This masterlist includes my works on haikyuu. More on drabbles, but enjoy! Requests are open.
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MIYA ATSUMU
[4:06 PM] - miya atsumu, he's clingy and wants your attention.
A not-so-romantic date with Miya Atsumu - exactly how the title is, but it's fun
SAKUSA KIYOOMI
[4:07 PM] - it's summer and you feel hot.
Birthday - it's his birthday and you have a surprise.
Ours - reader is sad, omi comforts.
All over again - he falls in love with you in different moments, again and again.
"I'm still mad at you" - sakusa's mad but he loves you
AKASHI KEIJI
My Heroine - Akaashi Keiji, you both love reading and he gives you something.
SUNA RINTAROU
[10:26] - just bf suna dancing with you.
Headcanons
After break up - ft. sakusa, atsumu, and suna.
Tori thoughts brainrots
Sakusa brainrot #1
SMAUs
RUNAWAY - sakusa kiyoomi x reader
— Getting engaged to one of the biggest musicians feels like a dream, for sure. Oh, how you prayed that this was all a dream. What more could possibly go wrong if Y/N fled her own wedding? Accidentally getting in the wrong car assuming it was her friend’s, only to see her ex boyfriend, Sakusa Kiyoomi, behind the wheel? No biggie, I swear!
I'll try to write more! I'm still trying to find the strength to continue writing but I'm still working on being consistent. Thank you for reading! I get distracted and unmotivated a lot so there might be times I'll disappear.
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something I love about the Love and deepspace myths is that, because they've chosen to make mc be tied to all of the guys in *any* lifetime, it basically means they can create any type of myth card. They can pull from about any religion, almost any culture, or any story/tale. All while making it work because it would just be another world/timeline where mc and whichever lead would be together. Its wild they can represent a variety so much so that any player from any world can get a bit of home represented. And I think that's amazing, bad for my wallet, but amazing, bad for my emotions, yet still amazing.
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No I really think that we don’t acknowledge the fact that Sylus is a multi-disciplinary virtuoso as much as we should. He’s actually brilliant in every facet of life. We all get carried away by his bad boy persona but he’s actually so gifted. He has so many talents and so much knowledge about everything. He’s curious and never says no to learning something new. It’s not all book smarts, even though he reads a lot. He has book smarts AND street smarts, I’m pretty sure if he went to school or college he’d be so hated by everyone because he’s just instantly good at everything he tries. He’s physically fit. He knows boxing. He can ride and modify motorcycles. He knows a lot about vintage cars. He made Mephisto. He’s a gamer. He’s a father. He’s a boss he’s a nerd he knows several languages. He dresses well. He watches wildlife shows. He’s good with technology. He has several armouries. He modifies weapons. He understands pure sciences he understands economics he understands politics he understands literature he understands history he understands law. He can play the organ. He can cook. He’s a collector. Like he has such a broad scope of knowledge he knows everything about everything. He could probably perform an impromptu emergency surgery. He can probably fly a plane in a pinch. And on top of all of that he has a lethal face card. He’s a jack of all trades and a master of them all too. He is everything. I’m just Ken.
⠀ ⠀❜❀⠀˙⠀simon "ghost" riley x fem!reader⠀(❁ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈)⠀˚
░⌦⠀ synopsis.⠀ ⠀domestic life with simon. 𖧷⠀⁺⠀
⠀. ⏝ི𓏶. ゜ imagine ⠀ being⠀ simon's ⠀wife⠀ ⋮
Simon didn’t think he could be a father.
Not because he didn’t want to be—he did. Quietly, painfully. But he never believed he’d live long enough for it. He didn’t think there’d be a version of life where he could sit still, trade gunpowder for cradle songs, or let something so fragile as a child curl up on his chest and fall asleep without fear in the world.
But then you came. And then… she did.⠀𓆉
He was terrified.
When you told him, his first reaction was silence. Heavy, still—the kind that made your skin crawl even though you knew he would never hurt you. He stared at the floor for a long time. Not out of anger. Not even shock. Just a weight pressing down on every piece of him, trying to make sense of a life where he could deserve something this soft.
He didn’t say anything for hours. But that night, while you lay in bed pretending to sleep, you felt his callused hand over your stomach. Gentle. Reverent. Like he thought he might break both of you.
