Hi, I'm vex/violet/vi. I'm a protector and ex persecutor of a system, this is my secret sideblog to vent out my feelings and unmask without telling anyone. Likes and follows from @/emo-orerats. Currently questioning pronouns.
The pfp is my dream self, not how I really look. It's me with grown out hair, and pretty makeup, and cute clothes and everything I wish for one day. Please see me like that.
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Ill probably be treating this blog like a journal, I also want it to be a resource and support blog for anyone dealing with anything similar, feel free to vent in my asks or ask for any help or support :)
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People I might talk about:
Partners:
M - boyfriend from the partner system. He saw me unmasked once. I accidentally hurt him physically and instead of taking care of him I freaked out and had a panic attack. Hes worried about me. I wish he wasnt. (He/it)
T - my insys boyfriend of 2 years. I love him more than anything, he sees a lot of the real me. Hes the only person who can calm me down when I'm crashing out in anger. He's gay. I'm scared when I tell him I'm genderfluid (in a transfem way) hell leave me. (He/him)
U - insys boyfriend of NEARLY 2 years (we started dating in august.) Also an ex persecutor. Hes struggling so bad, he doesn't need my problems to drag him down too. (He/it)
N - my beautiful transfemme girlfriend from the partner system. The only person who knows about my gender. Shes also seen me without the mask. I'm so glad I have someone like them I can trust (she/they)
Other:
O - crush and close friend in our system. Shes struggling a lot, she cares too much about our grades and lives in a constant nervous break. No one likes her anymore because of it. Id make a move, but she needs a friend right now, not a partner. (She/her)
S - my best friend and Ts big sister. I'm gonna tell them about my gender one day. Shes honestly a role model to me, I wanna be like them. (They/ask/she)
R - I don't know whats real about him. Hes in the partner system, but they keep experiencing delusions about him. They don't know whats real either. I loved him before it all went to shit, but idk how I feel now. They hallucinated him abusing them. I don't know what was real and what was fake. (He/him)
The mask - me when I'm wearing a visor that covers my eyes. I use it to mask myself so people can't see my emotions. Hes strong, and caring, and brave and he takes care of people. Hes never afraid. The mask is who I pretend to be. Who all these people see me as. (He/it)
