Summary: When two young people fall in love others often call it puppy love. A love so intense that ultimately fizzles out very quickly. No one believes someone so young could fall for someone so fast and have it be genuine until they see it with their own eyes.
Jungkook/female reader
cowboy au
fluff smut angst
Chapter 1 Chapter 2
The Toy
Summary Jungkook comes home from tour and asks you to help him live out his fantasies
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Hi anonnie, Iām sorry but my life kinda imploded a lil bit and Iāve been dealing with that. I definitely havenāt forgotten about my story I just havenāt worked on it recently :(
When I asked to see if you could put in a pov from the other members i honestly did not expect to read about jimin betraying the mc ā¹ļø Iāve read this chapter twice so far, thank for everything you put out for usš
Thank you for continuing to stay on the pain train with me! Iām like a genie lol you gotta be careful what you wish for!
I promise thereās a happy ending we just gotta get through more angst first.
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Warnings: Thereās smut in this chapter :) some brief pussy eating and doggy style (wolfie style?) also Jimin is a bit of a jerk.
Word count: 3,028
Summary: All Y/N wants to do is find her creativity and motivation but she finds 7 werewolves instead.
Author note: Everyone please get your tomatoes ready to throw and boo at me because Iām a liar and I deserve it. Remember when I said this chapter was gonna be 5k? Welp that didnāt happen. BUT this is my longest chapter. The dang smut scene tripped me up so if it seems rushed please know I threw in the towel for my own sanity and said fuck it Joonie is a 2 pump chump today.
If you had to pick a favorite room in the spacious house your pack resides in it would be the library. Before you came along it was mainly Namjoonās refuge away from the rest of the members. After many years together the younger wolves have learned that if Namjoon is reading to only bother him when its an emergency. Reading and gaining knowledge on many different subjects is one of lifeās many pleasures for Namjoon. Getting lost in a good book lets him escape his many responsibilities even if itās for a short while.
That all changed when you showed up. Namjoon saw you fall in love with his sacred dwelling and he let you carve your own little space within it. He reluctantly let some of his philosophy books be replaced with your beloved romance novels. With you spending a large portion of your time within the space eventually led to the three younger wolves coming in too. That lasted a week until the alphaās patience wore thin and once again banished them from the room. It may or may not have been partly due to Jiminās constant pestering to read the smut scenes in your novels with you. You offered to lend him your Kindle so he could read the āIce planet Barbariansā series on his own but he said it wasnāt the same without you.
In the relative darkness the only light emanating in the room is from a tall floor lamp next to the comfortable red suede sofa youāre sharing with Hoseok. Who was currently softly snoring, splayed out on his back in wolf form, paws in the air and head your lap. You ran a hand through the thick tan fur on his chest and held a thick vampire romance book in the other. You were finally getting to the āspicyā scene after 500 pages of slow burn enemies to lovers when a hand on your shoulder made you jump slightly.
āHey, itās late lets get you to bed.ā
āWhat time is it?ā You ask stretching your arms and groaning. Time always seems to fly when you read.
āMidnightā He answered while helping you carefully maneuver out from under Hoseok. Learning from experience that the older wolf does not like being woken up and will curse out anyone indiscriminately for doing it.
Once your other mate was situated you followed Namjoon up towards your room.
The house you lived in was huge so every original member had their own bedroom. The royal pack allocates housing funds based on amount of pack members. The bigger the pack the bigger the housing fund was. They often build houses for packs before theyāre even finished being formed. For as inclusive the moon goddess is, it seemed the court hasnāt upheld that value when it comes to making space for potential children. Adoption is definitely a thing in the werewolf world, and many packs that are all the same sex do still have parental desires. Unfortunately room isnāt often accounted for them. The sale of original pack houses is permitted itās just a long process but many packs seeking extra space will jump through hoops to buy and trade housing to get what they desire. Often child free packs are willing to move or packs that decide to relocate to other cities or countries all together. Itās like the human world with more (annoying) rules.
All of that meant there was no room for you in the beginning. Instead of packing up and buying a new place that no one including you wanted to do, Jimin ended up giving up his room and voluntarily moving in with Taehyung. The pair sleep together the majority of the time anyway.
Although often the members preferred to sleep with a varying number of other members together rather than alone, but having a personal space to themselves where they can be alone is also important. Since you were human and not used to pack living they all definitely wanted you to be able to have your space as to not overwhelm you.
