you in the midst of people is like looking at the back of his hands. But this time, instead of the usual butterflies, his stomach drops.

There's a pang in his chest as he watches you talk so happy with someone. If he had accepted your invitation, would it be him you're talking to like that right now?

Probably not. He's not fun to be with, so your smiles will probably be missing if he's the one with you.

Ah, there's a pang in his chest at the memory if you leaving due to his choice of words.

He wants to snatch you away from the one you're talking with. He wants you take you somewhere far, somewhere they it's only him you'll see. He wants you to look at him, just like every time. Just him.

He didn't know what this feeling is. He only knows that despite sounding so selfish—turning you away and then thinking of snatching you back— he didn't care.

APOLOGIES

"(Y/N) until when are you gonna ignore him?" Lumine whispers into your ears, noticing how uneasy you are the last few days. His amber eyes flowing with concern.

"I told you, I don't wanna annoy him. I know I'm a bit much sometimes and I just don't want to bother him so much" your response earned a sigh from the traveller. "Xiao is just confused. You should talk to him, really"

She patted your back before waving you goodbye, thinking just how stupid the two of you for not being honest with your feelings.

Left at the comfort of your home, and with no things to do, your mind wanders back to the man in question.

You never thought of confessing because you don't wanna lose him as your friend, and yet here you are—watching him slip from away from you.

"(Y/N)" a tender voice halt your train if thoughts, gaining your attention. Turning around, your eyes met with golden ones.

You probably stared for too long because shit, you missed those eyes.

"Xiao... What are you doing here?"

There's a tug in his heart. So he's not welcome here anymore?

"I... want to talk to you" his eyes now darting anywhere but yours. Fingers fidgeting with his mask voice somewhat bashful.

"I'm listening" you murmured, gesturing at the space beside you for him to occupy, which he did.

"I talked to Lumine," he started. Trying his best to meet your (e/c) orbs "And she said that..."

"She said that?"

"Never mind what she said," He heaved a sigh to regain his composure, and you hummed in return. Whatever it is, you can get it out of Lumine herself, later.

"But I want to apologize... For what I've said. I didn't mean it"

His head's hung low. Afraid to look at you and see any negative emotions from you. What if you can't forgive him? What if you won't accept him again?

"Xiao" he looked up at your call. He missed your voice uttering his name.

"What if I told you that I love you, what would you do?" It's stupid of you to say such things, but you realized that you may lose him, in one way or another, so might as well be honest.

And you are ready to whatever his answer will be. Whatever. But not his silence. Not the way he opens and closes his lips, as if forcing the none existent words to come.

A soft chuckle left your lips. Kind of taking his loss for words as a rejection. "There's no need to say anything. I understand that this things are no—"

"No!"

You look at him, confirming if you've heard correctly. Things are happening so fast yet so slow for you that coherent thoughts never came.

"You're... You're important to me. But I'm not human, (y/n),"

His eyes averted your gaze again. As if scared that the fact will drive you away. When be received no response, the adeptus continues.

"I can't fathom human emotions. I don't understand them," — "but I know that I want you to be always with me"

Your heart skipped a beat at his confessions, albeit unclear and messy, it's soft and gentle. You reached out towards his face, and he jumped at your actions, clearly on edge at the conversation you're having.

You laughed at his actions, of which he returns with a lenient scowl.

"Nothing's funny, mortal"

"You want this Mortal. Adeptus Xiao"

He sighed, and said nothing to refute your words. Warmth begins to envelope your heart as everything sink in.

Xiao loves you

You took his arms in yours, just like what you always do. And he offer nothing against it. Loving the sensation of your skin on his as you put his palms at your cheeks.

"You don't have to understand those feelings, Xiao" closing your eyes when he hummed

"You just have to be honest with them" he rubbed your cheeks with his thumb, leaning in to leave a kiss on your forehead.

It's selfish how he wants to put you first above anything despite his duty. It's selfish how you want to entrance him throughout your punny lifetime, fully aware that you'll outlive him some day;

You don't know how his voice can sound innocent and lustful at the same time, but Archons you didn't care. You nodded your head, raising you legs further for his easy access. The man pulled out your underwear and inserts two of his fingers gently into your aching hole, earning a soft moan from your lips. Fuck, now you really want more.