“I’ll keep you safe,” he whispered so quietly, it could’ve been a prayer.
He wasn’t there when she was born.
Mission delays. A storm grounded his transport. He’d torn through his comms trying to reach anyone, anything—cursing the universe for making him a soldier first, father second.
But when he walked into that hospital room with dirt still on his boots and shadows under his eyes, and saw you holding her… saw her pink and alive and real in your arms…
He broke.
He didn't cry, not really. But his shoulders shook as he sat by your side and pressed his forehead to your temple. He stared at her like she was a ghost haunting his past—something he never thought he’d be allowed to touch.
“She’s so small,” he murmured, voice cracking.
“Yeah,” you replied.
That night, he didn’t sleep. Just watched her chest rise and fall, afraid to blink.
Simon was awkward at first.
He held her like she might detonate—arms stiff, movements cautious. Changing diapers felt like defusing bombs. And baby talk? Forget it. He read her the back of his cereal box in a low, gravelly voice, and she cooed like he was reciting poetry.
He wouldn’t say much, but he did. Morning bottles already warmed before you woke. Midnight pacing when she wouldn’t stop crying. One hand rubbing small circles on her back, the other gripping the baby monitor like a lifeline when he had to leave.
He taught her to crawl by laying on the floor with her, inching backward like it was a stealth op. When she took her first steps toward him, he froze. It felt like watching a sunrise you never thought you’d see.
She follows him everywhere.
Like a little ghost of her own.
He doesn’t let many people see her. Doesn’t post pictures. Doesn’t talk about her on base. But he keeps a small photo tucked behind his dog tags. If anyone catches a glimpse, they know not to ask.
She’s curious. Smart. A little quiet—like him. She watches everything. Studies the way he moves, tilts her head when he speaks like she’s decoding him. When she starts copying his dry, deadpan jokes, you swear Simon almost smiles.
He lets her paint his face with glitter and stars when she’s bored. He sits there stone-faced, letting her stick pink butterfly clips into his blond hair. If you ask why, he just shrugs:
“She wanted to. Didn’t wanna say no.”
He teaches her how to be strong—not cruel, not hardened, just aware. He teaches her to pay attention to exits, to trust her gut. When she has nightmares, he’s there before she can even call for him.
And when she asks him why he wears a mask sometimes, he kneels down and explains it gently. That some things are meant to protect, not hide. That it’s okay to be soft, but it’s also okay to be careful.
And then he lets her try it on. It drapes over her face like a cape. She laughs.
“Look, Daddy. I’m just like you!”
“No, sweetheart,” he says, and this time, he does smile—small, but real. “You’re stronger than I ever was.”
Simon is a man full of ghosts.
But when he’s with her, they quiet.
You’ve seen it.
The way his shoulders relax when she’s in the room. The way his voice drops softer when he reads to her. The way he presses his forehead to hers before he leaves, and whispers, “You be good for Mum, yeah? I’ll be back.”
He hates going.
Every goodbye leaves a crack in him.
But every return—when she runs to him screaming “Daddy!” and tackles his legs with her little arms—that’s what mends it.
He doesn’t know if he’s doing it right. He’s always afraid he’s too broken, too cold, too late. But you tell him he’s the safest place she knows.
And sometimes, when the house is quiet and she’s asleep in the next room, he’ll hold you close and whisper,
“Thank you.”
She’s eight now.
She tells people her dad is a superhero.
Simon doesn’t correct her.
He doesn’t know what version of him she’s seeing—what stories she’s crafted in her head to explain his scars or the way he flinches when doors slam too hard. She doesn’t know what he’s done. What he’s capable of. To her, he’s just… strong. Invincible. Safe.
He doesn’t deserve it. But he lives for it.
There are nights when the house is quiet and warm and she’s tucked beneath her galaxy-print bedsheets, one arm flung off the mattress and glitter nail polish chipped from the day.
And he’ll sit outside her room. In the hallway. Hands clenched between his knees.
He listens to her breathe.
He doesn't know why he tortures himself like that—why he waits for nightmares that never come, or for screams she’s long since outgrown. Maybe he’s still waiting for the other shoe to drop. Maybe he’s waiting to fail her. Like he failed his family. His brother. Himself.