You always wondered how the higher ups got a hold of so much money. Yoongi said that they do lots of dealings with Governments around the world and some officials were actually werewolves. They operate behind the scenes and take steps to make sure human and werewolf relations remain civil.
The public may not know of their existence but the international elites and the chaebols of Korea know of their existence. Back in the age of royal dynasties many kings used werewolves as close body guards. Even when not shifted a werewolf is more powerful than a normal human. Enhanced hearing and sense of smell were huge advantages which made their existence beneficial and solidified the safety of the werewolf species as a whole.
Opening your covers and helping you into bed Namjoon gave you a quick kiss before turning to head out.
āCan you sleep here tonight?ā you ask grabbing his wrist before he could leave, giving your best attempt at āpuppy dog eyesā you could muster.
He let out a fake exasperated sigh and an exaggerated eye roll before flashing a dimpled smile, āI guess.ā
You let out a noise of triumph before scooting over to make room for the large man. He got comfortable wrapping himself around you from behind and relaxed his seemingly always tense muscles. After thirty minutes you could tell by his breathing that he wasnāt asleep. Knowing he was awake was keeping you awake so you deciding to do what you know could have any man sleeping afterwards.
Starting to slowly push your hips back into his you smirked when his hold on you tightened. Ā A few well practiced circles had resulted in his unmistakable hardness poking into your butt.
āWhat are you doing?ā Namjoon asked in a voice that implied he knew exactly what you were doing.
āIām helping you sleep.ā
āYouāre doing the exact opposite,ā He teased while moving to give you room to lay on your back. He snorts as he sees you rush to pull down your pajama shorts and underwear. āSomeoneās eager.ā
āItās not everyday I get to have my alpha like this.ā You say as you open your legs for him to slot between them. This causes Namjoon to frown and lean down to look in your eyes and gently stroke your cheek.
āDo you feel like I neglect you?ā
āNo, no itās not like that,ā You stammered trying unsuccessfully to get Namjoon to back up so you could sit up. Giving up when he wouldnāt budge you sighed, āItās just that⦠I know I've already been here for a while so I should be used to it by now but Iām still trying to get used to the whole pack thing. Ā Living with seven men with different personalities it sometimes feels like someone gets lost in the fray. I feel guilty for spending so much time with the maknaes and not enough with everyone else. When you came home and I went upstairs with Hobi I did feel bad for going with him.ā
Namjoon frowns a little before moving back and grabbing a pillow to place under your hips to elevate them to his liking.
āLet me see you.ā He says rubbing your outer thighs as you rush to pull down your shorts and panties. The articles of clothing were unceremoniously tossed behind him landing near your dresser. He uses his fingers to spread open your lower lips and stares at your warm inviting hole as if he wanted to eat you whole like the big bad wolf he is. āPretty girl.ā
You sigh happily as he scoots down the bed to lay on his stomach and then licks a slow swipe up your pussy ending at your clit. The feeling had your spine arching up off the bed as Namjoonās lips create a delicious toe curling suction. āOh shit!ā
As an alpha Namjoon liked to be in control at all times, that included during sex. You found that out the first time you tried to straddle him. Itās in his nature to take that as a dominance challenge. That action resulted in one of the roughest fucking in your life. You finally found out what Ariana Grande was talking about in the āSide to Sideā song. You also learned that Jimin loved doing that to him because he was a little glutton for punishment.
Unfortunately alphas can be exhausting to deal with as a whole and practice a bit of toxic masculinity pushed by their inner wolves. So keeping that in mind you were actively trying to not tangle your hand in his hair and grind onto his face. You were gonna get what he gave you, the way he wanted to give it and you were going to like it.
That was the complete opposite of Yoongi who loves for you to use use him to get off. If asked youād say the best orgasm youād ever had was the time he had you sit on his face while Jin sucked him off. All of his needy whines and groans against your pussy while he forced your hips down in a vice like grip. In the beginning you hesitated when asked to āsuffocateā him with your thighs. That wasnāt something you had ever done with your human exes but you grew to love it and crave it. He was the best out of your mates at eating you out and according to Taehyung he was the best cock sucker too. Yoongi called it his āTongue technologyā.
Namjoon working two fingers into you and immediately finding your G spot, brought you out of your thoughts. āFocus on me. Or Iāll leave you here.ā He growls lowly.
A shiver runs through you in not a wholly unpleasant way. His attempts at using his alpha voice always got on your nerves except when in bed. This is the only time you willingly submit to the werewolf.
