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See, the thing about Ryan Leonard is that there is a part of him, deep and sharp and raw, that hates Will. Not in the way you dislike someone you find mean or annoying or boring, but in the way you hate someone for making you love them. Because he did love Will—does love Will, probably, because you don't ever really stop loving someone like that, not when you grew up together and knew each other's worst parts and loved them anyway.
The worst part is that Ryan never wanted to love Will, it was a bloody ruthless battle against himself the entire way down. No, Ryan Leonard learned very early on the cardinal rules and loving Will broke the most important of them: do not be soft, do not love a boy, and do not love someone more than they love you. The first—do not be soft—Ryan broke before he knew the game. He was the youngest of four, the age difference too large to ever truly be friends with his siblings, and his parents had spent whatever nurturing energy they may have once had on his sisters. They loved him, of course, but not always in the way he needed, and it had fostered in him a bone-deep ache to be loved. He'd always wanted so desperately, his entire soft heart bleeding with it even as a kid.
And maybe John had known, and that was the reason he’d push and shove and hit until Ryan fought back, until he learned how to give as good as he got even when he was smaller and weaker. Maybe that had been why he’d shot puck after puck after puck at him in the basement, until Ryan was on his knees, exhausted, but able to dodge what he could and take what he couldn't. He learned to bare his teeth and sharpen his edges, even if he never quite managed to fully hide his soft underbelly where his desperation to be seen, to be wanted, to be loved could be found.
Friendship with Will was easy. He gave his attention so freely when they were just stupid kids, and Leno was greedy with it. He still had to work for Will's love—because in Leno's world you always have to work for it—but it was easy to do. Will liked his rough edges, his crude jokes, his physicality. Ryan became his protector, fighting for him on the ice and off of it, and in return he gained Will's affection. In time, Leno realized that Will's affection also came with his family, who were so unlike Leno's own that at first he'd been convinced it must all be fake—but it wasn't. Like Will, the rest of the Smith's were open with their affection. They welcomed him into their home easily and remembered his favorite games and foods, folding him in like he'd always been there. When he and Will were both recruited by the program, Colleen acted as though him living with them in Plymouth instead of with some strangers was a no brainer, because he was like a second son to her.
Living together meant that Ryan learned everything about Will. Late nights when Will would sneak into Leno's basement bedroom and they'd stay up whispering about the future. Will would share his dreams and fears in equal measure, all of the things he didn't even talk to Voter about because it was becoming more clear that Voter might not make the show and Will felt guilty sharing his own fears. For the first time there was something Will chose Leno for over everyone, and it was honest and real—Leno knew, because he'd had to earn it. That was when Leno began to love Will.
He never did come to understand how Will could be so good, so unbelievably talented, and still be so soft. Didn't you ever learn to hide it? Don't you know they'll use it against you? But Will stubbornly refused to change, so Ryan continued to be his protector. He wasn't the only one who knew how special Will was, and the others were protective too. Will shared his affection with them as easily as he once had with Leno, but they didn't know every part of Will like Leno did. They didn't see Will crying after a one-on-one with Culik or shaking under the covers the night before they were supposed to fly out for U18 worlds, that was only in front of Leno, and he loved Will for it. He loved him even more when he committed to BC, just like Ryan had.
Together, they convinced Gabe to join them, and Leno loved being a part of something with them, loved being a member of a unit. Things weren't quite the same at BC, but things were still good. 6934, the best line in college hockey. They were going to win it all, add to the collection they'd started with their U18 Worlds gold medals from just before the draft. They were electric together, like they'd always been, and they added another gold to their shared collection in January, then the Hockey East title at the end of March, and Leno was filled with more happiness than he'd ever thought possible, so much of it thanks to Will. Six points, Will with a fucking dick trick, and Leno was fucking in love with him.
And then it all fell apart. They lost the title in a shut out and Will yanked Leno up off the ice, as though Leno's heartbreak was something to hide—and it was, Ryan knew, when had he forgotten that? and then Leno and Will got calls from USA Hockey that Gabe didn't get and Will was acting cagey and distant and he didn't look Ryan in the eyes when he asked if Will wanted to stay up late to watch the draft lottery. They lost and returned home without a medal and then, as though he wasn't breaking a promise that Ryan had thought was sacred, Will looked at him across the breakfast table in the Smith residence and said he wasn't coming back, that he was going to sign his ELC. All of it, for nothing.