"Faster, kazu—ah" he chuckles against your neck when you tried to rut in his fingers. He loves seeing you look so needy for him. "I don't think I can be more generous than this, Love," His pace remains painfully slow, teasing your clit with his thumb in the process "Unless, of course, you beg for it" you shivered at his tone, and it added to the heat, but fuck him and his fucking slow fingers.

"Please, Ka—ahh mhmm" your words were interrupted when he hit a certain spot, hard, earning a breathy moan from you. "Please, what?" "Make me—ahh Kazu—ah"

You would've formed a coherent answer if he doesn't pick up his pace abruptly. His slender digits, now three, coming in and out of your drenched sex at a lovely speed, arching your back at the sensation and taking away your ability to speak audibly. Your arms that's supporting you against the table almost give in.

"Answer me, Dove. Or my fingers may get tired" scared of losing your high, you did your best to comply at his words "cum— Kazu... Kazuhaa, make me cum. Pl—please" you muttered in between moans. His fingers still sending you to celestia.

"Fine, since you asked so nicely" the lad continue to finger your insides. Circling and reaching further as humanly possible— your moans and whimpers making his shorts more uncomfortable.

It didn't take long before you feel your orgasm coming, and Kazuha, being the best lover that he is, ravage your cunt even faster. Satisfying you in every second he hit your walls until you came. His lips reach out to your ears again, "Seriously? This much? With just my fingers?" You feel his digits playing with your juices, once again gliding through your folds. "You think you can take more, princess?" He added, taking out his hardened cock from his shorts.

It was a long night.

NAMES

The first time you met was when lesser Lord Kusanali introduced you to the wanderer as his temporary companion. Something the latter deemed unnecessary as he will be staying under the Dendro Archon's supervision for a while.

It would be nice to have someone to talk to aside from me. The archon mused before leaving the two of you, saying something about discussing a few things with the traveller.

Your eyes travelled towards the lad in front of you, slender figure towering over yours. And his eyes— you couldn't point a finger at the emotions blaring through it, He's scary.

You inquire about his name, trying to start a proper conversation that may make him feel comfortable. But then all he did is stare at you for a good three seconds before clicking his tongue and walks away.

Talk about manners.

A bit irked by his actions, you followed through his steps before yanking his sleeves, "I asked what's your name"

The irritation in your voice and your bold actions amused the lad, if Kusanali thinks it's a good thing to have another companion, then surely she'll not complain if he enjoys himself a little, right?

"I've gone by many names throughout my life—" you noticed how he paused, and a flash of misery waved in his indigo orbs "But you can call me anything you want. Just don't disappoint me by your choices"

It took you days to decide, until you learned from the traveler that he was referred to as SCARAMOUCHE before things happen.

When you told the lad that it is what you plan on addressing him as, he refused right away. But your words struck something in him and somehow, he's glad it is what you've decided to.

"You've had so many unwanted things that relates to this name, and I want to turn it around."

SMALL TALKS

He always looks at you with bored eyes and crossed arms before turning his back at your every attempt to spark little chat.

And when I say every time, it means every time. Your first few days accompanying the lad were just awkward with him denying you any form of conversation.

But don't get me wrong, as much frustration it gave you, the wanderer is enjoying it. How your nose scrunch up, vivid annoyance, etc. He's loving how much entertainment you're giving him.

You've caught up to this, you really do. But you just want to feel the satisfaction of making him talk. Besides, how are you gonna comply to your archon's wishes if you can't talk to him?

That is until you stumbled unto the man in question sleeping. His face drawn in between fear and resentment as his chest heaved heavily, a drop of tears adorns his visage— A nightmare.

You shake the man awake, saving him from further heartbreak the dreamland is serving him.

And when he opened his eyes to look at you—archon's, when he looked at you. The steel emotions are gone, it doesn't looks like he's intimidating or anything alike.

To you, Scaramouche looks like a love deprived child.

His eyes flashed pain and exhaustion boring holes onto yours before he regained composure, the usual wanderer now back.

Yet you noticed how his hands still tremble, so you took it in yours, him wincing in the process. "What are your doing?"

"I don't know, but I'm here" you really don't, yet as he laid his head on your shoulders, shushing you as he do so, you know you're doing something good.

"Don't speak. It's aggravating when you try not to be awkward with silence"

ATTACHMENTS

If he weren't so pretty, you might have bruised his face by now.

