still gay and struggling

Completed angst based of events in the DSMP Election finale (Line only and a version with less blood under the cut)

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BONUS: SECRET OPTION

Lust is not wanting to have sex with other people. Lust is using sex to hurt other people or hurting another person in a sexual way.

Gluttony is not eating lots of food (your own stomach will tell you when enough is enough). Gluttony is when you have enough resources to yourself that you could house and feed the rest of the population of your city but you keep it to yourself because you do not want to give up the power associated with it.

Greed is not wanting to improve the state of your material life because it would improve your quality of life. Greed is taking opportunities and resources away from already marginalized people. (And if someone tells you that a service you benefited from and it actively improved your life was not meant for you specifically, then there needs to be more of that resource).

Envy is not looking at someone who has a higher quality of life and wanting to improve it. Envy is when you are looking to take away from someone who is in the same situation as you. The example the Bible (or catholic school) uses is a man looking at another man’s wife when his own wife loves him very much and is equal to the other woman in every way that is important.

Sloth (aka laziness) isn’t when you’re exhausted or hurting and being too tired to do anything else. Sloth is when one contributed nothing to the work and yet reaps the rewards of the work.

Me: you will not earn what you desire by banging the cabinet door.

My cat: This is a test of wills, is it not? We shall see if your ability to put up with my incessant banging outlasts my eternal lust for snackie treats. Years of conditioning have hardened me for this purpose. bang bang bang

Me: ksst!

My cat, throwing herself to the ground like she's been shot: Oh! Oh I have been assailed in my own home! Have mercy, have pity! Surely in the cruel darkness of your heart there is some mote of goodness that might stay your hand! Do not strike me, I pray you!

Me: ok

“I didn’t know your hair was IN there!!” he cried.

Sakura is still a big mystery to me.

The most time she has an emotionless and uninvolved expression on her face.

Only in rare moments she fails to hide her emotions.

She treats Natsuhiko very dismissive.

But maybe she appreciates him more than she admits.

I wonder one thing.

Why did she send Natsuhiko to the ‘Nowhere’?

To get rid of him? I don´t think so.

When Tsukasa orders Sakura to send Nene to  the ‘Nowhere’, her expression changes.

I think Sakura likes Nene and worries about her.

She doesn’t want to send her to the Nowhere, but cannot disobey Tsukasa’s order. 

But maybe she still wants to help her.

So could it be that Natsuhiko was sent to the Nowhere to protect Nene?

After all, Natsuhiko is someone who is lucky enough to escape unscathed from difficult situations.

And there is another scene in the PP arc, I think about.

I like the way Sakura looks up at Natsuhiko … even if I still don’t understand what she is thinking. 

But I noticed one thing.

While Sakura sees Nene and Kou as prisoners, in a desperate situation with no escape…… Natsuhiko indicates that there is also a positive point of view.

I love Sakura. She’s such a mystery in her own right. She’s obviously bound to Tsukasa and has to do what he wants. She doesn’t seem to want to hurt Nene.

I like the thought she sent Natsuhiko to help Nene, since he seems to always come out of situations that would normally fell others.

I know neither Sakura’s fate nor her wish.

She was worried to tell Hanako about Sumire's seal because she was afraid he'd do something *extreme* again.

But her trust for Hanako is still there.

Hanako said he'll keep on watch while she rests. He even stroked her head gently until she falls asleepーnotice the tiny blushes on both of their cheeks. They're literally soft for each other. And we saw how Nene slept soundly. That might be because she knows Hanako is there on watchーthat nothing would happen because Hanako was there right beside her.

Moving on to this scene, some *stranger* grabs her hand forcefully. Nene already had tears falling down her cheeks. She was scared. She was scared because Hanako wasn't there.

But what did she do..?

She still calls out for Hanakoーnot knowing the person who always came to her rescue, the person how promises to keep her safe was already there.

Of course Hanako couldn't resist. This girl called for himーthe same girl who he cares deeply about.

I love how Nene's first instinct when she knew that she was in a tight spot was to call out for Hanako.

Sumire and Tsukasa have the same seal.

So Tsukasa seems to be Hanako's Yorishiro.

But Hanako said, the Yorishiros are in the innermost reaches of a boundary.

That means Tsukasa must have been in Hanako's boundary before he got free.

But Hanako hasn't been there all the time.

But why? Couldn't he?

Or didn't he want?

Maybe he couldn't stand being with Tsukasa because of his guilt.

But Sakura and Natsuhiko somehow managed to get into the boundary.

Sakura's wish was fulfilled and in return she became Tsukasa's assistant and helped him to get free.

So I think in all probability this is Hanako's boundary.

1) Hanako's seal keeps him locked out of his own Boundary

2) Since he's not there to directly influence it, its reverted or taken on its own form

I also could imagine, the boundary is under Sakura's influence.

But what could Hanako's boundary look like? Maybe like this.

Or at least the inner Boundary. Yako's was the shrine where she met Misaki. And Tsuchigomori's looked like the classroom he taught Amane in.

Unfortunately we know so few about Amane's and Tsukasa's past. I have no idea what happened exactly.