Hopeless

i wasn't meant to live this long and that's why i don't know what to do when i feel this awful

Im weird. I want people to care abt me and be concerned, but when they do, I can't believe them.

"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there

I wish I had the strength to just end it already.

If the vibes r off I will assume you hate me and want me dead

Overthinking? I'm professional on that.

"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.

god. i just want to die. i want to stop being a coward and just fucking kill myself already. why am i even still here?

i’ve lost my youth and young adult life to mental illness and those are years i’ll never fucking get back and it’s not poetic it’s fucking devastating

I pretend to be lovable but I know, I know I’m not.

I feel so unwanted and unloved, it’s killing me

Brooo, I start feeling suicidal for the stupidest shit

I can't even people please properly anymore

Constantly switching between healing and complete self destruction