He’ll sit there until his knees ache. Until the silence starts to feel like mercy again.
Then he goes to bed, lays next to you, and stares at the ceiling like there’s a sniper on the roof. Like peace is a trap he’s too smart to fall for.
She was never supposed to see it.
An old flash drive. Left in a drawer he thought was too high. She’d plugged it into her school laptop, probably looking for cartoons.
She didn’t say anything until hours later. She was quiet. Paler than usual.
“Daddy… you hurt bad people, right?”
He froze.
“…What’d you see, love?”
“Some men. You hurt them. But… you were saving someone, weren’t you?”
There was no panic in her voice. No fear. Just a question, small and sincere, wrapped in child-logic and trust.
Simon knelt in front of her. Took both her hands in his. Looked her in the eye like it was the most sacred thing he’d ever done.
“Yes,” he said. “I hurt bad people. I’ve done things I’m not proud of. Things I’d never want you to see. But I’ve never hurt someone innocent. Never would.”
She nodded slowly. And then—God, kids are strange—she just reached out and touched the scar on his cheek, the one beneath the corner of his eye.
“I’m not scared of you,” she said softly. “You’re my hero.”
And that was the first time in his life Simon wanted to cry in front of someone.
He held her so tight that night, you thought she might get smothered. But she clung to him too—arms around his neck like an anchor, like she’d never let go.
She gets more clever every year.
She steals his hoodies. Starts hiding his mask in ridiculous places—like the freezer, or under her bed—just to see how long it takes him to find it. She claims it’s to “keep him home longer.”
He pretends to be annoyed.
“You’re a little brat,” he mutters, tossing her over his shoulder.
“I'm baby!” she giggles back, kicking her legs.
They have their own games. Their own signals. A whole silent language between them. When she’s nervous at school, she touches her wrist twice—it means “I wish you were here.” When he’s home late from a mission, she leaves a plastic dinosaur on the kitchen table—it means “I waited.”
She tells him she wants to be like him.
A protector. A fighter.
He tells her she already is.
But inside, the thought terrifies him.
You’re the one who packs his bag now. She won’t help anymore. Not since last time.
She’d cried so hard she threw up. Told him he promised he’d stay longer. That “longer” shouldn’t mean “only six days.” She was angry in that way only children can be—grief-stricken and pure.
“I hate the army,” she said, clutching the edge of his vest.
He knelt again. Always kneeling, always trying to shrink himself to meet her where she is.
“You don’t have to understand, love. But I hope one day… you’ll forgive me for missing things.”
She didn’t answer. Just turned and ran to her room.
He left anyway. And it broke him.
He kept her crayon drawing in his vest pocket the whole mission. Folded and faded. A stick figure version of him holding hands with her beneath a smiling sun.
It’s still there.
And when he comes back, It’s always late.
You’ll hear the gate creak. The boots on the gravel. She’ll fly out of bed before you can stop her—barefoot and wild-haired, running down the stairs.
He drops everything to catch her.
She wraps herself around him like a vine. He doesn’t even get the mask off before her little arms are around his neck and she’s whispering “I missed you I missed you I missed you” like a spell.
“I missed you too, sweetheart.”
He holds her like she’s the only thing tying him to earth. And maybe she is.
Teenage girls are loud in their silence.
Simon learned that the hard way.
She doesn’t slam doors or scream. She doesn’t yell “You don’t understand!” or throw things across the room. She just gets quiet. Withdraws. Answers in clipped syllables, disappears into her hoodie, headphones in, eyes distant.
She used to run to him the second he came home. Now she doesn’t even look up from her phone.
She’s fifteen.
And sometimes, Simon thinks she’s slipping through his fingers, and he’s got nothing left but shadows and memory.
It started small.
She stopped asking him to braid her hair before bed. Said she could do it herself. She stopped leaving dinosaurs on the kitchen table. Stopped leaving notes in his rucksack.
He knew it wasn’t personal.
It was growing up.
But that didn’t make it easier.
“Give her space,” you told him gently. “She’s figuring herself out.”
He tried. He really did.
But he couldn’t help hovering near her doorway some nights, watching her back hunched over a laptop, music playing softly. Wondering if she still remembered how he used to sing to her in a voice barely above a whisper when she couldn’t sleep. Wondering if she remembered why he was gone so often.
