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To Crescendia, Misbah Studios, VocaTone, and other involved parties, As a supporter for the last 6 six years and financial backer of $320 USD for the 2024 campaign, I am appalled and extremely frustrated by the severe, screaming silence as well as the lack of results and failure to keep up promises. It is embarrassing that last year, in order to get any updates, an entire community had to speak…

“Jax is a main character” the pilot did a poor job showing that because we spend most of our time with Pomni and Ragatha. They show him to be an annoying goofy side character. He doesn’t have main character energy and the show only decided to fully focus on his issues/mystery during the sixth episode out of nine.

“Mother issues” we learn in the final episode of the show after Jax has committed suicide and that he had an abusive mother, he opened up to Ribbit about those issues, the problem is that we get this in the FINAL EPISODE. I understand that trauma can shape a person but saying things like “ he was a victim too” removes the harm he has done to not only his two friends that he pushed to isolation and suicide on purpose, but treating the rest of the circus members like toys. He was the one to name Gangle and treat her like a play thing to the point where she didn’t feel human anymore. He was more than “just a jerk”. If everyone’s a victim, then no one is. he is benefiting off of making these people suffer. He told Pomni to her face that he wouldn’t mourn her death. He knows what abstractions have done so why would he say that to her face? Is what happened to Jax’s unfortunate? Yes. But does that excuse him literally pushing people to suicide and mocking Ragatha for also having an abusive mother? Hell no and I am tired of these fans excusing it because….

“ he couldn’t help it”

Muh mommy issu- if he was chill with Pomni during the gun fight and Abel adventure then he can show more than one emotion. he’s capable of being a good person. Being a good friend. But he actively chooses to be a misogynist, he chooses to be mean those around him to make himself feel better. He chooses to say hurtful things that he knows will hurt them the most. He wanted them to stay in the circus and he got what he wanted. He acted out on his intrusive thoughts. he is a grown ass man capable of controlling his emotions.

“ Goose’s favorite character”

I’m not opposed to self inserts, but it comes to where they can get annoying. A good example of a self insert is Shinji from evangelion. Shinji is a developed character that has chunks of the author experience. He’s just a kid questioning himself in the place in the world and it fits into the themes of the show. Goose had said time and time again that Jax is an awful person. At some point when I was in the fandom I said that Jack’s was an awful person, but a well written character. You’re enthused by their evilness and you want to know more, you want to know why they’re like this (like Bojack Horseman or Jimmy from mouthwashing). But this love is less like a fleshing out a 3d character and more like a “ he was a poor baby this entire time, if he came out the closet things might have been better”. I like writing evil characters that have a reason for being evil or doing bad things, you can get into their ways of thinking, psychology Heck that could also help in the real world too but it comes to a point where you have to balance it out. You can’t have “ I pushed my friends to suicide, you’re my toys” and “ isn’t she lovely” in the same room together. All we have seen from Jack’s how comically terrible he is in the earlier episodes so why now 2 minutes after he’s abstracted are you fleshing out his more complex side?

“Transfem Jax”

No I do not want a “ perfect woman” but you need to realize that this head cannon was slapped on once the show has ended. We were left with breadcrumbs of headcannon. Jax’s has a pink room, so what? The maid outfit was treated as a joke, both in the series and for merch. Any causal person could easily miss the chicken in an egg thing. This isn’t an ARG. This is a Indie show, either you confirm it in your show or don’t. That’s one of my problems. The fans say “only cis people want a perfect innocent trans woman” only to turn around and make Jax’s the “ perfect goth feminine queen”. Yes, people in the LGTBQA+ community are capable of making bad rep (I mean, look at high Guardian spice). THEY AREN’T TRYING TO AVOID CENSORS. THIS IS AN INDIE SHOW GUYS. Slapping the transfem representation tag onto an abusive misogynist Tumblr sexy man AFTER the show ended is awful representation, in my opinion. EVEN GLITCH CALLS HIM A GUY.

27.00 dollars for a shirt, I don't care if the price is for materials, the photos on the shirts are going to get cracked quickly, this ones sold out but

24 dollars, for a scarf, with gangle's face that would likely get covered up, you could just stich Gangle's face into a scarf and likely do it cheaper, a fan made creative popcorn tins that looked like Pomni and Jax, and what does glitch do? make overpriced pieces of clothes that would have been better as posters,

wait

they did..but it was 40 DOLLARS! the youtuber I brought up did it for free and its design was far mor appealing, plus it looks super bulky

oh look, a 25 dollar hat with a png you can find on the internet, totally worth it

A lot of the clothing item are just "Here is this random piece of clothing with a small png slapped onto it, fork over 20 bucks!"

Oh my god its still here, this is an actual image from their store, they made a police brutality joke, especially after some of their talent had been called out for making racist jokes, they have no shame do they?

maybe I'm just being cynical (except for the last one, ew) maybe I just don't get the appeal, but it just seems ridiculous

last one just shows they NEED a PR team that knows what they're doing. holy shit.

but yeah no, i get making money is important, but i feel they're making steady enough income they can make the merch at least slightly more affordable for fans that cant blow $25 for a tie.

Let's address the elephant in the room first. Femininity doesn't equal womanhood. A bow, a cute "girly" room, a "feminine" color scheme (purple and pinkish-red), liking dresses and wearing an eyeliner (god I hate the maid dress sm but I'll talk abt that later, but I've just noticed how it has a heart-shaped pattern on the chest area so... heart = girl?) and the final scene between Jax and Pomni having a pink hue to it are just not it, Goose.

