The Insanity in my mind...

She never stops amazing me. Comforting me when I feel low and kicking me in the butt when I need it.

Best kisses are the ones you don't expect...

Just need one...

Put a ring on it. lol I promise to be true and try to make this work even when it hurts.

Never saw it coming but I'm happy it happened. She gave me things I never knew I needed. Saw the real me through the wall. You're my sunshine after the rain.

Sometimes... I would rather live in Canada... Where things like this never really happen. Don't get me wrong I love being a american citizen. I'm a soldier for crying out loud... IT just bothers me how our government is wasting time and money on things that don't really help our economy. While they are trying to figure out how to get money for themselves... most of the citizens in their country are struggling with poverty all because our government officials can't run this country as a unit. Even our first president warned us against political parties... and still we have stupid fights going on in congress... What has the world come to?

I was one of those people... yes it hurt metaphorically and physically. There was only one thought in my mind. I was depressed and i wanted to hurt myself. So I did. Cutting, taking drugs... you name it. I just wanted to numb the pain. I still fight the feelings everyday and i still fight myself everyday. I find that being happy and fighting is a lot efficient than being depressed and fighting. Well i'll elaborate more tomorrow. later!

after 10 long weeks of basic training and going through the most grueling 16 weeks of ait 68W course, I am finally in the real army and not in Tradoc. the heavenly father helped me through my hardships and the glorious support of those who stayed by my side along the way. i'm a combat medic now and i can't be happier. :D going home will just be the sweeter thing to add to my cake. :D yayayayayayay!!!! whoot whoot i'm coming home!!!

everyday... going through life feeling like the person you are in love with is waking up with the wrong person... and as much as it hurts you hope they find happiness even if it's not with you? it sucks... it really does... it's kinda like you want to make your heart stop beating so it won't hurt so much... that's all i really have to say right now...