āNo, please fuck me alpha.ā You whine as he removes his fingers only to add a third in an attempt to prepare you for what was to come. Itās always futile, no matter how many times you have sex with any of the pack members you always have to psych yourself up in preparation of taking their knots. Over the past few years itās definitely gotten easier but when it comes to you they all know to try to ease it in slow unlike the animalistic way they shove their knots into each other. The human body just wasnāt built to take a toll like that, much to your annoyance. Ā
Namjoon gets off the foot of the bed to remove his pajama pants revealing the fact he was going commando. Giving his large leaking erection a few strokes as he waited for you to turn over onto your hands and knees. Another alpha quirk youāve learned is his favoritism of this submissive position.
āBack up,ā he commanded gesturing to the edge of the foot of the bed. āGood girl.ā
Aligning himself with your entrance Namjoon pushes in his girth all the way in with a groan. Rubbing circles on the sides of your waist where he was holding onto you he stayed still giving you time to adjust. You turned your head back after a minute and nodded to him to give the okay to start moving but he didnāt.
āMove, please!ā you whined desperately.
āNo, Iām tired.ā Namjoon says with a smirk. āIf you want it you do the work.ā
He lets go of you and proceeds to fold his arms at his chest waiting for your compliance. With a pout you start moving your hips starting off slow before picking up rhythm. You give one good slam back which causes the headboard of your bed to smack the wall loudly.
āItās late, donāt wake anyone up.ā Namjoon chastises with a light smack to your ass.
You roll your eyes but decide not to argue. Your obedience was rewarded as you felt your alpha lean over you with one hand on the bed and the other slipping between your thighs.
āOh fuck!ā you gasp and lose the strength to hold yourself as he expertly plays with your clit. Namjoon enjoys the way your velvety walls clamp down on him as you orgasm. He takes this opportunity to ease his knot in and spill his hot cum with a loud drawn out groan of your name.
You were both flying high on an endorphin rush, it was over quickly but you didnāt care. Namjoon stayed holding himself up trying not to crush under his weight. Ā He very much didnāt want to move because every movement pulled on his sensitive knot. Knowing you would be stuck like this for twenty minutes he wanted to be comfortable. Wincing, he pulls you up to awkwardly carry you back to the top of the bed.
You settled in under the blankets with him spooning you from behind. Even though you were tired you still couldnāt sleep. The feeling of his knot throbbing was distracting so you decided to ask a question youāve been thinking for a long time.
āHey Joonie? Can I ask you a question?ā
The man just hummed a noise that you took to mean yes.
āHow did you become the alpha?ā
āEvery last full moon of the year thereās a large festival where all of the packs in the country that have young wolves who have turned eighteen converge. It lasts the full three days of mandatory shifting. Pack members are added to each forming pack every time the festival comes around and the minute the future alpha is found for each pack they are immediately put in charge. I wasnāt the original alpha it was actually Hoseok hyung who was chosen. Since heās older than me he was added to the pack before me.ā
Your eyebrows went up, It takes a special type of werewolf to run a pack and you couldnāt envision Hobi doing that. Although the older wolf definitely kept the younger three wolves in check he was really sweet the majority of the time.
āWhen my pack was chosen for me after five other wolves I met Jin hyung and Yoongi hyung and him. We were making plans with our respective families when all of a sudden the moon witches made an announcement that there was to be an alpha switch. It was actually a bit of a controversy at the time. Itās rare for the moon goddess to change her mind. The witches thought it might be because of my lineage. I come from a family line with three alphas. My great grandfather, grandfather and father were all alphas of their packs.ā
āWas Hobi mad about it?ā
āHe was definitely resentful, he rarely spoke to me the first couple months I lived in the pack house but he eventually got over it. He has since told me multiple times he is so relieved itās not him because he feels like he wouldnāt be as patient and might have strangled the maknaes by now.ā
You laugh at that, Namjoonās breath hitched as your core squeezed him rhythmically. Ā Satisfied with his answer you tried again and succeeded in falling asleep. You didnāt feel when Namjoonās knot released or when he got up and cleaned you up with his discarded shirt before settling back behind you and drifting off as well.
Present Day
āNone of you can look me in the eyes and tell me youāre okay with this! You know whatās gonna happen to them!ā Taehyung yells exasperatedly at the rest of the wolves who were sitting in silence in the spacious hotel room. The tension so thick all it took was this outburst to make it boil over.
