Number 5

I’m afraid of the future, but I also look forward to it. I keep dreaming about a time where I’m feeling happy, serene, and in love. I fantasize about the future all the time. I romanticize my hereafter life as if it all will become true one day. But I am also so, so scared. I’m scared because I romanticized it so much that I don’t know if I can accept anything else, but deep down, I also know that what I want isn’t possible. This foolish, materialistic, dull reality will leave me disappointed.

sometimes suffering is just suffering it doesn’t make you stronger it just hurts

Feeling like you're too much is honestly one of the worst feelings to possibly exist. It just feels like you need to stop being yourself and existing all together. It's like you crawl out of your own skin and laugh in disgust at what remains, it's pathetic. And so saddening.

Every morning when I wake up

nonchalance turns me off so badly. give me obsession on the brink of depravity or give me nothing

I hope my absence brings you the peace that my love couldn’t

to be so understanding and never understood is draining.

it’s so exhausting acting like you are okay all day just to come home and be miserable all night. and knowing you have to do it all again tomorrow.

Do you ever feel like you were not meant to be here on this planet? That you don't belong here? That you should be at another place?

picking up my phone every 5 minutes like someone wants to talk to me