Betrayed and hurt and abandoned, Ryan Leonard did what he always did: lashed out, hiding his hurt behind sharp claws, cutting where he knew it would hurt. In the wreckage, he realized he loved Will. Leno had gotten the same offer and had chosen to keep his promise, to stay, because he loved him. It was a horrible, terrifying realization, because it broke the other two rules—do not love a boy and do not love someone more than they love you—because Will didn't love him, not like Ryan loved Will. If he had, then how could he break that kind of promise and leave him like it was nothing? So, he hates him and loves him. Ryan doesn't know how to forgive Will for any of it—for making him love him, for not loving him back, for leaving—even if sometimes, especially as time has passed, Leno wishes he could. Because underneath all of that tangled up inside him, sometimes he just really misses his best friend.
A deep(er) dive into the Way of Champions Podcast Warsofsky interview
I've been seeing some short clips circulate from this interview and tbh I thought people were drawing some wild conclusions from them, so I decided I'd watch the whole thing and see if there was more to it. There is a tendency to be very negative about Warso in a way that isn't very productive anymore in my opinion and this was actually a fascinating interview! I'm going to give you my main takeaways but I encourage you to watch the whole thing if you're interested in what goes on in Warso's head.
Disclaimer: this interview is about how Warso sees himself and his own coaching style. Even if what he believes he is doing, or says he is doing, doesn't completely align with reality, it's still interesting to look at the kind of coach he would want to be in an ideal situation. We're not in the room with the team, so it's hard to really say whether any of this holds water. I'm simply trying to draw attention to a few interesting things he's saying, the future will tell whether his words hold up!
1. Warso's coaching philosophy
Warso places immense value in the team culture, relationships with the players and trust. He repeats those terms over and over again throughout the interview. He clearly sees himself as a coach who puts a lot of time and effort into knowing his players and having his players know him. He also emphasizes the group dynamics and players playing for each other, and he thinks that great results will eventually flow from that. This is interesting because I think that's almost the opposite of how a lot of fans see Warso (and that's understandable given some of the things he's said in the media) but we do know that almost all the players talked about the great culture they had this season, so there must be at least some truth to it!
2. Warso and Will
From what he says in this interview I actually think he sees Will Smith very clearly. Firstly, because I see this being repeated all around on here, Warso is not claiming he is Will Smith's best friend, he's saying that Will is the player he himself is probably the closest to.
Secondly, a lot of the things he says that could be heard as criticism of Will in this interview are simply just true. Will was the best player in his age category for a long time and that did allow him to get away with holes in his game that are problematic in the NHL. We also know from other men who have coached Will that he's very coachable and responds well to high standards being set. In this interview Warso clearly mentions the things Will is already good at and how valuable they are (his creative play making mostly), he acknowledges that he maybe went too far sometimes ("There's certain situations where maybe I should give him some more rope, for sure") and he claims he does own up to his mistakes in the room ("I'm real, I'm honest, I'm passionate (...) I do make mistakes and I'll own up to it (...) - be accountable to your mistakes, and I think players care, you know, when they know that you're part of it with them, and they know we're all in this together, you get a lot more out of them.")
Warso acknowledges how passionate people are about Will but he's saying that he can't and won't let that sway him in what he thinks Will needs to grow, and I think that's valuable in a coach. He acknowledges readily that there's things Will can do that he himself would never be able to ("Are they still special players? 100%. Can they do things that I could never do and I'll never be able to do (...)? Of course.") but that doesn't mean he can't see where Will does have work to do. I don't necessarily always agree with Warso's methods, and I certainly think he's said some stupid shit in the media, but I do think that Warso has a vision for Will that he's working towards together with Will and it's valuable that he's willing to stick to his guns regardless of public opinion. Again, maybe there's a better way to go about it, but Warso clearly thinks what he's doing is working (and we did see Will improve a lot towards the end of the season).