Being a woman has to do with how you feel on the inside, not how feminine you are. I hate that Jax is flattened into either this "girly cutie pie" or a hottie by the fanbase now that we know she's trans, when she's a frickin mess of a character, full of self-blame and self-hatred that doesn't only have to do with her gender identity

I don't think it's illogical to say Jax had mommy and daddy issues even before she discovered her gender identity. When it comes to how Jax feels about Kaufmo and Ribbit's abstraction... well, I'd rather have her feel immense guilt because she genuinely cared for them both despite everything (I want Jax to be more than her transness and selfishness!), than for THIS to be her train of thought: "My friends are dead because I'm a girl! I couldn't accept it then, and I can't accept it now! It was all my fault because I'M A GIRL! Me being a girl is not only the main thing "wrong" with me, but also the root cause of all my problems!"

Transition wouldn't have fixed Jax because what she really needed to get better were self-acceptance, self-forgiveness and self-love. That's why I want to put the whole cast in Jax's mind in my rewrite. She needed them all to become whole, even briefly, before death

I want Jax to be a complex, fucked up woman with real depth and a capacity for change that she never took, not a hypersexualized, hyperfeminine trans girl. A woman is a woman regardless of her appearance, voice or interests because she knows deep down she is one! Jax's problems were deep and internal, yeah, but imo, her main issue was her belief that every part of her (including her mistakes) was wrong and unloveable. Jax spent the entire show fragmented instead of whole, meanwhile the others managed to overcome their issues. That's why I think it would be a good idea to have Pomni, Ragatha, Gangle, Zooble and Kinger all try to help Jax one last time so she can finally accept and forgive herself

And as we can see from Goose's confirmation post, Jax would have still kept thinking inappropriate things had she transitioned i dont think it's even possible to have your avatar permanently altered and your voice changed in the circus but ok ("I think my 2 friends who I've mistreated in canon are destined to fuck each others' brains out"). Not to mention her design is hyperfeminine and doesn't fit TADC's vibe. That's not Jax. She looks like Octavia from Helluva Boss

The fact that Glitch is profiting off of a trans character being deeply uncomfortable with wearing a sexualized, hyper-feminine maid dress out in public (that was only meant to humiliate them and be the creator's kink) to the point they seemed like they were close to abstracting is uh... certainly a choice. And not a good one. If Jax was just an average Joe with toxic masculinity, I still wouldn't like it, but Jax being a trans woman makes this whole thing even worse

Why do these two scenes have to parallel???

When I first watched Episode 7, I didn't even notice the trans flag colors in Jax's eyes, and when I eventually did, I just assumed it was an Easter Egg that Gooseworx put in there because she's trans

The same goes for the "chicken fetus in an egg" line. I genuinely thought Goose used that specific wording not because Jax himself was trans but because Goose thought to herself: "Yeah, I wanna showcase that Jax is more than a jerk and the funny guy, but I'll use this trans term because I'm trans myself and this is gonna be a fun Easter Egg haha"

I mean, if feeling like a girl was apparently always the biggest aspect of Jax's character, why be so vague about it? Most people aren't familiar with "the egg" referring to closeted trans people or trans people in denial! It feels like Goose just wrote this show for herself and didn't stop to think that hey, maybe my audience won't pick up on this stuff unless I'm more explicit about it, especially since there are a lot of kids in the TADC fandom

And of course, there's Jax's head being shaped like an egg and us only seeing the "yolk" underneath in ep 8

Goose, you've gotta get it into your head that many people are unfamiliar with what any of this stuff even means. That includes boymoding

No, Jax isn't fucking lovely, she's a terrible, selfish and cowardly person, and the audience shouldn't be gaslit that she was ever lovely despite her trauma. Not to mention Jax literally called herself a terrible person like a few lines before that. And if the montage was meant to say "Jax could have been lovely if only she had gotten to live openly as a woman," uh... nope. Jax needed to sort so many internal things out first. Transition doesn't magically fix things

"Isn't She Lovely?" is a song that a Black man sang to his Black daughter when she was born. Using the cover of a non-black man and putting it in the context of a "rebirth as a woman" (which in canon changes nothing abt Jax or Leeroy, neither are explicitly revealed to be trans after it) scene doesn't sit right with me, especially since the finale aired on Juneteenth and Gooseworx is racist, just like some of the VA's. I will never forget the "NEGA" situation where Michael and Ashley laughed for a long ass time because someone posted a pic of a black shirt during a livestream with the word "NEGA" written on it in white letters

like, in ep. 8, they legit found out that kinger had a hand to play in the creation of caine. you would think at least one person would be like, “so this is partly your fault.” but, no— the most we get is pretty much zooble saying “you created caine??” in a way that’s more in awe than anything. 

There just isn't really a relationship between the two which feels strange because not only did Kinger help create him, but he was also stuck as the single human left once Queenie abstracted. Wouldn't have Caine regularly checked up on him? What about the fact that he started only being sane in the dark? When Ragatha came in Kinger still seemed more lucid then when Pomni landed in the Circus. What happened there?

Not everything needs to be answered but it does feel like missed potential. Especially when you think about how this could tie in to Caine going mad in Ep. 8, realizing that the circus members genuinely dislike his adventures and only want to leave. We literally had bubble call him a mistake! Couldn't this have been brought up in some way between Caine and Kinger?