I exist occasionally

Gender is a performance and the stage is too small

Gender is a performance and I failed my audition

Gender is a performance and I have stage fright

Gender is a performance and I don't have the right props

Gender is a performance and the funding was cut

Gender is a performance and I can't act

Gender is a performance and my act is comedy/tragedy

Gender is a performance and my act is [instrument]

Gender is a performance and I can't afford classes

Gender is a performance and I'm having scheduling issues

Gender is a performance and there's interweaving themes

Gender is a performance and I'm being heckled

Gender is a performance and I'm drunk on stage

Gender is a performance and I'm a backstage worker

Gender is a performance and the stage has broken floorboards

Gender is a performance that I don't have the stamina for

But now the company holiday party is upon us.

And I’ve been lying about the girlfriend.

Reasonable: “just say she couldn’t make it!”

Ember, you're a great person. Your friends are great people too. But sometimes you just have to accept compliments.

You can't keep saying you're a bad person who deserves nothing because eventually it'll become true.

You're so far down wallowing in a hole of self pity and lies that you aren't able to see the light you radiate to everyone around you.

And it's hard. God fucking damn it it's hard to get out of that hole. But nothing changes for those who don't want it.

youre right

sorry

Ember, you're a great person. Your friends are great people too. But sometimes you just have to accept compliments.

You can't keep saying you're a bad person who deserves nothing because eventually it'll become true.

You're so far down wallowing in a hole of self pity and lies that you aren't able to see the light you radiate to everyone around you.

And it's hard. God fucking damn it it's hard to get out of that hole. But nothing changes for those who don't want it.

youre right

sorry

1. this is not from a porn site or anything. this was platformed on youtube by someone who seemingly "tries to keep the community as SFW as possible". no one will be surprised by this because the femboy self-sexualisation is so commonplace its absence is more surprising than its presence at this point

2. "princess boy" feels like a direct parallel to "lady boy". i don't need to explain why this is insanely transmisogynistic

3. the fish guy immediatly switching from "this is pretty wife" to "this is sex toy tranny" upon learning that the person isn't "an actual woman" reveals how absolutely normalized it is to view transfems as sex objects to be freely abused, always treated worse than both cis men and cis women would be

4. the femboy character's response to being promised continuous sexual violence by a group being "cool thanks" reflects how the femboy community will do one of 3 things when confronted with the real violence transfems face : completely gloss over it, turn it into a joke, or say "that's hot" and turn it into more fuel for the degradation of transfemininity through sexualisation. this somehow manages to be a bit of all 3. mainly the third though

5. it's the "trap" trope all over again. "i look like a woman but i'm actually a dude! i'm being deceitful i could never actually be a girl!" transfemininity once again treated as a costume that makes you incredibly desireable. but only as a sex object, not as a person or equal. and only if it's a costume, if you're actually transfem you're lower than dirt. hot and fuckable and lower than dirt