#not mutual

Let’s not go there.

Let’s not start something I would finish way to easily

Leaving you to clean up the remaining pieces

Of a house we never finished building.

Let’s not use fancy words to describe nothingness.

You are a kind soul

But I am me.

You know me better than to assume

I would avoid words that hurt.

Because at the end of the day, darling

You are not him

And he is not the boy with flames in his eyes.

You are a simple mortal

Just like he is merely the illusion of something that was before any of us decided to play this game.

I would not even flinch at the thought

Of giving you up for a selfish cause

Because caring is something I don’t deal with anymore.

So no.

Why I am the type of girl that’s falls too hard?

I fall and it leaves me feeling like shit.

All while he’s in his bed, sound asleep and not worrying about anything at all.

It sucks, it’s a shit feeling and no matter how hard I try not to falls; I end up falling even harder.

laid next to me 

for a while

enough for me

not something you like

but just do it 

for me

I know it’s hard to 

cuz you gotta do you

but maybe for once