One of my favourite things about my dr is the fact that you don't have to be born in the USA in order to become a president. I feel so jealous of people who have Zohran Mamdani as their mayor and I need him to be a president if he wants to. I love that man.
Also like in general, the political climate being more left when it's the 2020's in my dr. As a mutant, I will fucking love the government my country will have, even tho I won't live there because I'll be a part of the X-men and live in the states. But like the idea is nice, knowing that my government knows that mutants aren't as dangerous as people who want to fear monger make it seem and actually look at the facts. Like fuck. I can't wait to grow up in that reality and become old enough to experience it. Hope.
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Idk if it's the subliminals or what, but I am feeling so fucking motivated when it comes to my shifting journey. Like seriously. I keep adding small things. I feel excited to shift and so on. I got my motivation back after a 6 year slump
I love being overpowered so much. Matter manipulation is the coolest fucking superpower because I get to be basically the most powerful mutant in the universe (because everything is matter), while also having powers that were meant for me.
I love my powers. They are really fucking cool. Being a mutant is so fucking amazing, I had to have 3 X-men dr's and counting.
I think I kind of realized that I was always meant to shift. And that shifting was going to find me regardless of if it was tiktok, or if it was someplace else. Partially because I was on gosupermodel (which at the time was a website for teenage girls, where girls could be girls without being judged by men. Forums, dressing up, magazines you could make, games etc. For the sake of this post I will refer to it as gsm.).
I remember being 8 or 9 and genuinely believing that I could turn into a mermaid if I just did a spell or a routine I found in a magazine that someone made on gsm. My old friends telling me how they would rule their own worlds when they slept, when I was like 10 or 11, me trying so hard to have my own world, affirming. Seeing those old forum posts about people who were so in tune with an element that they could control it, like controlling the weather, letting nature guide you to somewhere that you never knew existed even after living in that area for years, and me trying so hard to do it myself. And I believed in every single one of those things. That people could genuinely do those things, and I wanted to be a part of it. Maybe people were lying, but I am choosing to believe that those things were real experiences. I am choosing to believe that I can do it, just like I did when I was a child. And this time I am not giving up on it.
I'm literally considering googling what it's like to be a baby or a toddler, just because I want to be ready when that happens when I permashift to my better cr. But also, no. I'm not doing that. Did I google what it was like to be a baby before I was born in this reality, no. I was just born. Also, will be a baby with the mind of a baby and no recollection of this reality, how hard can that be? I've literally it once in this reality.
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This might be a bit cringe, but here is some motivation
How lucky are we as shifters that we get to experience everything. If this life hasn't treated you kindly, you can just start all over, experience things how they should have been, redo everything. You never have to wonder, "I wonder what it would be like to live in this world I love" because you can. There is never any questioning "What if?" because you can always find out.
You get to experience so many amazing experiences, just because shifting found you, took your hand and told you that you have things to experience. And you decided to take it. You didn't say, "I don't believe in this", you accepted it just like if you were the chosen one in some type of fantasy series. Think of all the muggleborns who got their Hogwarts letter but never went to Hogwarts, how much they missed out on. Or imagine what if your favorite superhero had never chosen to become a superhero, or had quit the moment it was hard. Don't give up, I'm telling you, your life will be so much more beautiful because you didn't.
I have added a whole bunch of changes in the reality I will be permashifing to because I AM NOT MESSING THIS UP! and I AM NOT LIVING IN A MESSED UP WORLD ONE MORE SECOND THAN I HAVE TO! Like sure, I will be a newborn who has no fucking idea what future will hold and obviously I have no idea how some of the changes I will make will impact what happens, but I am making sure that I am setting myself up for success in that reality, so that when I have those "Wow, my life has been pretty good, like seriously, my parents set me up for success" moments, I have me, myself and I to thank for it
I decided to start all over and permashift to a reality where I am literally a newborn (or being born) when I first shift there and I have never felt this excited about a dr. Like it will actually happen! I will be a mutant, have powers, will become a part of the X-men, but I will have the same parents, siblings, pets etc (because I love my family). The main things that made me want to permashift (like how mental illness stole my teenage years and how bad the political climate here is) will be different, but others I have left unscripted. Naturally If shift to my waiting room I can always shift here because I am literally a master shifter. But I won't. I know that. The moment I decide I have found my home reality, it's over. I won't remember anything about this reality, I will be 23 (and some months) years younger (literally a newborn or being born), but guess who will know about shifting tho (and the fact that I shifted there) me!
I'm ready to restart! Aaaah! It will be awesome, I will experience so many amazing things and I can't wait. I'm literally experiencing the same feeling I did when I first discovered shifting. That motivation, that excitement! Fuck yeah!