3. Warso and Mack
Warso thinks very highly of Mack and it's clear from this interview that Mack will be captain soon. He talks about Mack's leadership qualities a lot ("he can speak when he needs to, but at the end of the day he leads by example") - I think it's very clear from this interview that Mack will be captain soon.
He also talks about how he and Mack are similar with regards to their temper during and right after games, but calm and more able to put things in perspectives the next day. I do think that's one of the reasons he really likes Mack ("I'm very similar, I'm passionate, I'm fiery, (...) but when the temperature comes down a bit I can see it clearly"). Warso knows he needs to work on his temper and he sees Tortorella with VGK as an example to emulate. We know Warso has already improved in this area compared to the previous season and he mentions that he's going to work on it this summer as well.
I actually don't think Warso sees Mack as clearly as he sees Will. He obviously thinks that Mack is an amazing player and a true example to other players in the room, and that's great, but I do wonder if he's able to see where Mack still needs to grow and where his pitfalls lie - we've seen that throughout the season with Mack seemingly choosing his own ice time and running endless double shifts. It's interesting that he doesn't really talk about any of the things Mack still needs to work on in the interview. You could see that as favoritism towards Mack or disrespect towards Will but at the end of the day I actually think that Mack might have the shorter end of the stick if his coach is unable to see where he still needs to grow and develop.
4. Development of other young players
What I'm still missing in this interview is a clearer vision from Warso on how to develop so many young players at the same time. Warso talks about Will a bunch and that's great, and he also talks about giving young guys ice time to work on their skills in different situations ("you want the Sam Dickinsons and the Michael Misas to get some experiences and some unique situations that they're going to be in for their career going forward") - I just don't think we really see that pan out in reality. He mentions how it's hard for a coach cause at the end of the day he's judged based on wins and losses, and that's of course true, but then what is his plan to develop these guys? What about the Shakir Mukhamadullins and Pavol Regendas of the world who need development but keep getting scratched? What about Misa's lack of ice time and the crazy line blenders?
I'd have loved to hear him speak about that a bit more, because while Warso says that "these young players need to gain experience in these situations and you can't just when they make mistakes rip it away from them", I think what we see happen on the ice is that it is very much ripped away from them. Add to that his comments in the media about "earning ice time" and you do have to wonder how he plans on continuing development for all these young guys, especially if another one is potentially added to the mix after this year's draft.
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I know the hatred for Warso runs deep and when you take some of what he says out of context, it does sound pretty bad - but I think we are doing him, the players and ultimately ourselves a disservice by refusing to engage with the totality of what he's saying. After watching the whole thing I can only say that I hope Warso can live up to the standard that he has set for himself, cause if he does he could actually be a really good coach. Again, this is just how he sees himself, who knows how it is in reality! But at least his philosophy and intentions seem to be in the right place.
These were my main takeaways, but there's a ton more interesting stuff in there! You can take a look under the cut for my transcription of the (to me) interesting parts of the interview if you want.
was his boys trip when he and gabe allegedly went down to florida? i did not realize that happened mother’s day weekend lol. with the caveat that this is rpf and these guys are dolls for us to play with and create stories, i can’t help but wonder if will’s gaining more independence from colleen the longer he lives in sj; i know she visits constantly but he still has enough alone time perhaps to ponder the suffocating (my word ofc) closeness of their relationship. idk just something i’ve been thinking about
certainly an idea worth musing on, anon! tentatively, i would like to agree with you. imposing distance is perhaps the most effective way of (incidentally or otherwise) imposing boundaries. this is why kids [generic] go to college, yes? to get away from the insular life of the hometown/parental unit/childhood friend group. get a feel for one's self beyond the confines of whatever value structures have been erected by one's community.
notably, will is both catholic and part of the new england elite - two historically insular communities upon which the defined collective ethos is strictly enforced. deviation from that politic (straying from the herd) is policed with prejudice. the fate of one's soul is on the line, as is the family inheritance. it is an exchange, in many ways. certain freedoms in favor of security, family, faith.