Three months have passed after your fated interaction with the wanderer. And in such time, your patience isn't getting any longer.

"What? Gonna cry to Mama Kusanali now and ask to take you away from the meanie?" Scaramouche taunted you, just like yesterday, and the day before, and so on. "Such a crybaby, this is why you've got no lover still"

"Hah?! As if you have one! You're so tactless people will scurry away even before you speak" you spat back, missing the way he flinched at the thought.

"Heh? You think I've got a sharp tongue? I just tell things the way I see it. Isn't your problem that you're too sensitive?"

You end up arguing more, of course. But much to your amusement, and unusual worry, the lad toned down his insults for the following days.

You tried to confront him and his poor attempt at being friendly, but it's Scaramouche we're talking about. There's no way in hell he'll let you have what you want.

"Fine, fine. If you don't want to tell me, then don't" you notice how his face contorts into that of his when he's about to insult you, but then he holds it back.

You're not sure where you'll be shocked at. The way he controls his mouth, or his next choice of words—

"Since—since Buer brought you hear, you will not leave me right away even if I'm a bit tactless—right? "

I'M HERE

You watch his eyes narrow at the painful memory as he recalls what his creator did to him. Scara barely talks, and you appreciate the small moments he decides to tell stories about him self.

But when hurt become evident in his indigo orbs, you feel guilty for asking the wanderer.

He probably guessed your thoughts, flicking your forehead and muttering "I don't need pity, dumbass" before hiding his emotions once again.

"I don't pity you, idiot—" you started, gaining his attention. "You're kind. The world did things that made you mean though" he rolled his eyes at your words, ready to say something but you beat him to it

"But I admire you. You're strong. You've been wronged so many times and yet you're still willing to atone"

Your companion looks at you with confusion adorning his pretty face, words long died down in his throat so you decided to speak more.

"They may leave you, but I won't. If there will be a time that the strong you needs someone to wipe your tears, "

You took his gentle digits into yours, on usual occasion, he may have slap it away, but something tells him not to.

"I'm here. I will be here. " and with that, you have his eternal, undying loyalty.

SPECIAL TREATMENT

"Buer told you to bring an umbrella, didn't she?" you pursed your lips at his words. Your archon did remind you about bringing the said item, but then the sun was all high and mighty earlier today that you decided to neglect her words.

"Yes, but it doesn't look like it's gonna rain today!" you huffed, surely he wouldn't be that drenched if you two share his hat, right?

"But it did. So now, suffer"

Annoyed at the lad, and by the fact that he's right, you proceeds to stomp your feet away from the shed the two of you are currently residing, determined to get back to the city before the downpour comes heavy.

The wanderer watch as you angrily walked away from his direction. His idea of staying a little longer outside with you now in the dumps because your stubborn ass can't get a hint.

Sighing, he unleashes his elemental skill and hover towards you.

You met his indigo eyes, annoyance still vivid in yours. "You act like a five year old sometimes"

His words, as usual, irked you. but then the irritation quickly dissipates when he put his hat on your head and gestures you to climb up his back as he kneeled.

"We don't have the whole day dumbass"

You comfortably settled on his back while he secure your knees.

The journey back to the city was silent until you speak, and archons, the wanderer is grateful that his face is hidden from your sight.

"You smell nice"

CONFESSIONS

"Just do it"

You hesitantly placed your palms on his before he maneuvered your body and carried you princess style.

"Scara not too high!" you warned as he gives you a soft chuckle and called you a scaredy cat.

"Look" you heard him say, gesturing towards the scenery the night of Sumeru City can offer. To say that it was breathtaking was an understatement— the image before you is enchanting.

The flickering lights of the busy streets adorned the darkened city, and the stars above aren't taking any competition into account. The air up high is cold, considering the altitude, but something keeps you warm.

Scaramouche.

"It's beautiful"

The wanderer's gaze flicks towards you and saw how in awe you are at the view. He wonders, will you ever look at him the same way? he'll never know.

"Of course it is." he huffed, proud that he get to show you such a wonderful view. He almost dropped you, though, when you voiced out another thought of you.

"Do you consider me as pretty as this?"

one... two... three seconds and you brushed it off with a laugh. His silence is enough proof that once again, you sound so stupid.

"Kidding. idiot."

