Not broken, just bent.
June ~ Scoliosis awareness month
Being 28 and with severe scoliosis (45+ degrees), Ive realized the importance of making peace with my body. One of the hardest parts about having scoliosis is that it never goes away. You will always have it. Even if u have a fusion, bracing or another method of treatment, it is something that you carry with you forever. And that's okay.
Yes, it does cause a huge amount of physical, mental and emotional pain (with the emotional turmoil being the hardest to cope with). But its ok.
When I started to accept my scoliosis, with the fact that it wasnt going away - my days started to get better. For years, I've been fighting myself, wishing I was someone else. I was causing myself a huge amount of unnecessary pain. This realization didnt happen overnight. It took me so many years. And sometimes, it does still affect my perception of myself. You just have to remind yourself time to time that your spine doesnt define you.
Now as I get older, I just want to make peace with my condition. Dont ever wear your skin like a drunken apology. Stop the pity party. Surprise and confidently look straight into the eyes of your bully. Show them that their senselessness doesnt affect you anymore. Stop whining. Be active. Fight chronic pain with the endorphins you get from exercise. Dont be afraid to consult with your doctor and have your follow ups (cause I've been there). I promised myself to take better care of myself this year and will resume my follow up check-ups as well. We owe it to ourselves to take care of our own body.
And with the dawn of social media era, its not that hard to reach out. There are people out there who know exactly what you're feeling - lost and depressed. You can learn a thing or two from each other's experiences. Its always nice to know that you are never alone ~ Not broken just bent ❤