thus: will went to boston college. famously the same college his family has attended for generations. with traffic, newton is barely thirty minutes from lexington. he spent the entirety of his freshman year surrounded by his harem of brunettes - a collection, mind you, that he's been curating since like, third grade. this is not distance. this is not independence. this is barely a variation on a theme.
san jose - now that is what we call uprooting. i don't think we give will quite enough credit for making the jump when he did. deciding to leave behind everything he's ever known before he absolutely had to was probably a really big deal for him. he's always had his people. always. he couldn't escape them if he tried. his mom, his sister, leno, voter, gabe, etc. but that's not what waits for him in san jose! new state, new zip-code, new weather patterns, new time zone. no twelve-year friendship to cling to. no one's skirts to hide behind. just will and his hockey and a big neon sign: are you good for it, kid? and will, brave enough and crazy enough to reply, let's find out.
whether will saw san jose as an escape or not, it gave him access to a level of independence that i'd argue would've been otherwise removed from him. something of a wild claim, given his "freedom" is the rigor and routine of professional athleticism. but this is his first experience away from colleen, from the smith dynasty (except for their #appearances at his games), from the reality of whoever he spent eighteen years trying to be.
now, the conundrum of will is that he has a remarkably well-defined ego and some all-star levels of id repression. it's one of the most boydaughter things about him - he knows who he is, but can neither articulate what he wants nor act upon it. why? great question. that is the joy of psychoanalysis, and cannot be summarized cohesively here. but this conflict between will’s sense of self and the things that he doesn’t know how to want drives most of his neurosis. this is where his people pleasing comes from. giving other people what they want (making them like him) is not exactly the same as getting what he wants. but it’s a transference. which is close enough.
so what do you do if you are will, standing in will’s shoes? you’re in california, a place you’ve never been, surrounded by people who don’t know you past your hockey stats. you’ve been booted from the terrarium that you’ve existed in for your entire life, the one where nearly everything has been dictated to you from the beginning. how to stand, what to eat, how to run, how to pray, what to love, when to let go, how fast, how ugly, how much. some of that still exists here, but off the rink, you are left unmoored. so much time to think about all the things you’ve never had the space to think about. what do you want, will? do you even know? if you knew, could you even say it? for a person like will, with will’s specific brand of issues, this kind of freedom can feel like a panic attack.
enter: mack. 18!
mack is deeply insecure about his image and lacks a concrete sense of self. this is inflamed by his abrasive awkwardness off of the rink. he is a lurker who does not ever seem to sit comfortably inside of his skin without a tarp on; a product of his abnormal childhood, yes, but i like to think it’s also just mack (it’s one of my favorite things about him). what mack is, is all raw id, all the time. he knows what he wants, and he is driven by that want. it moves him, more than anything else.
mack is an off-putting weirdo who actually cannot help wearing his heart on his sleeve, and wants to win more than anything else in the world. this is very appealing to will, who is very good at not being off-putting or weird, but secretly is both of these things, and very bad about wearing anything on his sleeve. will, who would also like to win more than anything else in the world, but who cannot show it unless provoked just the right way. who is better when he has someone to please. transference. what is mine is yours. i could be so good for you, if you would only tell me how.
(and for mack, will is like… like, the best thing that has ever happened to him. someone who not only keeps up with him on the ice, but can keep up with him off of it. someone who wants to make himself into the person that mack needs him to be. someone who is willing to be entirely mack’s, just for mack, mack’s person, who likes him all the way! likes his jank. wants him more for it, really. someone who lights mack up, on and off the ice.)
codependent teenage weirdos, experiencing the first mouthfuls of freedom from their respective heads-of-houses + the first real choice that these kids make for themselves is to each other. the first choice, and then all the ones that come after it. let’s do this, let’s build this thing back up, let’s be the engine that this team needs us to be. we’re going to make it, you and me, we’re going to get to the top, and we are going to make it everyone’s problem. we are going to play our hockey, it is going to be ours in a way it’s never been anyone else’s, because there has never been a you and a me like this before. you’re going to make yourself into someone who can play on my line because that is what i asked of you, and i’m going to be the person who loves your hockey more than anyone else, who sees ghosts of you on the ice when we aren’t even standing on the same continent - when i'm playing with my heroes - because you’re just that good to me.