Wondering if she still thought he was her hero.
It came up one night, out of nowhere.
She was setting the table. He’d been home for five days. The air was calm, the routine safe. And then:
“Do you wear the skull mask because you want to scare people?”
He looked up from the sink, heart stalling for a second.
He turned off the water. Dried his hands slowly. Looked her in the eye.
“No,” he said after a long pause. “I wear it because I used to think I was already dead.”
She blinked.
Didn’t say anything.
He almost regretted being honest.
“But then…” His voice caught. “Then I had you.”
The silence that followed was thick. Fragile.
And then she whispered:
“You’re not dead.”
He cleared his throat, chest aching. “No. Not anymore.”
She set down a fork.
Walked over.
And, for the first time in months, hugged him without needing a reason.
He didn’t let go for a long time.
The hardest part of fatherhood for Simon isn’t leaving. It’s letting her live.
She’s starting to go out more now. With friends. Late bus rides. Music festivals. Sleepovers at houses he doesn’t know.
He doesn’t sleep well on those nights.
You can see it—the way his leg bounces, the way he checks the time every fifteen minutes, the way he keeps his phone unlocked, her tracker app open on the screen.
“She’s not a target,” you remind him. “She’s a kid.”
But in his world, innocence doesn’t mean safety.
And light doesn’t mean there’s no danger.
When she comes home, he does the same ritual every time:
One look over her face.
A glance at her hands.
Eyes flicking to her shoes, her wrists, her neck.
A checklist of survival. It takes seconds. She doesn’t even notice.
But he does.
Only when he’s sure she’s safe does he let himself exhale.
The first time she really breaks—it’s quiet.
She comes home from school, bags under her eyes, and says: “I don’t think anyone really likes me.”
Simon is at the table cleaning a rifle.
But he puts it down immediately.
And for a long time, they just sit on the couch. Side by side. She doesn’t cry. He doesn’t pry. Eventually, she says, “I feel like I’m too much for people. Too weird.”
He looks at her then. Really looks.
And in the softest voice he can manage, he says:
“You’re not too much. The world’s just too loud.”
She leans into him.
He lets her.
She’s taller now, but somehow still fits under his arm.
“I don’t know how to be normal.”
He smiles, brushing her hair back behind her ear.
“Good. Normal’s overrated.”
She laughs, watery and real.
It’s the sound of his heart stitching back together.
Simon isn’t great with words. Not the soft ones, anyway.
But he shows her love in the way he always waits up.
In the way he replaces the lightbulb in her lamp before it burns out.
In the way he gives her his old hoodie when she’s sick and lets her keep it.
In the way he memorizes the names of her friends. Learns their schedules. Watches over them from a distance like a silent guardian.
She doesn’t say “I love you” as often as she used to.
But when she falls asleep in the car and mumbles “Dad” like it’s home…
He knows.
He knows.
She’s not a child anymore.
But she’ll always be his little girl.
And he’ll always be the ghost at her back—quiet, watchful, loyal.
Not haunting her.
Protecting her.
Always.
He never taught her how to drive.
You did.
She insisted.
He didn’t mind. Truthfully, the thought of her behind the wheel made his pulse spike. Not because he didn’t trust her, but because he knew the world. Knew how quickly things turned. He could pull a man out of a wrecked Humvee, but the idea of her skidding into a light pole because of wet asphalt made his vision go white.
So he let you take her.
Watched from the window.
She waved at him once from the driver’s seat, grinning like she owned the road.
And he waved back. Small, barely-there.
But it was enough.
It was always enough.
The house is quieter now.
She’s twenty-three.
Lives two cities over. Has a dog. A job. A life.
She comes home when she can, which isn’t often. You say that’s normal. That’s what kids do. But he still checks the front window around five every evening. Still listens for the sound of a key turning in the lock that doesn’t come.
He still sets her place at the table when you aren’t looking.
You find the folded napkins sometimes. The extra fork. He never explains. You don’t ask.
She doesn’t call him "daddy" anymore.
That’s what time does.
It sands things down.
She calls him Dad now. Or Old Man if she’s feeling playful.
He likes it. But it stings in a quiet way. Like finding an old picture and realizing you don’t remember the moment it captured.
