disclaimer: this is not a place for "just manifest it" because ik, i am manifesting my shift but i am also human and im writing this post for people who may be going through the same thing and feel more seen. also cw: demotivation, ya da ya da, don't read if u dont want to!

being a veteran shifter for nearly 6 yrs (guess who's meeting their 6 year mark at the end of this month lol) and feeling stagnant in my shifting journey is such a heart crushing feeling for me because at the point i have to ask "is there something wrong with me that i cannot shift? an innate ability that every human can do"

it has me questioning what is my "key" to shift? it has me questioning if im being delusion and what if shifting simply doesn't exist (but at the same time my brain refuses to believe that because i have been beliving in shifting for so long and i trust shifting storytimes) and it just makes me feel so shit whenever i ponder on it for longer than needed.

6 freaking years. 6 freaking years of doing every method and technique in the mf book and still being in the same stagnant place. 6 freaking years of maybe having 2 minishifts in my whole shifting journey but even now im starting to doubt whether i actually shifted or if hypnagoia was playing with my head. 6 freaking years where i have just pushed through with this reality while telling myself "its okay, i will shift anyways" and still waking up to the same ceiling i see 6 years ago.

being tired is an understatement. i am EXHAUSTED. i affirm that i am a master shifter and even that has been such a struggle lately because it feels like no matter what, i find myself being that person who has never shifted and feels utterly hopeless. it gets to the point where i start looking to the 3D and time for answers.

WHEN am i going shift? HOW am i going do it?

the two question words that are taboo in the law of assumption community but i can't help it. yes i have manifested SO MUCH THINGS but for some reason, when it comes to shifting i feel lost.

i can't trust myself, no matter what i read, etc i find myself feel so hopeless and its soul crushing. i just want to shift. i just want to confirm that it was actually all REAL for me and that i can do it.

there has been SO MANY situations in this reality where shifting was soemthing i NEEDED to do but no, i found myself waking up here and having to deal with such circumstances, my mental health taking a toll each time.

its so i dont even know how to describe it, its something i yearn for so badly.

i have daydreamed most of my life for a better life and shifting was the solution to living it but some reason its feeling more on the curse side compared to the blessing side.

how am i suppose to believe i am gonna wake up in my dr when even the times i had full confidence, i woke up here?

i dont wanna just experience it in my imagination/4D i wanna physically FEEL, SMELL, SEE, TASTE AND HEAR my dr.

i have always told myself "this will be the night" and i find myself just lying to myself and ending up waking up the next morning in the same bed i slept in.

and the worst thing about all of this is that giving up is simply not an option. no matter how much this hurts my mind, i can never give up. it will always be part of me, i will always remember it.

i am trying, i really am. it honestly feels so shitty seeing people say those who havent shifted aren't "trying enough" because trust i am. the amount of minutes i have spent doing guided meditations, the amount of shifting subliminals i have listened to, the amount of mental diets i have restarted because i told myself i can't give up, the amount of tears of frustation i have cried over shifting and ur telling me im not "doing enough".

another side of that coin is seeing people say shifting is easy and it feels like a stab to the chest. like trust i know shifting is simple and easy so why haven't i done it yet? questions like these i cannot get from others but within but thats what is the cherry on top to this frustration cake.

i dont know what to do.

i fucking ache for and miss my men, just to have some kind of love that i never experienced.

Forever grateful I decided to give shifting a chance.

Taking a moment to look back on how far I've come in my journey and you should too. It doesn't matter whether or not you've shifted, you came so far there's no use in giving up now.

I know I won’t believe in shifting until I actually shift

I want to be able to shift on command

I still feel like I’m missing some piece of information

I’m tired of limiting beliefs and living in them still

I’m doing the direct experiences exercises from Anila Reddy

But I want to be able to shift on command and I feel like I won’t be able to achieve that unless I say affirmations but that’s another limiting belief

I don’t get how people can shift on the first attempt and don’t in believe in shifting or people who can shift on command

I’m literally doing everything right and yet I’m still fucking here

I’m always going to feel like I’m missing something or doing something wrong until I actually shift or manifest whatever I’m wanting

It’s been 7 years I think in this community? maybe 6 but I’m so so tired of this because I genuinely do feel like I’m doing all the right things for once and trying not to be obsessed or super stressed about the outcome but what the actual fuck

When I think about my life I don’t want to be here, I genuinely fucking ball my eyes out just thinking about it, being here and being here in the future, all the shit I have to do in order to survive

Like no I want nothing to do with this reality! Fuck this reality and everyone in it!

I know shifting/manifesting is the easiest thing ever and my brain likes to over complicate it but still having to participate here is what’s stressing me out

Being here is stressing me out and I’m doing all I can to chill out and relax but I dread being awake and having to see this 💩 reality

The shifting/manifesting isn’t what’s necessarily making me upset it’s just my current reality is what’s fucking with me