You Are Enough.

nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

I wanted this to be forever.

I want desperately to hang out with people who share the same interests. But I can not get over the feelings of being disliked, unwanted, boring, not being good enough, etc. I feel like I have nothing to offer a friendship but my undying loyalty, which in my experience people see as "he is reliable when I need to use him". I will never be someone's first choice, but always someone's worst-case scenario.

I feel so disconnected from everyone and everything. How am I supposed to be happy in a place I so clearly don't belong

basically if you are lonely rn even if you are so lonely you think you could just die because you will never stop being lonely you have to keep going regardless because things will not always be that way and wonderful people will enter your life when you least expect it. this sounds totally hollow i’m sure because these kinds of reassurances sounded hollow to me when i was so lonely i thought i could just die but i am okay now and i love people who love me too and you will also be okay and you will also love people who love you too.

Hold me close and tell me you love me

Maybe what I crave doesn't really exist.

I find comfort in my sadness cause it’s the only thing I’ve ever known.