There are still hugs. Still warmth. But she doesn’t cling to him anymore. Doesn’t bury her face in his neck. Doesn’t fall asleep on his chest while he reads boring manuals aloud to lull her.
Instead, she brings over wine. Talks about work. Politics. The rent.
She’s brilliant. Composed. Fierce in a way that reminds him of a younger you.
And sometimes, when she laughs, he sees the little girl she used to be—cheeks round, eyes bright, hands sticky from jam.
Then the moment fades.
And she’s grown again.
He doesn’t go on missions anymore.
Retired now. Officially.
He didn’t tell her right away. Wasn’t sure how. He expected a celebration, or at least a toast.
But when he finally said it over dinner—softly, plainly: “I’m done. Hung it up.”—she looked at him for a long moment. Then nodded.
“Good,” she said. “You were always more than that.”
He looked at her then—really looked—and realized she hadn’t seen him as a soldier in years.
She’d seen the man.
The father.
The one who tucked her in and stitched her broken toys and waited outside ballet recitals with bloodied knuckles he never explained.
He had been trying so hard to protect her from the world.
But she’d been watching him—all this time.
Learning how to survive by the way he loved her.
One night he got sick.
It wasn’t life-threatening. Just a flu.
But he hadn’t been sick in years, and it hit him harder than expected.
She came home that weekend without asking.
Let herself in. Took one look at him bundled in blankets on the couch and said, “You look like shit.”
He coughed. “Nice to see you too.”
But her hands were gentle. She made him tea. Sat on the armrest of the couch, fingers brushing over his forehead like she was checking for fever the way he used to when she was small.
She stayed the night. Slept on the floor beside him like a sentry.
He woke at 3 a.m. and saw her curled up in an old hoodie of his, her phone clutched in one hand, screen still lit with some half-written message.
And for a second—just a flicker—he wished she were small again.
Not because he didn’t love who she’d become.
But because that time was so brief.
So unbearably sweet.
And it was gone.
It was raining.
She stood beside him under a grey sky, both in black, her hand tucked into the crook of his elbow.
It was his brother’s grave. The one he used to visit alone.
“I wish I’d met him,” she said quietly.
“He would’ve loved you,” Simon replied. “You’ve got his mouth. Same sarcasm.”
She smiled through the tears. Leaned her head against his shoulder.
“Do you ever miss being young?”
He didn’t answer right away. Rain hit the stone like fingers drumming.
“I miss you being young,” he finally said.
And she didn’t speak again. Just held his arm tighter.
One day, it happens.
She calls him—voice shaking, words rushed. Something about a near-accident. Someone ran a red light. Her hands were shaking. She didn’t know who else to call.
And Simon?
He was already in the car before she finished the sentence.
He found her on a curb, hands trembling around a coffee cup someone had handed her. He didn’t ask questions. Just crouched in front of her and pulled her into his arms.
She broke. Sobbed into his coat like she was twelve again.
Like she was small and scared and needed her dad.
And he just held her.
Kept one hand on the back of her head.
The other over her heart.
“You’re safe,” he murmured. “I’ve got you.”
Later that night, she curled up on his old couch, wrapped in his blanket, and whispered,
“I didn’t want to call you. Thought I was too old.”
He shook his head.
“You’ll never be too old to be my girl.”
And one day…
One day, it’s just the two of them on the porch.
You’re inside baking. The sun’s going down. Her eyes are softer now.
She says, “Do you ever think you could’ve had a normal life?”
He doesn’t answer at first.
Just watches the wind move through the trees.
Then:
“This is normal. For me.”
She leans her head on his shoulder.
He doesn’t flinch anymore when touched. Not by her.
“You were always enough, you know,” she says.
He swallows. Tries to look away. Fails.
And then she adds, quieter, “You saved me. Even when I didn’t know I needed saving.”
He closes his eyes.
Because in that moment, it doesn’t matter what he’s done.
Who he’s killed.
What haunts him.
Because this is what remains.
This girl. This woman. This life they made.
And that… is enough.
He never thought he’d grow old.
Never imagined it.
He used to think men like him didn’t make it past 40 — not without a bullet or a blaze or a quiet disappearance somewhere no one would bother looking. There was always something inside him waiting for it — like his bones expected to be abandoned.
