Bad Again™

but that doesn’t invalidate the overlapping symptoms that resonated with me at the time I wrote a lot of this content. and it’s also just one professional’s opinion.

without getting into my views on self diagnosis and its merits and drawbacks, I just wanted to be transparent in case this added needed context.

soooo so SO much has changed and yet nothing has changed at all???

I’m definitely more “actualized” than I was when I started this blog. actually been in therapy for 2 years now and I love my psych so much. I have more command over my life than I ever did but I’m also still working towards accepting the ways in which my brain clashes with this capitalistic hellscape. also building a life around my neurodivergency instead of trying to “fix” it. I only try to relieve myself of my anguish for my own quality of life.

I understand a lot of the tongue in cheek shit I said here probably read as “throwing crazy people under the bus.” I never expected that particular post to get as much attention as it did all these years later and I pretty vividly remember why I wrote it. It was my own “fuck you” to the people in university who labeled me the crazy girl.

looking back, yeah I was “crazy” but also so fucking what. let’s not attach stigma to our mental illnesses because they’re uncomfortable. I learned so much about myself and I guess what it means to be human when I was crazy. there’s a lot from that time that I can’t even remember because my mental health was so so bad, although some parts are very distinct (like why I even made this blog)