I am so irritated I hate my bitch ass brother I hate everything bro this nigga is so dumb and useless I wish him death today so we’re all free of his dumb ass shit I hate this fucking college and their dumb ass accommodation I hate everything about everything and everyone I hate life at this moment I’m so irritated I hate

I am in a place where I think everything is semi under control except for the same old shit which is my ability to do my work I keep avoiding it and I spend months not doing anything not writing anything not doing any experiments and I keep getting away with it because my PI has no expectations of me and this other girl keeps being so condescending and patronising towards me knowing there is nothing I can do because I’m literally failing myself I’m a loser I’m watching days pass by doing nothing getting more and more afraid not even reading anything I wanna kill myself

I decided I am going to cut my hair super short, shorter than I ever did! I am booking it this week. I feel like big part is genuinely how much my hair has been falling lately it’s just not sustainable I am losing way too much hair probably from my medication and low iron so instead of having thin weak hair I can have super short hair that looks a bit fluffy and thick

I miss my room so much when I’m away and I’m sleeping somewhere else I miss my routine my things my bed my sheets and my room everything about my own space