But now?
Now his body aches in new ways.
His knees click when he gets up too fast.
The hair at his temples has gone silver, and his hands have lost their steady, deadly stillness.
But you’re still here.
Still brushing your teeth beside him. Still humming while folding sheets. Still asking if he wants tea or if his shoulder hurts when it rains.
And it guts him. Every single time.
That you stayed.
That you chose to grow old next to a man who never expected to live long enough to deserve it.
Your love has changed.
It’s not fireworks now. Not firelight and breathless kissing in hotel rooms after too-long deployments.
It’s quieter. But deeper. Warmer.
It’s how you always leave the light on for him, even when he forgets to ask.
It’s how he sets out your slippers without thinking, so your feet don’t touch the cold floor in the morning.
It’s how you never ask where he’s going when he disappears into the garage, and how he never questions the way you cry at old home videos, even though you’ve seen them a hundred times.
There’s a kind of intimacy now that goes deeper than touch.
A knowing.
A weightless ease, like your hearts have learned how to lean on each other without needing to speak.
You’ll brush past him in the kitchen, and he’ll place a hand on the small of your back — not to move you, not to guide you, but just to feel you. To remind himself you’re real. Here.
Still his.
Sometimes he just watches you.
He won’t say it out loud. He’s too old for poetry, and too hardened for flowery things. But sometimes, when you’re reading by the window, your glasses slipping down your nose and the light touching your cheek just right—
He stares at you like you’re something holy.
Like you're the last beautiful thing left in a world he once thought he’d never understand.
He’ll pretend to be half-asleep on the couch, or too focused on whatever’s in his hands — but he’s watching you. Memorizing you again and again, like a man trying to hold onto something too big to keep.
Because he knows.
He knows time takes things.
He’s lost too many people to pretend otherwise.
So he watches. And he commits you to memory. Every wrinkle near your eyes. Every gray strand of hair. Every sigh. Every smile.
You catch him sometimes. And he always looks away like a boy caught daydreaming.
“You’re staring,” you tease.
He shrugs. “I always do.”
He still has the mask.
It’s in a box now. Top of the closet. Buried under old jumpers and Christmas decorations.
You told him he didn’t need it anymore, and he agreed.
But he kept it. Quietly. Respectfully.
You found him once, years ago, just sitting with it in his lap. The house was silent. The air still.
You didn’t say anything. Just sat beside him.
He looked at you, eyes far away, voice quieter than you’d ever heard.
“I wore this to keep the world out,” he said. “But somehow, you still found your way in.”
And you leaned against him.
And he let you.
And neither of you moved for a long time.
He loves you differently now.
Not less. Not softer.
But heavier.
There’s a weight to it now. A depth.
He knows what it means to have someone for a lifetime. He knows what it costs to stay — what it takes to love a man who wakes from nightmares, who still pauses at loud noises, who forgets he’s safe even now.
And he sees what it cost you, too.
He saw it in your eyes when the baby was crying and he wasn’t home.
Saw it when you had to explain to your daughter why “daddy” missed her school recital.
Saw it in the way you smiled through the loneliness, always so patient, always so good.
He never said thank you. Not enough.
So now he shows it.
In every slow dance in the kitchen.
In every cup of tea made before you ask.
In every time he reaches for your hand during a movie, just to feel your fingers between his.
He asks you one night.
“Do you regret it?”
It’s late. The moonlight’s dripping through the window, and the sheets are tangled between your legs. You’re half-asleep, but his voice pulls you back.
You turn toward him. Find him already watching you.
“All of it,” he says, quietly.
And you reach for him, tuck your fingers beneath his chin like you did when you were younger. His beard is whiter now. His eyes softer.
“I’d do it all over again,” you say.
And he believes you. With every beat of his scarred, stubborn heart.
You fall asleep like that — your fingers in his, your breath slow against his skin.
And somewhere in the dark, in a house full of years and silence and everything you've both endured...
Simon smiles.
Because in the end, despite everything he’s done, everything he’s lost—
You stayed.
And that made all the difference.
It starts with small things.
Keys. Names.
What day it is.
Where he left his book.
At first, you joke about it. Call it “old man brain,” and he chuckles, rubbing the back of his neck, muttering something about brain damage and too many concussions.