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still thinking about how mack’s coach at shattuck looked to fourteen-year-old macklin for reassurance when he was nervous about their team losing a tight game
all the adults in mack’s life have always placed the weight of the world on his shoulders and he’s always born it without complaint. growing up, he was always by far the best player on every team, and so the responsibility of dragging his team to wins always sat with him. if mack didn’t shine, they lost. this is not something new or unique to his time with team canada and the sharks. it’s the grave weight he’s carried pretty much his whole young career. the sharks only won two games last season where mack didn’t record a point, and mack had a point in every single terriers win except one. his coaches and his teammates and everyone watching knew it. if they won, it was because of mack, and if they lost, mack believed it was because of him, too.
that kind of pressure on a kid for so long has to have had a lasting impact, and yet everyone who’s ever talked about him can’t help but gush about how kind and fun he is, how he conducts himself exactly like sid off the ice, how he cares more about the game than anyone they’ve ever met and still treats everyone so well. mack clearly still struggles with anxiety and the pressure and his emotions, and there are times when he can’t hold it in and it ruins him a little, voice cracking, eyes watering, everything bursting through the cracks as his body shakes and he can’t seem to keep how upset he is at bay, but he’s always quick to compose himself after and stuff everything back down behind an “i’m okay, i was made for this, i can handle it, this is what i was built for” mask as he smiles again and forces himself not to express any insecurities out loud, knowing that the next day, the cycle will repeat again. everyone will rely on him again. and he can’t afford to let them see how desperate he is not to let them down. and how responsible he feels whenever he isn’t enough
Can you tell is a bit more about macklin and his temperament at BU that you were talking about? 👀
Well it was pretty well known that he was very hard to get along with when he was at BU, although keep in mind he was 17 and also The Next Big Thing for the draft, so there could be A LOT of factors going into this. It seems to have taken a while for him to have made friends with some of the guys, most of the leg work for that was done by Aiden*, and he famously did NOT get along with his captain** and the two fought a lot, and then there's another player he fought with as well. Mostly that fighting was verbal, although there's instances he'd get physical too. Their coach seemed to have gassed Mack up a ton as well, so who knows what the environment was like for everyone else the year he was there. *I know especially with the Marathon Monday stuff that some attention was shone on BU players that have basically stayed under the radar but are known as having been friends/roommates with Mack. Most of them have maintained very close relationships with Aiden, which is probably one of the big reasons why Mack can slot back into things when he visits. I'm not saying these guys are more Aiden's friends now than not, BUT... **said captain has spoken positively about Mack in interviews post-BU, now whether that's because he's smart enough to say the right thing or they get along now who knows
omg and they're bringing their ratty little untrained purse dog with them absolutely everywhere on the plane and into the hotel and locker rooms on roadies and it's just yipping all the time and biting ankles and crapping on the floor like an episode of The Osbornes
they take her to the whole foods and she's straining at the end of her leash licking the rotisserie chickens while wackles, oblivious, stand there and argue about whether ataulfo or regular mangoes are better
they go to a pet friendly cafe and while they're locking ankles and braiding eyelashes little macky somehow gets into the pastry case so they get asked to leave and at the door will turns around and says 'the lavender cold foam here is mid anyways' and they go home and write a scathing zero star review in the dinner book
omg and they're bringing their ratty little untrained purse dog with them absolutely everywhere on the plane and into the hotel and locker rooms on roadies and it's just yipping all the time and biting ankles and crapping on the floor like an episode of The Osbornes
they take her to the whole foods and she's straining at the end of her leash licking the rotisserie chickens while wackles, oblivious, stand there and argue about whether ataulfo or regular mangoes are better
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omg and they're bringing their ratty little untrained purse dog with them absolutely everywhere on the plane and into the hotel and locker rooms on roadies and it's just yipping all the time and biting ankles and crapping on the floor like an episode of The Osbornes
with all the dog lover talk going on i think that whenever you guys are ready we should rehash will and mack wearing matching j crew family section christmas pajama pants with little dogs on them to the sharks’ ugly sweaters party while everyone else just wore normal pants
like. WHENEVER you guys are ready