āItās what Namjoon wants so drop it.ā Hoseok says lowly as he lays on one of the two king sized beds, stroking Yoongiās fur. The older wolf was still transformed and unconscious after Yoona fixed his arm. The witch gave him a potion to stay in that state to aide in healing.
āDrop it? You expect me to drop it?! How can you be so fucking heartless?ā Taehyungās voice shakes as heās fighting to stop from breaking into a sobbing mess. āYouāre the one who could talk the most sense into him.ā
Hoseok drops his gaze and turns his head away.
āPlease just try!ā Taehyung grabs onto the older wolfās shoulders shaking him and finally letting the tears escape.
āTaehyung,ā Jimin grabs the back of his shirt and pulls him away. āYouāre thinking with your heart and not your brain. Jungkook is dangerous, it may have been an āaccidentāā he emphasizes with air quotes, ā but this has been a running theme with him. He is not a pup anymore, heās had years to start acting like an adult and he canāt manage to do that so now weāre all suffering for it. It was only a matter of time before he fucked up enough to get unmated.ā
Taehyung looked at him incredulously not believing his ears that Jimin could just say those things about their other mate. Jimin pushes him back into the wall and looking into his eyes with their foreheads almost touching.
āGet. Out. Of. My. Face.ā Taehyung snarls.
āIām right and you know it. You just canāt handle the truth. Both Jungkook and Y/N are detrimental to the health of this pack. She continuously babies him and feeds into his behavior. Our alpha knows whatās best for us, itās about time you realize that, fall in line or get out.ā
āJimin! Knock it off.ā Jin growls walking out of the bathroom. āYouāre not helping.ā
Pushing away from Jimin and bumping into the smaller wolfās shoulder he practically runs out of the room completely ignoring Jin calling out for him to wait. He knew the minute the door slammed behind him he might have made a mistake but he just couldnāt live with Namjoonās decision. Even if it means going through the unmating process too.
Can u pretty pls just post what u have I BEG Iām sorry if this is mean š Iām just really excited and ur story is really good I donāt mind if itās not edited or if you literally deleted all ur work and u just have a sentence or a single word or a single comma pls pls pls post it
I just have one scene left, (I shouldn't have promised 5K words because I have such a hard time writing long chapters. It's not gonna be 5K but it is going to be my longest chapter yet)
Here's a small teaser :o)
Starting to slowly push your hips back into his you smirk when his hold on you tightens. A few well practiced circles results in his unmistakable hardness poking your butt.
āWhat are you doing?ā Namjoon asks in a voice that implies he knows exactly what you are doing.
āIām helping you sleep.ā
āYouāre doing the exact opposite,ā He teases while moving to give you room to lay on your back. He snorts as he sees you rush to pull down your pajama shorts and underwear. āSomeoneās eager.ā
āItās not everyday I get to have my alpha like this.ā
Hi guys! Iām actively working on the next chapter of WANS. Itās taking awhile because i keep writing and rewriting and then rewriting scenes. Iām making progress and am now forcing myself to stop over thinking and just leave things the way they are the first time.
Thereās gonna be lots of insight of werewolf culture and there may or may not be some smut and of course more angst.
Thank you guys for your continued support and putting up with my slow updating. You guys help me slug through all the self doubt and writers block.
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Hi guys! Iāve officially started working on chapter 13 of Wolves are (NOT) Scary and Iām planning on this chapter being long. I suck at writing long chapters as you can tell but Iām officially making it my mission this time. My goal is AT LEAST 5K words.
This chapter will have a look into more aspects of werewolf culture and YN and Namjoonās past dynamic. I hope yāall donāt hate him in this story š
We will get some insight on how the rest of the pack is doing. (Credit to the anon that requested this!) There may or may not be some very heated verbal disagreements.
Also, I am willing to to write drabble requests for WANS so if anyone has anything theyād like to see from this AU send me an ask :) (they can also be about just the members without YN!)
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Oooiiihh the new chapter was incredible. Feeling so bad for mc though, she acts like she also wasnāt discarded from one minute to the next. Simply for standing up, for one mate. Canāt wait to see when sheās fully in angry mode, and lets the other 6 have it. I missed this story so muchš
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Sheās running on outrage, she feels that it was just a mistake and she canāt believe theyād all just sit there and allow Jungkook to be disowned like that.
Since sheās not a werewolf none of the pack structure issues that are inherent to the wolves actually affect her. And she just canāt understand throwing away someone you love just because one person said to do that.
She has on human āblindersā so to speak. Her world view is skewed a different way.