But then he starts calling the dog by the wrong name.
Asks where your daughter is — even though she just called.
He forgets the kettle is on.
Leaves the tap running.
Stares at the cupboard, confused, trying to remember why he opened it.
And one day, you find him standing in the hallway, still as stone, holding one of her baby toys in his hand.
“She used to chew on this,” he says, quiet, “didn’t she?”
You nod.
“She’s twenty-seven now, Simon.”
He blinks at the toy.
“Oh.”
You learn his patterns.
He doesn’t like loud noises anymore.
Doesn’t like too many people in the house.
Gets tired easily. Confused quickly. Frustrated at himself more than anything.
But he’s still him.
He still drinks his tea the same way. Still looks for your hand under the blanket when you watch old movies. Still walks beside you in the garden, pointing at flowers like he remembers what they’re called — even if he doesn’t.
“Is that one the… the purple one?” he asks.
You smile. “Lavender.”
“Right. Right, I knew that.”
He didn’t.
But he likes when you pretend he did.
Sometimes he has bad days.
Days where he wakes up and doesn’t know where he is.
Days when he looks at you and his face folds — not in anger, but in heartbreak.
“I’m supposed to know you,” he says once, voice shaking. “Aren’t I?”
You take his hands. Place them on your cheeks. Let him feel the shape of your face.
“You do. You always have.”
He breathes in, trembling.
“I’m scared, love.”
“I know,” you whisper. “It’s okay. I’m not going anywhere.”
And you don’t.
You never do.
But there are still good days.
Days when he laughs at your terrible jokes.
When he remembers how to make your tea before you do.
When he tells you a story from the army — one he swore he’d forgotten.
And there are still evenings where he pulls you in, slow and careful, kisses the corner of your mouth and says,
“Still the prettiest thing I’ve ever seen.”
“Even with the wrinkles?” you tease.
“Especially with them,” he grins.
You cry in the kitchen after that one.
Quietly.
Not because you’re sad.
But because you still get to have this.
And then one morning, he doesn’t know your name.
He wakes with a start. Looks at you.
And doesn’t say anything.
Not confusion. Not fear. Just… blankness.
You speak gently. Smile.
Tell him your name like it’s the first time.
Tell him you’re safe. That he is too.
And he nods.
“Alright. If you say so.”
But later — later that same day — when you bring him tea, he takes your hand and murmurs:
“Thank you, sweetheart.”
You freeze.
“Do you know who I am?”
He blinks. Thinks.
“No. But I know I love you.”
The days stretch longer now.
He’s quieter, softer — not from peace, but from the slow unraveling of time. There are whole mornings where he doesn’t speak at all. Just watches the trees, the clouds, your hands in the garden. Like his soul has moved somewhere deep inside, and he’s just floating now.
He forgets more often than he remembers.
But he still holds your hand.
Even when he doesn’t know who you are, he finds your fingers. Rubs his thumb over your knuckle. Leans into your shoulder like a man who’s known only one comfort in his entire life.
And he has.
You.
He sleeps more now.
Sometimes all day.
You sit with him. Read aloud. Tell stories he once told you. Some of them are true, some of them aren’t — he wouldn’t correct you now even if he knew.
But he smiles sometimes. At the sound of your voice.
Like part of him — the part too deep to lose — still knows you.
And when he wakes, slow and blinking, he always asks:
“You’re still here?”
And you always answer, soft and warm:
“I’ve always been here.”
It happens on a rainy morning.
There’s nothing dramatic about it.
No gasp. No panic. No final words.
Just a stillness.
You wake first. His hand is still wrapped around yours. His chest still, his face soft, relaxed — like he simply drifted somewhere quieter. Somewhere gentler.
He doesn’t look afraid.
He looks young.
Somehow.
Like the weight finally left him.
And for a long, long time, you don’t move.
You just rest your head on his chest, where his heartbeat used to be, and whisper the only thing that ever mattered:
“You made it, Simon. You’re safe now.”
You bury him beside the lavender.
The spot he always loved — where the bees hummed and the light hit just right in spring.
Your daughter helps. The grandkids each place a flower on the earth. You keep your hand on the stone long after everyone else has gone.
There’s no mask on it. No rank. No war stories.