Little birthday post. Some thoughts as a permashifter.
Today (april 25) is my birthday. I'm turning 23. I'm trying to make today as special as possible, considering I will be spending it alone. Today is also the last birthday I will spend alone, and in this reality. In a year from now, I won't be aware of this reality.
I have so many things to experience. so many people to love in other realities. I can't wait to look back on this reality in a year from now while celebrating my birthday in another one and think "Wow, I can't believe I was ever spending my birthdays alone, being cozy, not having any friends. Only celebrating with my parents." while having the most amazing and loving friendgroup around. celebrating me.
It will be a surreal feeling, but I can't wait. I can't wait to have hundreds of lifetimes worth of birthdays with people who care about me.. I can't wait for that "I made it out of that shit reality" moment.
I accidentally created the most perfect signature for myself after trying to figure out what signature I will use for my dr (I always use the same first and last name in my drs that I have here). And now I'm sad because it's the most perfect one (literally screams "I know my worth", and something a very successful version of me would use. Corporate, lawyer, baddie energy), takes half as much time and space as my current one. But I can't change it, because I've signed important documents with my old one.
But at least I'll have it in all of my drs, and I considering I'm permashifting eventually, it won't matter that I can't use it here.
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Like today I've had a lot of doubts like "I don't trust myself to fix my life if I permashift or respawn. But at the end of the day it doesn't matter, whoever is aware of this body after I shift, she's got this. I'm sure she will. And if she doesn't, then I just never come back
TW: Mental health, heavy suicidal thoughts, angst. Just kind of a vent about my life and shifting
I kinda feel like giving up on shifting. And well... Giving up on everything. Giving up on my life.
It has been 6 years and I have not made any progress. I haven't really even tried, because my brain is just so set on "starfish position, raven method, affrming" even though I get super fucking bored when I do that and always roll over after 20 minutes. I know you don't have to do any of that shit, but at this point I feel just so fucking tired to even try to reprogram my mind out of those beliefs.
I feel like I can't leave this reality, because my life is in shambles and I know that if I leave to another universe, it will be for forever. I do not trust myself enough to fix it.
Shifting has always been the thing that has gotten me through a lot. My sister's death being the biggest one. The idea that there is something better out there, that this isn't the end. But at this point, I don't really think that it will be enough anymore.
I pray that death will not be the end that atheists believe it will be, nor that I will just end up somewhere where I never learned about shifting like heaven or hell. I hope that if I go through with my plan before I shift, the multiverse is kind enough to give me another go at it. One where it shifting comes quickly and is everything I ever hoped for..
This is such a silly shifting motivation but I can't wait to shift. I cant wait to freak out and think "Ohfuckinggod, it was that easy. Whattthefuuck", "I feel so dumb, what do you mean I spent years fantasising about this exact fucking moment, and now it's here!", "What do you mean it was really as easy as people said!", "I feel so dumb, it was that easy... that easy...". Because knowing myself, knowing how I react when things are way easier than I think they are. These will be some of the things I will think when I shift to my dr.
Currently doing my best to remind myself that just because I plan on respawning eventually (or permashifting), doesn't mean i have to do it when I shift to my dr for the first time. I can just see how being in that reality for a long time (I'm thinking around 5-6 years, but we'll see) feels, go to my waiting room to reflect on it, come back (maybe for the last time) take care of some things here, and then decide if I just want to keep shifting normally, or if I'm still dead on respawning or permashifting.
TW loss of a loved one. Mention of my sister's suicide.
Has anyone shifted to a reality where your loved one who has passed away, is alive? If so, could you please answer these questions if you want to. I'm wondering if I should shift to a reality where my sister is alive, but I have my doubts and questions.
How did that impact you when you came back?
Was it weird, seeing them alive?
Did you ever feel like "This is not my version of my loved one?" or did it feel normal?
Did you ever grieve the version of them that exists in this reality, while being in that other reality?
Did you grieve even harder when you came back?
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My sister took her own life almost 3 years ago and I am not sure if I should shift to a reality where she is alive. Ever since I started shifting, I have always scripted the same family that I have here, because I genuinely do not think that I could ask for a better sibling in any universe (and this is coming from someone with 4 older siblings, if we include her) and because I can not think of a universe where she isn't my older sister, and I do not want to. Despite her story being a tragedy and her death being the worst thing that happened to me here, if I had to do it all over again in this reality, I would. Because I would always want to be her little sister. But I'm scared that it will impact me a lot, shifting to a place where she is still here and then coming back here and remembering that in this reality, she is dead.
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