There has always been a tension brewing between her and Namjoon because oftentimes she doesnāt bow to his will even on small things.
Keep that fact in mind for future chapters, thereās a reason for that ;)
Warnings: Starbucks slander and excessive question mark use
Word count: 1,818
Summary: All Y/N wants to do is find her creativity and motivation but she finds 7 werewolves instead.
Author note: Long time no see! Iām such an inconsistent writer itās not even funny. The bad thing is that I have tons of ideas written down but I can never put them onto the page. Writing is hard T_T
That first scene may or may not be from my actual feelings.
The only thing keeping your laptop from being thrown at the wall is the fact that itās expensive and you canāt afford to buy a new one. The feeling of the blinking cursor on the blank word document mocking you is driving you absolutely bonkers. Feeling hopeless you switch to your ideas notebook to see if physically writing would kick start your creativity. Thatās a trick people on a writing forum you follow swear by. Unfortunately that ended with the poor defenseless notebook being flung across the room.
Yeji once suggested speaking to a therapist about having anger management issues after walking into your office and having to dodge a flying pen Matrix style. The thing is that writing is the only thing that brings this emotion out of you. No other thing has been this frustrating in your life, especially these past few months. This change of scenery was supposed to help, instead its made it worse since now youāre all alone dealing with the thoughts of self doubt and multiple episodes of laying on the floor like the scene in Lilo and Stitch. Except, unlike Lilo, you have no one here to tell āLeave me alone to dieā to. Ā
Youāre beginning to feel like a failure, absolutely no work has been accomplished. What kind of author canāt even write or draw? Maybe giving up the childrenās book gig and becoming an erotica novel writer is a good idea. Youāve always thought about the idea of writing spicy romance novels. Youāve heard the building secretaries whispering about the newest āspicyā book theyāve seen on Tiktok. Apparently fantasy books about werewolves are very popular, talking about āmatesā and āknotsā and other supposedly hot things. Who knew porn about imaginary creatures would be something people would be into.
This cabin was supposed to help you write but right now itās feeling like a stuffy prison. Checking Naver for any local coffee shops you discovered thereās a Starbucks, should you support local coffee shops instead? Yes. Would you rather have a frappucino than real coffee? Also yes.
This Starbucks wasnāt a standalone building. Just like almost every other building in this town itās connected to other shops almost like a strip mall. Thereās a pet supply shop to the right of it and a tteok-bokki restaurant to the left.
Resisting the urge to stop at the restaurant you walk into the Starbucks and find that it looks just like any other one you could find in Seoul. It seems like this location is pretty popular. Thereās a moderately long line of people waiting to place their order. All the tables were occupied even the seats right at the bar were taken. Sighing in defeat Ā you switch your laptop bag from one shoulder to the other.
Heading out the door you heard a pair of voices loudly bickering behind you. Stopping to hold the door open for the men you recognized one of the men as Yoongi from the bakery. You didnāt know the other man though.
āWould you like some coffee with all that sugar?ā Yoongi said giving the other manās drink in his hand a disgusted look.
The taller man scoffed, āOh Iām sorry that Iām not a coffee snob like you and only drink my coffee black. I happen to love myself and caramel frapuccinos are my comfort food. Self care is important these days!ā
Yoongi rolled his eyes before noticing you, āWhat are you doing here?ā
Before you could answer he was smacked on the back of his head and pushed out of the doorway. āYa! Donāt you have any manners? Sorry about him, Iām Jin and Iām guessing you know Yoongi.āā
You nodded while Yoongi turned and glared at the man behind him making a low sound that oddly resembled a dogās growl. Shivers went down your spine and oddly down to another place that you definitely were not expecting.
āI was trying to get a frappuccino and some cake pops but the line is way too long and I didnāt want to wait.ā
āI can make cake pops that are way better than those abominations. Cāmon letās go.ā
Sharing a confused look with Yoongi who just shrugged you followed after Jin who was marching like a man on a mission in the direction of the bakery.
Walking into the bakery your nose was overwhelmed with the scent of cinnamon, it almost made you sneeze. Yoongi ushered you to a table near a window and told you to sit tight. Pulling out your phone you decide to browse Instagram while you waited. Leaning back in your chair you could hear muffled arguing coming from what you assumed was the kitchen in the back.