Just:
Simon Riley
Beloved Husband. Father. Safe, at last.
And you keep living.
Not out of duty.
Not out of guilt.
But because he would want you to.
You still drink your tea the way he made it.
Still hum old songs while folding the laundry.
Still leave the porch light on, out of habit.
Some nights, you sit alone with the rain on the window and close your eyes — and you swear you feel it:
His hand on your shoulder.
The breath of him.
The warmth.
You speak into the dark like he’s still beside you.
“I’ll be there soon. Not yet. But soon.”
Because real love never ends.
And the life you built together — the quiet, the pain, the laughter, the child, the years — it doesn’t vanish when he goes.
It lives in you.
In your daughter.
In every soft, ordinary, beautiful thing he once thought he could never have.
Simon made it home.
And home was always you.
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"But why?" The words were spit out, sharp and laced with something bitter—resentment, disbelief, maybe even pity. "You saw the way she looked at you. Disgusted. Like you were the reason behind her misery. So tell me—what’s the point of it all? What’s the point of ... her?"
Silence settled like a slow-building storm. Then—
"The point is…" His voice was quiet at first, measured, as if he was forcing himself to speak the truth out loud. "I wanted her to crave me the way I craved her. To burn for me, to need me, the way I have needed her." His breath came slower, heavier. "Because no matter how much she fights it, no matter how much she tries to deny it—she feels it too. That pull. That ...ache."
He exhaled sharply, almost a laugh, but there was no humor in it. "I’d never get on my knees for anyone. Never lower... myself, never beg, never... yield." His voice dipped lower, rougher, a whisper wrapped in devotion. "But for... her?" He tilted his head slightly, eyes glinting with something possessive, something dangerously soft. "For her, I’d worship."
His fingers curled as if resisting the urge to reach out, to take. "She doesn’t have to love me," he admitted, his voice quieter now, but no less resolute. "She just has to need me. And one day, she will." He smiled then, slow and knowing. "Because no matter how far she runs, no matter how much she resists—she’s already mine."
Summary: Sakusa Kiyoomi tended to avoid a number of things: germs, crowds, his teammates, and interviews. He preferred his life out of the limelight. When rumors spring up about his love life, keeping his fiancée a secret becomes a whole lot harder.
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you read stuff on wattpad for shit and giggles where most of the fics there are reader-inserted ones written in 1st person pov where y/n is a barely legal white girl with blonde hair and blue “orbs” who’s so smol and fragile that she’s dependent entirely on this morally questionable guy who’s killing people for a living but for some reason happens to have a soft spot for her.
you read real actual literature on archive of our own where it’s two middle aged men, who are each other’s sworn enemies, with tragic past, trauma and strong homoerotic tension. and while they’ve made each other bleed, killed each other’s friends and loved ones out of jealousy / possessiveness, lied and betrayed and manipulated, the rawness, depth, complexity and slow burn will keep you up all night, haunt you during your day and possibly change your life forever. and also the sex isn’t just smut. the sex is poetry that puts Shakespeare to shame
Wattpad ... heavily reminds me of a kid going through the cringe worthy saga of discovering fanfics for the very first time that any fanfic of the girl with the messy bun getting sold to a random British band because her parents needed the money for beer ..is considered novel worthy
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people who don't experience hyperfixation don't know what it feels like to hyperfixate so much on something that it becomes not only your subject of obsession but also your source of happiness and literally the main reason why you still keep going; literal source of strength and life.
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The kind where devotion borders on obsession, where love isn't just tender—it's consuming.
"I'd do anything for you, love," he murmurs, voice smooth, unwavering. "Anything you desire, and it's yours."
And the other doesn't hesitate, voice laced with something raw, something desperate.
"I want her to split me open—dig her fingers into my ribs and pry them apart. To hold my heart in her hands, feel the pulse of it against her palms, my blood staining her skin. I want her to pick my bones clean, crack them open, suck the marrow dry. I want to be ruined by her, consumed until there's nothing left of me but the taste of her name on what's left of my tongue."
Because love, when it’s deep enough, is a hunger—one that begs to be fed.
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like how utterly BEAUTIFUL is the desperation in the way he’s frantically stumbling around and slamming you into the walls, grasping your arms like ur gonna disappear??? lmao lmao lmao lmaoooooooo