- ☆ nenesvt

I can't help but think about how traumatizing it must be for dong ju after all he went through, especially with that murder attempt on him.

First of all this guy was used to the dizziness and aches that came with his punch drunk. But then he was almost beat to death in that state while finding out that his piece of radioactive shit of a coach sold him and his family short for just a few quick bucks.

Next, say he recovers. I hope he does. He will have constant nightmares about the incident. Nothing is more jarring to him, than min ju yeong's smug face while he was facing hell.

He might just develop a phobia of medicine in general. A cruel play similar to jeong hyeon's fear of needles. Every time in his life that he may need to consume any form of medicine. His brain will be pushed into overdrive trying to figure out if it's safe. His body will physically resist that attempt and sadly, it's not something that other people can understand easily. Sure you know this poor boy has been through hell and back. But nobody, nobody will know the actual extent of it.

Since dong ju is a simple guy who runs high on passion and holds pride towards his skill. Imagine how frustrated he would be with himself. Every time he thinks he's getting better, he's back to square one. And it just tortures him more that min ju yeong is the one who has left such a deep rotting slash in his chest. He's so frustrated and annoyed at himself for not getting over it and still being afraid. But poor dong ju, it's not his fault. It never was.

punch drunk is a disease that cant be cured. so say that in the future, even if he has a teeny tiny episode in the street, out in public, how triggering would it be to his mind. Having had to beg for help in such a bad state only to be called a fugitive criminal.

Next time, he's out of breathe, all those memories will come flooding back with every attempt to breath.

And now, the actual drug part. This guy loved gyeong il like his family. Keep aside his guilt towards him. He genuinely was in pain seeing gyeong il turn to drugs. And now imagine his ruined psyche, in a dangerous lethal state. His whole body is busy trying to just keep him alive and you can't lie to me that in one tinyy part of his mind went back to think about how gyeong il used to feel every time he turned to drugs. And now, that would just make his whole experience so much more fucking worse for him.

I can't even fathom how hard it's going to be on him, physically, mentally and emotionally, say he relapses or his body undergoes withdrawal symptoms. Idk shit abt the topic I'm talking abt. But omg.

Ohmygodidontthinkyouguysunserstandwhatimcomprehendinghereimgonnaexplode.

LONG LONG TIME NO SEE