āIām telling you, you need to play up the bad boy look. You can get more tips If you would at least answer when women ask you about your tattoos.ā
āAnd Iām telling you, they make me uncomfortable. Itās either cranky ajummas who give me dirty looks when they notice or women who have no shame and try to touch them. Iām not a damn petting zoo, hyung.ā
āYou look like a zoo animal.ā Jimin snickered while sitting on one of the counters near the stove. This resulted in a big glob of cream cheese frosting meant for the piping hot cinnamon rolls being launched at him narrowly missing his head and splattering on the wall. He jumped off the counter growling āListen here you little shit.ā
āWhat the hell do you two think youāre doing in MY kitchen?ā
Jin was fuming looking at his younger mates acting like children in his precious safe haven. He knew he shouldnāt have let Yoongi talk him into going on a break.
āHe started it!ā Jungkook pointed at Jimin who was currently stalking towards him ready to hit him in his stupid pretty boy face.
āShut up you little snitch!ā
āSnitches get stitchesā Yoongi added.
āCut it out all of youā Namjoon called from the office rubbing his temples trying to alleviate the migraine that was forming from staring at excel sheets all day.
āY/N is out there waiting for a coffee. This is our chance to give her the potion.ā Yoongi informed the alpha wolf giving him the iced Americano he bought for him.
āCall Taehung and tell him to get over here. Weāre executing the plan today.ā
~Present Day~
You didnāt know what to expect but what you were expecting sure as hell wasnāt this. The room you were currently held in looked like a five star hotel room, adorned in hues of red and gold and decorated with paintings of regal wolves hunting deer and hanging around the moon goddess. If you were here under different circumstances maybe you could appreciate how beautiful this room was.
There was no clock in here so it was impossible to know how long you were trapped in this makeshift prison cell. And the lack of a window was also disorienting. Your phone sat useless on a side table, long dead. But it wasnāt needed to know at least a few hours had passed since the guards brought you.
The first hour was filled with frantic pacing and trying to open the locked door. Why were you guys being treated like prisoners? Itās not like you broke any laws. But seeing how serious the guards were you figured some werewolf law was in fact broken.
During your crisis Jungkook was somehow able to fall asleep on the plush king size bed. He was curled up in the fetal position hugging a pillow close to his body. His baby face, even more prominent while relaxed and unconscious, made him look like a young boy and not a man in his twenties even with his facial peircings.
Rage filled every part of your being as you fought the urge to yell at him to wake up and face the reality of the situation. After all this was his fault, right? Why did he take that stupid potion? Why didnāt he listen to Yuna? Why couldnāt he stop being so immature for once in his life?
This was the first emotion other than soul crushing sadness that you felt this during this whole ordeal and it scared you.
Walking away from him and into the bathroom to cool off before doing something youād regret seemed like the right thing to do. Throwing things Jungkook already knew in his face would be cruel.
The marble of the bathroom counter felt cool against your palms as you stood in front of the sink staring at yourself in the mirror. You look rough, eyes red, face puffy and dried tears adorning your cheeks. You were never a pretty crier like the women in the Kdramas you watched every night with Jin. If said man was here heād tell you that you looked like you got ran over by a car and that you could never catch him slipping like that.
You snorted at the memory of your overly confident mate. He always had an ugly crying face but you didnāt have the heart to ever tell him that fact. The small smile you were able to conjure up quickly fell when you remembered soon he wonāt be your mate anymore. Ā Feeling the urge to cry once again felt ever present so you rushed to turn on the water faucet.
Cupping your hands you splashed cold water in your face. The freezing liquid was shocking enough that it felt like an emotional reset. It was a little trick you learned from Yoongi who said it always helped to ground himself when he felt a panic attack coming on. āYou canāt freak out when youāre coldā, heād say. You seriously contemplated taking a cold shower and just fully shocking your system into submission but that just sounded miserable.
You definitely didnāt need anymore miserable in your life.
Was everything Jungkookās fault? Yes. Could he have killed Yoongi? Yes. But he didnāt and that should count for something right? Why couldnāt Namjoon realize he was extremely sorry? Wasnāt the mate bond supposed to be strong? Isnāt it like a supernatural marriage pact?
What happened to āThrough sickness and healthā? How could Jungkook be thrown away like trash that easily? The thing that hurt the most was that no one else but you stood up for him. Not even Taehyung who ran with his tail between his legs when he was scared. Why were you the only brave one?
Jungkook was your priority now and you would stick with him for the rest of your life. The others may have been able to be forced into abandoning their love for him but youāre stronger than that. Fuck werewolves and their cowardice.
Youāre not a weak human and if you have to prove that to each and every wolf here you would. Especially your alpha.