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They stay in bed for as long as possible, even though both of their stomachs are growling with hunger. There are clouds blowing past the big windows, a reminder that time doesn’t stand still. Shane clings to him under the covers. Neither of them speak, as if silence could stop the clouds from moving. Ilya feels an anxious finger tapping against his chest. He brings the restless hand up to his mouth and kisses it before intertwining with his own. 

There’s a weird sort of empty feeling when Ilya closes his bag. He thinks this might have been the best two weeks of his life. No, he’s sure of it, has never been so sure about anything. 

“Made some sandwiches,” Shane says, voice low. “For the road.” 

Ilya nods. He’s not hungry. 

His ribs don't hurt anymore, but Shane still insists on carrying his bag to the car, and Ilya wants nothing more than to steal it from him and put it back in the bedroom. He doesn’t. Instead he opens the door to the passenger seat and gets in. 

They sit in silence for a while, the engine doesn’t start and Ilya is about to say something when Shane speaks. 

“We won’t be able to, you know… say goodbye…at the airport.” 

Ilya looks at him confused for a second before he understands what Shane actually means. 

They can’t kiss goodbye. 

Ilya’s hand comes to rest against Shane’s cheek, thumb stroking over his freckles. Shane closes his eyes and Ilya leans in and kisses him. Once, twice, lets the third one linger. 

“Thank you for inviting me,” he says as they pull apart. 

“You said that already.”

“I wanted to say it again.” 

They have to start driving if they want to make it to Ilya’s afternoon flight. 

“I love you,” Shane says, and his eyes look so sincere. 

“You said that already,” Ilya echoes. 

After a while of talking about how Anya acts the trainer says there’s nothing to worry about, Anya likes Shane just fine, it’s just that she sees him as the boss and is acting accordingly

And Ilya is like. But. I’m the one who adopted her? And raised her before Shane got here?? And the trainer is just like yeah well she sees you more like an equal. And Ilya is like WAIT she thinks Shane is in charge of both of us?? And the trainer is just like well do you interact in a way that would make her think that?

Ilya’s life flashes before his eyes as he thinks of all the times Shane has come over with a snack for Ilya and a treat for Anya, or all the times Shane has announced they’re all going for an after dinner walk, or pets Ilya’s hair and tells him he did a good job at practice, or the fact that he uses the same warning tone with Anya when she misbehaves as he does with Ilya when he’s causing problems on purpose

Seeing that performance recognized on one of Canada’s biggest stages feels incredibly rewarding. Williams’ win is also historic in its own right. At just 25 years old, he became the youngest performer ever to win Best Lead Performer, Drama, at the Canadian Screen Awards, accomplishing the feat on his very first nomination.”

- Q+ Magazine