what where am i

Really been stuck in the "I've been defeated by the Groove Master" phase of my art lately :(

the fact that on my way out of seeing the hadestown proshot with my sibling i was walking to the theater exit and without even thinking about it i turned around to see where they were... yeah. yeah.

like. you can be frustrated at orpheus. you can be heartbroken for orpheus and eurydice. you should be. but when you're walking together and your loved one isn't right next to you that instinct to turn around and check on them is as natural as breathing

i loved this poem so much that i memorized it and to this day i sometimes mutter it under my breath to keep my welding tempo even

I'm so perpetually charmed by the material conditions that result in "spooky" human experiences around here and the fact that they all HAVE explanations that are more interesting than "a spooky supernatural poor person did it" and people IGNORE those explanations just to be like, Goosebumps about it makes me so mad. its COOL to learn why sound travels weirdly in the hollers! its fun to learn about how specific landscapes produce specific experiences! I almost feel like the usamerican tendency to be like "there has to be an Outside Explanation" when presented with location-specific phenomena is a result of our flattening of places/the land into one monolithic concept of "outdoors" in our heads. naw. outdoors is different in different locations. there are location specific experiences that people will have or not have based on the material conditions of the location. because places are different.

I'm always seeing this sentiment of "I have got to make my art weirder" or people begging for weirder art but here's the thing, Weird is not a brand. You cannot rack your brains trying to figure out the "Weird" formula. You don't get weird art by artificially forcing whatever you think is "weird." You get weird art (and I think "weird" is sometimes people groping for a way of saying non-corporatized) by figuring out what you like, deep down, even (especially) if you think it's embarrassing and wallowing in it like a pig

In every way this is set up to be a joke like any other short video, it even uses the trope of main character in a wig to represent their mom, but it isn't funny at all. It's just sweet and nice

learn to associate cleaning with pride instead of shame and your quality of life will improve in ways you can't even imagine btw

I'm so glad sleep exists. What a bizarre and vulnerable aspect of being alive