You thought that the discussion is over, but then when you were about to wave him good bye for the day, you felt a small tug at your sleeves.

You turned around to see a flustered wanderer, his eyes avoiding yours. "There's only one similarity between you and this city,"

He began, not entirely sure of whether to continue his little speech or not.

"I'm in peace."

Imagine self-sabotaging your relationship with KAZUHA because you keep thinking that no man on earth is as kind and as loving as him, that he only wants you for his own benefits. That he's not really in love with you.

There's you, thinking that you're not so worthy of his affection so you end up ignoring the lad. He can't fool me. You thought, determined that whatever he is showing you is a unreal— a façade. And you avoiding him just tears his world apart so he confronts you. Eyes gleaming with longing and hurt. "Are you not satisfied with me, Dove?"

"No. No, you don't get it" you whispered, eyes anywhere but the crimson ones. His eyes always scares you. You love his orbs, please don't get me wrong. You love how fiery and burning it is, you keep comparing it to polished rubies but then his hues always ends up more beautiful. It's just that you think it held oceans of lies to hurt you.

"Then explain it to me, please" Kazuha took your hands in his. How much he he adores your gentle digits and soft palms, you'll never know. Your touches is everything to him.

"It's you who aren't satisfied with me" his forehead folds into lines as curiosity flooded his mind— Archons, what did he do to make you feel such farce? "And how can you say that?" He asked you with a voice of an angel looking for love.

"Because—Because I know I'm not enough," you started. Hiccups heard at the back of the crux. "I can't be enough for you Kaedehara." He winced at the use of his last name. "So please, make it easier for me and just say that you're not really into me. Let's break up." Kazuha's face contorts into that of hurt and betrayal.

But then, he knows you. He knows that it's just your mind playing tricks, it's just your traumas saying things. It's not you, it's not his beloved.

"No." Ugh, you hate how love drunk his crimson eyes are, you hate how he grips your hands tightly, how he looks at you as if he can't live without you. And you hate, hate, hate how much you love all of it at the same time, because what if they're all travesty?

"I love you, (name)."

You turned towards him, and suddenly you're reminded of how messed up your head is. You love this man so much and you'd rather drown than hurt him. But that's exactly what you're doing right now.

"So no, I am not going to let you leave me."

You whimpered and he took you into his arms. "And I am going to show you just that until you believe me."

Xiao

He’s just tolerating you.

Or so he says. But Aether always finds it amusing how you can pester XIAO from time to time and get out of it with just a sigh from the golden eyed lad.

Like today, for example.

- As an introvert, powernap at the university’s roof top is like a holy grail for Xiao. He treasures it so much that the moment the bell signifies lunch, he’ll dash out of the room in a heartbeat. His friends know better than to disturb him else they receive some icy words. But somehow, much to Venti’s amusement, Xiao let you crash his solace and talk his ears out on days that you feel like doing so. Pretty privileges. Venti thought, before gushing it out with their friend group.

Heizou tried to make him confess that he is head over heels for you. He just finds it so funny how Xiao keeps denying his very obvious crush on you. Come on, he’s pretty sure that he’s not the only one who notice how Xiao’s sharp eyes keeps drifting back to you every time.

“You don’t look at me like how you look at her!”

“No. It’s just that it hurts my eyes when I see you.”

It’s the talk of the group for like a week. How they would see Xiao being such a gentleman when you’re in the room, his patience longer than they’ve ever seen, and more.

“Just admit it lover boy. You simp for (name)” Scaramouche pointed out. A sinister thought playing in his mind.

-  “I told you, I don’t. She’s just much tolerable than the rest of our classmates” The questioned man rolled his eyes, not entertaining the idea because even if he does, he’s a hundred and ten percent sure that you’re not in love with him. “Well, if that’s true, I guess you wouldn’t mind if I go after her?” the indigo haired man piped, only to be met by daggers sent through Xiao’s eyes. Eerie silence filled the room until Scara raised his hands in the air, satisfied smirk decorating his lips, “I’m kidding.” (Much like what he had done in this one.)

“Thought so.”

Scaramouche

This man is so obvious it hurts.

And also, he’s extra mean to you. He wants your attention babe, believe me.

“Hah! I can do that better. You suck.”, “What? Speechless because you’re so in love with me?”

No, it’s the other way around and SCARAMOUCHE KNOWS IT.

