Musings of Feelings

Sometimes I feel like I need to leave the planet. I'm so awkward with people and relationships. I just went on a date that was arranged through my damn sister and her boyfriend and fuck this guy was so nice. I was my defensive quiet self, end result? We end up on my couch dissecting our date and me saying I'm not very good at this. I kid you not, this guy apologized for everything and kept saying we could do whatever I wanted to do, the ultimate pleasing person to be around. Barf. During the date, I texted this asshole I used to sleep with and told him to come watch a movie with me. Because apparently I like being treated like shit. It's the only thing I respond to. Put your hands all over me. Ignore me. I'm only good at the physical, don't expect anything more.