My Little Hole In The Wall

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I might be late on this train because I waited to play the chapter on stream but. Why does she seem SO connected to like three other characters?? It makes her stand out in a really strange way that makes her feel super important compared to the other flowers.

Her dialogue contains a ton of allusions towards Jevil: she has the same laugh, she mentions chaos, she mentions the world revolving. These are not subtle references, she is practically INVOKING Jevil with these lines. Girlie LOVES to say Jevil stuff. This is super weird because logically there is no way for her to have ever met Jevil. There is a thematic connection here with Aqua seemingly being defined by the pursuit of fun, specifically wanting to entertain Asgore, which makes her equivalent to Jevil in being the jester of Asgore's court. But it really feels like there's more going on.

Second connection: Kris. Aqua also has a ton of connections to Kris. She points out herself how they both have light blue skin in the dark world, and her bright red bow feels roughly equivalent to the red horns Kris wore as a kid. They also both have knives. It makes her feel like a sort of representation of a younger Kris. Perhaps Asgore's influence is felt here? During Asgore's monologue later in the chapter, there is a silhouette of a younger Kris, and it is depicted as being the same light blue color that Aqua is. Definitely does not feel like a coincidence. And that's not even mentioning the optional scene where Kris literally dresses up as Aqua, practically screaming their similarities at the player. I should also mention that the Flower King dark world was specifically made by Kris, so things being influenced by Kris' past is not particularly strange. Still, Aqua is by far the character that has the MOST connections to Kris.

Finally why the fuck does Aqua look so much like "Eram", the shadow mantle boss from chapter 3? Like I'm not crazy right? There's the toothy grin, the way her eyes are usually hidden, and the almost horn-like silhouette of her hair. This might be a stretch but I feel like there's too many similarities for it to be coincidence in a game by Tobias Foxington.