But like, you don’t believe his attitude towards you because his actions say otherwise.

- “You’re an idiot. Acting so high and mighty while being pathetically weak.” And then he proceeds to help you pick up the books that have fallen from your grasp and took the remaining ones on your arms to carry it himself.

- “Heh. You think he’s gonna like you back by helping him out? No way you’re uglyyy” “I don’t like him idiot. I have to do this, so he’ll pay me nice and good” you rolled your eyes and he sighs in relief.

He’s actually pretty close to you since you’re friends since middle school.

Venti and Heizou will call the two of you an old married couple because of the continues bickering. Of which Scara will return with disgusted look because no, He can’t have it get to him because he will lose you if he does.

But his friends know otherwise. They notice how careful the man when it comes to you, how observant he is when you’re involved, etc. And besides, Venti just feels it.

And Venti turns out right (again) when their group passed by two students who are obviously gushing over you and one of them spot Scara.

- “Just confess to (name)! You wouldn’t know until you try.” One of them says, and Scara’s ears perked up at the sound of your name. “But aren’t they like with that scary dude?” cue Venti and Heizou snickering in the background. This resulted to the two met gazes with them. Their knees tremble at the sight of your bestfriend. His usually playful eyes now dark and looming—and it’s directed at them.

“Yes,” he started menacing look present in his lovely, porcelain face. “they’re taken by the scary dude.”

The two ended up running and Venti and Heizou needs to be intervened by Aether for them to stop laughing.

“Hey scary dude. I thought you didn’t like her?” Venti teased, and Aether just sighed.

“Shut up”

Kaedehara Kazuha

This man is a gentleman you wouldn’t notice anything if you’re not as observant as Heizou.

He smiles so gentle with anyone, he talks with utmost respect, this guy right here is the epitome of prim and proper.

“But he’s always giddy when he’s talking to them” Heizou pointed out to Venti one day, to which the latter ended up agreeing to. Because now that he mentions it, Kazuha really seems so excited talking to you.

His eyes literally sparkles when you’re in the room, and his smiles are wider and brighter than usual when talking to you.

And in addition to that, KAEDEHARA KAZUHA always go out of his way for you.

- “Kazuha?” The man turns to you, a tender smile immediately making its way to decorate his face, “Yes, (name)?”. “I made a (a dish with gourd in it). Would you like some?” And oh, the man will munch on it like it’s his most favorite thing on the whole Teyvat, only it’s not. He hates bitter gourd. But to make you happy? Give it all to him and he’ll eat it with the sweetest smile.

The lad also does everything in his capability to be near you. You need something from the cafeteria? He needs to buy something as well. You suck at this one subject? He’ll offer to teach you. You accidentally have no partner in light stretching for P.E? He, too!

But it seems like this fact hits Venti and Heizou earlier than him, as they can also see clear signs that Kazuha is not aware of his own feelings.

That’s why they took it to their own hands. They must help their friend in need you know! So, they did the most obvious thing one should do,

They asked him.

- “Zuhaa,” Venti piped in as Heizou placed his arms around Kazuha’s shoulder. “We’re wondering, do you perhaps fancy (name)?”. They received a soft chuckle from the lad. A very composed answer left his lips. “(Name) is certainly beautiful and wonderful individual,” he smiles and cleared his throat. Bashful and shy from his words, “But I am afraid I have to say no to you question.” The other two expected this. ALL their friends are like this, Kazuha is not the first one, so they know what to do. “Ohh That’s great!” Venti exclaimed, as if excited at the new found information before turning to Heizou, “You can pursue them then!”

Kazuha’s heart almost stopped at his friends’ words, so Heizou like you? Of course, he does. You’re beautiful and kind and gentle, and more. It’s only natural to like you. But he wants you! And words left his lips before he can keep it shut.

“No, they’re mine!”

Awe, the usually composed and collected Kazuha now red and ashamed of what he has done. The back of his hand failing miserably at trying to hide the red hue that painted his face down to his neck.

The other two looked at the outburst of their friend before erupting into laughter.

“Not if you don’t confess soon enough” Heizou said in between laughs and Kazuha sent him a sharp look. Face still beet red.

“They're gonna kill you.” Traveler’s voice earned a wince from the yaksha who are still trying to walk straight after the incident in the chasm. They’ve been stuck for days, if not a whole week, inside the tremendous place and the final act really did took a toll on his body.

He let out a barely audible tsk as Lumine guided his form to sit somewhere comfortable. Only when he’s settled that he voiced out his concern.

“Please don’t tell her” his golden eyes look anywhere but hers, knowing that she had that judgmental stare decorating her small face. “No.”

Her sharp refusal made Xiao snap his gaze onto her, he didn’t hear her right, right? But the looks on her face tells him otherwise. “But they’re going to feel bad about this” he gritted his teeth like a kid, and his companion is reminded how much the Adeptus in front of her loves you so much to the point that making you sad is one of the last things he’ll do.

But if he really wants you to be happy, he must learn how to take care of his self as well.

“Yes. And it’s your fault,” sometimes the traveler’s bluntness hit a certain painful spot.

“So, I’m going to tell them that you almost sacrifice yourself again despite promising that you’ll be careful every.single.time.” The blonde made sure to emphasize her points, and although Xiao appreciate her concern for you, he just doesn’t want to see you crying because he messed up again.

“I’ll let her know myself then” he tried to argue, hoping that he can at least make a little bit more nice in the ears, but Lumine knows that he’ll hide certain facts to protect your feelings—don’t get it wrong, she loves you so much that she also doesn’t want to hurt you, but she’s aware how broken hearted you’ll be if Xiao keeps doing this to himself— so she will do this herself.

“And I will also let her know. You can’t keep hurting yourself without thinking of their feelings, Xiao. What if something happened to you for real? Don’t you know that it’ll send her to an even deeper despair?” Once again, she reprimanded the man, because aside from being your friend she treasures, he also is a dear companion to her.

“I’m gonna tell (name), and you’re gonna listen to everything she says” She huffed, preparing in her mind what to tell you as too keep the damage and worry on minimum. Although all her thoughts left her when she heard Paimon gasped and your sweet voice fill both hers and Xiao’s ears.

Yanfei came across you and told you the whereabouts of your boyfriend, making it easier to find your beloved.

“Tell me what?” Ahh, Xiao missed that sound so much.

“Love,” the green haired adeptus proceeds to reach out to you as far as his damaged body can do, distress and concern flooded your eyes as you run towards him, gentle finger scanning his battered form.

“What happened?” as much as he can’t stand to hear the uneasiness laced on your voice, he also can’t help but to succumb on your touches. He missed you so dearly. Receiving no response from your lover, you turned your head towards your friend, who’s already looking at you.

“And you, too! You look so pale and weak…” You noticed how frail the two of them look and a sob escaped your lips, you were about to speak again when Lumine beat you to it. Saying that she’s fine, and then proceeds to tell you everything that happened. After her explanation, Lumine offered to teleport you and Xiao in the Wangshuu Inn where he can rest comfortably. After bidding her farewell, with a bit of light scolding from you, you then turned towards Xiao who are currently draped in your shared bed, he’s not looking at you direct in the eyes, almost ashamed of what he had done.

“I’m sor—”

“I can’t stand this.”

His golden orbs darted into yours, swirling emotions forming into heavy heartbeat as his chest tightens at your words. No, please don’t say you’ll leave.

“(Name)” he tried to stand up to reach you out, but his body failed him. “I have told you before, Xiao” no, please don’t call him that. Where’s the usual Love? or Dearest? Or Beloved?

His crestfallen face stares at you pleadingly, and on normal occasions, you have give in. But you don’t want him to abuse his self anymore, and if you don’t want him to keep tormenting the both of you, then you must prevail.

“I can stand you being unromantic, or cold from time to time, I understand that you’re not a mortal who do silly things. But heavens, I can’t take it if you’re putting yourself in danger every time.”

He noticed how your eyes glistens from the tears, but his heart breaks at the sight of you standing so far away from him, reminding him that he’s the reason you’re unreachable sometimes.

Mustering all the remaining strength he has, he tried to stand up once again, he can’t have you going farther. His digits caressed your cheeks, and your eyes look up at him, turbulent storms raging at his touch.

“I’m sorry. I won’t do it again, I promise. Please don’t leave me.”

“You better don’t. Because I hate thinking that I’m not important for you to throw yourself like that,” you sobbed against his chest “I love you, Xiao. I don’t know what I’ll do if I ever lose you.”